I don't know how to answer him. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya habang siya'y nakaluhod pa rin habang hawak-hawak ang singsing. The ring has a big pearl on its middle and it's surrounded with small pearls that looked like white sand. Is now the right time? Am I ready to start the new chapter of my life? I know that he already has confessed his love for me and how much he wants to be with me but...this is different, marriage is different. It is a lifetime choice. Hindi ko pa siya tunay na kilala and we started this relationship in a wrong way.I wandered my eyes around the place and saw that the instructors were not here anymore. Did he really plan this out? I tried to give him a genuine smile but ended up giving him a fake one. I don't know how to react! "I-I d-don't think...I don't t-think now is the right time, Jake," mahina kong saad sa kanya.Kahit na wala naman ng tao sa paligid, I still need to be careful. I waited and waited and waited for his response for minutes but then...he l
They say that love conquers all because it is the most powerful thing in the world. But for me, it's time. Time as it gives us the chance to love and to be loved, to reach the dreams we desire to have, to be someone whom we preferred to be, and to make a significant change for my family, for the society that I belong and live in, and for my self.This is why I always treasure the time that fate is giving me. Nobody knows when and where your time will be cut off. And the only thing that I need to do is to pursue what my heart really wants, to live the life I want, to love the person whom my heart beats for, and to be with the people who have a significant place in my life.It's been two days since I came back here in Cebu to celebrate the Christmas and New Year with my family. Sa nakalipas na dalawang araw na iyon ay lagi kaming nag-uusap ni Jake. He never forgets to update me and he always calls me at night.Nakangiti ako habang pinapanood ko ang aking mga magulang na masayang naghahan
Healing SeaHindi ko alam kung bakit hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako mapakali. I felt like I needed to come back at my room and go call Jake. I felt like I have to bring back what I said and say sorry to him, that I didn't mean everything that I said.However, there is a part of me that thinks what I did was just right and in place. What he did was considered as cheating. He cheated on me with the girl he said not to worry about, Allison. But I know...that despite the anger that I have with Jake right now, I still think that I need to hear his explanations, on why Allison can easily go at his house, and what's the explanation of her endearment at Jake.I am jealous, yes. And fuck, this is the first time I have felt this as deep as I have ever expected. He may not be my first love but in my state right now, I could really say that he is my greatest love. Kaya naman napakasakit sa akin nang marinig ang mga salitang iyon kay Allison.I can't accept it. Hindi ko matanggap na paanong n
Touch"How did you get here anyway?" Andrei asked me.Nakaupo kami ngayon sa mga malalaking bato na nakapalibot sa dagat. Both of us were drinking alcohol and it is because of him. Siya ang may dala nito at pakiramdam ko talaga ay may problemang malaki ito eh."Naglakad lang." Simple kong sagot sa kanya bago ko inisahang lagok ang alak na nilagay ko sa shot glass."Damn, girl. Dahan dahan naman." Nilingon ko siya habang nakakunot ang aking noo. Infairness huh, he really is handsome and hot but sorry I am taken already."Eh hindi ba ikaw naman ang nag-ayang uminom? Bakit parang ayaw mo akong uminom ngayon?" Naguguluhang tanong ko sa kanya."It's not what I meant. What I meant is you have to be careful in drinking alcohol." He reminded me through his gentle voice.Nakatingin pa rin ako sa kanya at tinitingnan ang kanyang mukha. Even though he is smiling, the sadness in his eyes is still visible and I think he cannot hide it with a smile. Siguro kung sa ibang tao ay maaari pang maloko ni
The OrganizationNilingon ko siya nang sakupin ng takot ang buo kong katawan. But I've got not answer from him. He's just holding the steel wheel of his car and with the way he's holding it seems like he's going to break it in any minute. He is also clenching his jaw while looking straightly in front. Not minding me at all.Why is he mad at me? Sa aming dalawa, ako ang mas may karapatang magalit. It's christmas and I have just found out that the only girl I am worrying about, can easily go at his house and much worse in his room. Does he ever know how much it hurt me? In that small span of time, I already questioned my worth, my self, and his love for me. Tama ba na ipagpatuloy namin ito? I know that I still have to hear his side, his explanation. But, somehow, I feel like I don't want to hear it right now.""Uuwi na ako." Anang ko nang lumipas na ang labin-limang minutong katahimikan sa loob ng kanyang sasakya.He tilted his head at me and from the side of my eye, I saw how he has ha
Sunless DaysKinabukasan, I felt like there is someone who is shaking my arms, trying to wake me up. I ignored it and go back to my sleep when it continues, not minding whether I want it to be stopped or not. Small and unpleasant voice is meeting my ears. I don't know if there is really a voice talking to me or it is just because I'm so tired. Hindi ko pa rin iminumulat ang aking mga mata at pinipilit pa ring iniisip na ito ay sa panaginip lamang. Ngunit habang tumatagal ay lumilinaw na ang boses na tumatama sa aking pandinig. The voice is familiar but I can't figure it out just yet. "Ash...Ash...Ash!" It seems like everyone in the world has awaken by the voice who wake me up completely. I opened my weak eyes and it meets the person whom I don't expect to see right now, my mother.It shocked me that my mother came in my room and when I started realizing everything that has happened last night, dawn rather, I felt like my heart is going to break the cage that is locking my heart fr
Last NightHearing all those words came out from his mouth gave me butterflies in my stomach. I felt like they are celebrating something inside of it and I may hate to say it but...I love how I feel. I love how those words put a smile on my face. Ano ka ba, Ash? Kailangan mong panindigan ang desisyon mo! Hindi pwedeng agad-agaran ka na namang makikipag-relasyon nang hindi ka pa maayos. Dahil paano kung nasasabi niya lang 'yan dahil ikaw ang nadito? Paano kung bumalik si Kate? And the fact that Allison still has access on his house, and can go there in anytime she wants, is bothering me.I just can't come back to him and act like he didn't hurt me, like we didn't hurt each other. I have always been so strong and I always face my battles without even shredding a small amount of tears. Pero iba ang sakit na aking naramdaman nang malaman ang mga iyon kay Jake. I don't know if it would be better if I didn't ask? But well, if I didn't ask him...I don't think he would ever tell me about it.
RosasMabilis na lumipas ang mga araw. Tinupad nga ni Jake ang usapan namin, he never called or texted me even at once. And it really helped me to heal and be better. I gave all my focus in my studies and it seems like all my sacrifices, our sacrifices have been paid off. Isang linggo na lang at matatapos na rin ang finals namin.After our finals, I promise to myself that I'll work on my relationship with Jake. Sa mga lumipas na buwan, hindi rin nakalimot sina Itay at Inay para kamustahin ako. Our relationship with each other are getting better...and after all these things, I will make sure that I'll be with Jake. Wala nang makakapigil.I'm here right now on one of the benches in the field of TSU while waiting on my friends. Nagpaalam muna silang may bibilhin lang muna kaya hindi na ako sumama pa. I was writing a letter for Jake when someone covered my eyes. Napangiti ako nang maamoy ang pamilyar na amoy na iyon. I knew that scent too well. For the past months, we became each other's