Chapter 33 – Lance “Hey,” I was greatly confused and somehow a little bit disappointed to see Dominic instead of Jayler. I didn’t anticipate him to come and see me at the backstage right after I just sang the song that I wrote because of him. Although to be quite fair, he didn’t know he was the sole reason why I wrote that song. “How are you doing, Lance?” Dominic asked and I almost thought I’m feeling nervous to speak to him but I wasn’t. I was actually happy to see him once again. “Good. I haven’t felt this good in long while.” I confessed telling him what I truly feel at this moment. I feel really good and I have no hard feelings left for this guy who’s standing in front of right now. I’m going to guess that he’s very much happy with his life right now and although I’m still struggling to find my soul, I’m happy for him and Valentine. “Did you really wrote that song? That was so amazing of you.” He trailed and I can’t believe the sound of reality that he’s giving me compliments
Chapter 34 – Jayler I let out a loud gasp as I let the tingling pleasure of the cold water drizzle onto my naked body. Yowling and squirming definitely helped me lessen the frigid sensation and my body eventually got used to the nippiness. I don’t know why I’m enjoying cold showers lately but it is quite refreshing and calming at the very same time. After twenty minutes of squirming under the cold shower, I finally decided to finish up. I woke up early today even though I went home pretty late last night. I wasn’t supposed to sneak out but I had this itch and urge to go out and see Lance perform at his gig. It was scary to sneak out last night since dad is home but I managed to gather enough courage to take a risk. I called Kenneth to come with me and he said no at first but it doesn’t take much for me to convince him. He’s never the adamant type of person when it comes to alcohol and having fun. When I saw Lance in front of the stage I instantly felt happy to see him under those di
Chapter 35 – Jayler A small part of me is secretly wishing that Lance should’ve told this Dominic guy that he was the sole reason why he wrote that harrowing and gut-wrenching song. Whether it’s intentional or not, I figured that he still brought down a torrential rain of pain and thunderous agony that was all poured into that song. But then I thought that’s horribly uneducated of me to wish something like that. Yes, it’s true that I don’t know the exact feeling of those emotions but at least I have an idea and I’m inclined to believe that that’s worthy enough for me to feel for Lance. However, I might have to change my point of view in line with Lance’s sentiments. He, himself had told me that he’d already moved past, buried the hatchet and whatever you may want to call it. And I guess I have to respect his decision. “I think you did the right thing.” I voiced out. It’s not necessarily what I think but based on what I’ve heard so far, it’s got to be the right thing. “I know.” Lance
Chapter 36 - Jayler The whole trip to the beach was just a good two hours and I have got to admit, it’s quite fun to ride the public utility bus now that I’ve tried it. The air-conditioning system felt freezing even though when you look outside the sun’s pretty much burning. I had to use my jacket just to keep myself warm and even with the jacket on, I still felt like it’s winter. I noticed a few of the passengers seemed like they’re used to this frigid level of air-conditioning since they’re just wearing a t-shirt and they don’t even look like they’re freezing at all. This is essentially my first time riding the public bus towards the beach and it was certainly amusing to see different types of people. Lance and I had some pretty interesting conversation about how he’s managing his life having two jobs and all. He confessed to me that he never finished college and when I asked him about it he just shut down. In my head, I was thinking about pressing harder just to get to know the rea
Chapter 37 – Jayler “Someone special?” I repeated the words as if I don’t have a clear comprehension of what Lance had just asked. But the truth is, I don’t exactly know how to respond to that query. The reality is that I don’t really have someone special as far as I know. I mean, I have people like Kenneth and Jasper but I know what Lance was trying to say when he said those specific words. He’s most certainly talking about love and what do I know about love? “Don’t you have like a crush?” Lance rephrased the question perhaps thinking that I did not comprehend what he asked initially. I went silent for a moment and I didn’t know I was already staring tenaciously at Lance. His hair was now messy and his skin became a bit greasy caused by the heat in the open air but what had captured my attention was the way he was looking back at me. There’s something enigmatic in the way he looks at me like he’s looking beyond my soul searching for something there. Our eyes met halfway and I don’t
Chapter 38 – Lance The magnificent view of the sunset gave me nothing but a nice and fresh sniff of relief and even for that few minute glimpse of its striking the beauty of nature, it promised a fun and wild night ahead of us. Jayler and I are supposed to go back home by this time—we only came here to have a quick getaway from the inner city and all of the things that’s making me agitated—but it seemed that a beach party had halted our plans. Jayler was just super charged with high voltage of excitement when he learned about the beach party and while initially I was against that, I ended up agreeing to go and have a little bit of fun. Jayler appeared as if he’s a kid crying and begging for a box of chocolate at the chocolate shop and there even came a point that he became extremely unrelenting towards me. I just kept on declining and while it lasted, I was delighted and amused about how excited and thrilled he was to attend an actual beach party. At first, I honestly had no actual pl
Chapter 39 – Lance It took me seconds before I could even realize Jayler had planted an unprecedented kiss on my mouth and once I realized what was actually happening, I felt like the alcohol inside my system has just been flushed out. I was immediately pulled back towards reality and soberness and things seemed to go in slow motion. My initial response to Jayler’s sudden action was to reciprocate the kiss even though I was completely taken by surprise. I held the back of Jayler’s head, pulled his head even closer and then began kissing him back subsequently giving him what I think he wants. It was at this moment that I recognized the fact that he doesn’t know how to kiss. His mouth was plastered on mine but there’s no clear and passionate movement coming from him and I thought I’d have to take that role and start to guide him through it. I let out my tongue and began slithering my way inside his mouth, however that movement proved to be a wrong decision on my part. Jayler seemed to h
Chapter 40 – Jayler I stood mentally adrift under the shower as the cold water trickled down incessantly trying to wash away the sticky sweat off of my body. I just got home from that short vacation at the beach and I thought I’m going to be just fine and yet I still feel like I’m in a different space. It’s been quite an unexpected day and the apparent feeling of confusion and shock has been clinging onto me. I have zero to little idea on how would I describe the bizarre and almost unfamiliar feeling when I kissed Lance at that stupid beach party. It just happened in the moment and I don’t even know if I regret doing it but all I know is that I kissed him and I’m pretty much certain that a few people had seen us. I might have to admit the thought that I actually liked the kiss in all fairness, but I’m trying to convince myself that it was just a core mistake that was caused by the alcohol and maybe the sudden feeling of jealousy. I don’t even know why I was feeling jealous when there’