Chapter 30

I stand up, roll my shoulders, and clear my throat to shake the doubts from my mind. A nurse in the hallway looks up from her medicine cart to bow to me. I nod my head to her, but don’t stop walking until I get to Milo’s door.

They’ve turned most of the lights off in his room. He’s laying on his side, facing away from me.

“Um, Milo?” I whisper. “Are you awake?”

He doesn’t answer, so I quietly swing the door shut. I can come back tomorrow. The doctor said this isn’t my fault, but if I hadn’t let him kiss me, maybe he wouldn’t have had to be sedated. It’s a weird sense of guilt. I didn’t cause his trauma, but it sure feels like I’m to blame for his current situation.

“Leni, don’t leave.” Milo’s voice is groggy in my mind. “Please don’t leave.”

I look back in the room as he rolls over and looks at me sleepily. His steel-gray eyes are hazy and unfocused, but his lopsided smile makes my heart jump.

Is it selfish to be relieved that he’s awake instead of getting rest?

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