Chapter 5: The Risk

I wake up on a scream while in the throws of an orgasm. My breathing is erratic, im drenched in sweat, and I can hear my heartbeat thundering in my ears. Once I calm down I sit up and look around and my sheets and pillows are strewn about the room. Fuck! It was just a dream. A dream that I wanted so badly to be real. I just had a full out orgasm from a dream about Nikolai and I can’t help but feel a bit jealous of dream me because she got to experience something that I want so desperately to experience in real life. What is he doing to me? Ugh! I throw myself back onto the bed and stare at the ceiling. Last night with his nothing less of amazing. When he walked me to the door last night, I could tell that he wanted me. The look in his eyes said it all, but nonetheless when I invited him to act on his urge, he simply kissed me hard and deep. When I tried to take the kids further he pulled away and then opened the door for me to go inside. He stood on the porch until he heard the locks