The soft rays of morning sunlight streamed through the sheer curtains, gently coaxing me from my slumber. I stirred, blinking against the brightness as the events of the previous day flooded back—my wedding, the celebration, and the whirlwind of emotions that had accompanied it.
As I sat up, still wrapped in the warmth of the blankets, a light knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. The door opened slightly, and one of the maids peeked in with a warm smile. “Good morning, Mrs. Rami,” she said cheerfully. “Breakfast is ready whenever you are.”
“Thank you,” I replied, my voice still thick with sleep. I swung my legs over the side of the bed and took a moment to gather myself before standing.
After a quick shower and changing into a light dress, I made my way downstairs, where the aroma of freshly brewed coffee and baked pastries filled the air. Rami was already seated at the grand dining table, his attention divided between his phone and the newspaper spread out before him.
“Morning, sleepyhead,” he greeted me with a smile, putting his phone down as I took a seat across from him. “I hope you’re hungry.”
“I am,” I replied, glancing at the spread before me—fluffy pancakes, scrambled eggs, fresh fruit, and pastries. It all looked delicious.
As we began to eat, Rami leaned forward, his expression shifting from casual to serious. “So, today you’ll be spending time with my mother,” he said, his tone all business. “She’s excited to see you.”
A flutter of nerves danced in my stomach. “Oh? What do you think we’ll be doing?”
“Just some shopping and lunch at her favorite spot,” he replied matter-of-factly. “But remember to be obedient and lovely with her. She can be a bit… particular.”
I nodded slowly, trying to mask my apprehension. “I’ll do my best.”
“And don’t forget to ask her about her interests,” Rami continued, his voice firm yet encouraging. “She loves discussing her garden and art. Just keep her talking about what she loves; it’ll go a long way.”
I smiled weakly, feeling the weight of his expectations pressing down on me. “I understand.”
Rami finished his coffee and glanced at his watch. “I have to head to the office soon,” he said, rising from his seat. “Make sure you’re ready by ten. I’ll have the car take you to my mom’s place.”
“Okay,” I replied, trying to keep my tone light despite the anxiety bubbling beneath the surface.
As he moved toward the door, he paused and turned back to me. “Oh, and Dema…”
I looked up at him, surprised that he had used my name so casually. “Yes?”
“Call me Rami,” he said with a playful grin. “It’s only fair since we’re married now.”
A smile broke across my face at the sound of his name. “Alright, Rami,” I said softly.
“Good,” he replied, his expression softening. “Now go have fun with my mom. And remember—be lovely.” With that, he winked and stepped out of the room.
I sat for a moment in silence, absorbing everything he had said. Taking a deep breath, I steeled myself for the day ahead. As daunting as it seemed, I was determined to make a good impression—not just for Rami but for myself as well. Today would be about more than just following orders; it would be about finding my place in this new world.
The car ride to the shopping district was filled with a comfortable silence, punctuated only by the occasional comment from Rami's mother, Laila, about the latest sales and new stores. I sat in the passenger seat, trying to absorb every detail of her effortless elegance. Laila was impeccably dressed in a tailored suit, her hair perfectly styled, exuding an air of confidence that both inspired and intimidated me.
As we arrived at the bustling shopping district, Laila stepped out of the car with an elegance that made heads turn. I followed suit, trying to mirror her poise as we walked through the doors of a high-end boutique. The shop was filled with luxurious fabrics and exquisite designs that made my heart race—and not just from excitement.
“Let’s find you something lovely,” she said, her eyes scanning the racks with a discerning gaze. She picked up a stunning silk dress in a deep emerald green and held it up against me. “This would look beautiful on you.”
I took it from her, feeling the soft fabric between my fingers. “It’s gorgeous,” I admitted, but self-doubt crept in. Would it really suit me?
Laila nodded approvingly and ushered me toward the changing room. “Try it on. You’ll see.”
As I slipped into the dress, I felt a rush of confidence wash over me. The color complemented my skin tone, and the fit was perfect. I stepped out of the changing room, and Laila’s eyes lit up.
“See? I told you!” she exclaimed, clapping her hands together. “You look stunning!”
I blushed at her praise, but before I could respond, she was already moving on to accessories, picking out a delicate necklace and matching earrings. After a whirlwind of shopping—each piece more extravagant than the last—I found myself laden with bags as we made our way to the horse riding club.
The club was a sprawling estate, complete with manicured lawns and pristine stables. As we entered, I noticed several women gathered near the paddock, their laughter ringing out like music. They were all impeccably dressed, exuding wealth and sophistication.
“Dema!” Laila called out, drawing my attention back to her. “Let me introduce you to my friends.”
My stomach fluttered with nerves as she led me toward the group. They were all strikingly beautiful, with an air of confidence that made me feel like a fish out of water.
“Ladies,” Laila began, her voice warm and inviting. “This is my daughter-in-law, Dema.”
“Welcome, Dema!” one woman said, stepping forward with a bright smile. “I’m Celeste. It’s lovely to meet you.” She extended her hand, and I shook it, trying to match her enthusiasm.
“Thank you,” I managed to say, feeling slightly overwhelmed.
Another woman chimed in, “You’re lucky to have Rami! He’s such a catch.” Her comment elicited giggles from the group, and I felt my cheeks flush.
“Yes, he is,” I replied quickly, hoping to keep up with their banter.
Laila guided me deeper into the group, introducing me to each woman—Marina, a successful entrepreneur; Isabelle, a renowned interior designer; and Sofia, who owned several luxury boutiques. Each introduction came with compliments and questions about my interests and background.
As they chatted animatedly about their latest business ventures and travels, I struggled to find my footing in the conversation. My experiences felt so mundane compared to theirs; they spoke of galas in Paris and exclusive retreats in the Maldives while I tried to remember when I last took a vacation that didn’t involve family obligations.
“Dema,” Marina said suddenly, pulling me from my thoughts. “What do you do?”
“Oh, um…” My mind raced for an answer. “I’m still figuring things out,” I said with a nervous laugh. “I’ve mostly been focused on settling in.”
“Of course,” Laila interjected smoothly. “She’s just getting accustomed to our world.”
The women nodded knowingly, but I could sense their curiosity lingering. I tried to engage more actively in their conversation, asking questions about their businesses and sharing snippets of my life where I could. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t shake the feeling of being an outsider looking in.
After what felt like an eternity of mingling, we moved to the riding area where horses were being saddled for an afternoon ride. Laila’s friends were all seasoned riders; they moved with grace and confidence as they prepared their horses.
“Have you ridden before?” Celeste asked as she adjusted her riding gloves.
“A few times as a child,” I admitted sheepishly.
“You’ll love it! It’s exhilarating,” Sofia said enthusiastically. “Laila can show you the ropes.”
As I mounted my horse—a gentle mare named Bella—I felt a rush of adrenaline mixed with anxiety. The other women rode effortlessly alongside me, chatting and laughing as we trotted around the paddock.
I tried to focus on keeping my posture straight and controlling Bella as we rode in tandem with Laila. But every time I glanced over at the other women—so confident and poised—I felt that familiar wave of inadequacy wash over me.
“Just relax,” Laila called back to me encouragingly. “You’re doing great!”
With her words echoing in my mind, I took a deep breath and allowed myself to enjoy the ride. Maybe today wouldn’t be about impressing them or fitting in perfectly; perhaps it was enough just to be present and try my best.
As we rode on under the warm sun, laughter ringing in the air, I realized that this
new chapter of my life was just beginning—and maybe I could carve out my own place in it after all.
The house was quiet, the kind of quiet that felt rare and precious. My mother-in-law had gone to visit one of her sisters, leaving me alone with Farah for the first time in weeks. No judgmental glances, no passive remarks about how I should keep the house cleaner or how my cooking could use more salt. Just me, my books, and the soft sound of my daughter’s breathing as she napped in her room. I curled up on the couch with a book about raising children, the pages worn from how often I flipped through them. Motherhood didn’t come naturally to me, not like it seemed to be for other women. Every decision felt heavy. Was I feeding her enough? Was I too strict? Too soft? The book was my lifeline, a way to quiet the doubts whispering in the back of my mind. Then the doorbell rang. I frowned, setting the book aside. My mother-in-law wasn’t due back for hours. Maybe she’d forgotten something? Farah stirred in her sleep but didn’t wake as I padded to the door. When I pulled it open, I expe
The market is crowded, the air thick with the scent of fresh fabric and spices. My mother-in-law holds up a tiny blue onesie, her face glowing with certainty. "This one," she declares, as if it’s already decided. "But we don’t even know if it’s a boy or a girl yet," I say, shifting Farah on my hip. "It’s too soon." She waves me off, her fingers tracing the stitching. "It’s a boy. I know it." "How?" I ask, baffled. "Farah’s hair swirls in the middle of her head," she explains, as if revealing ancient wisdom. "That means her next sibling is a boy. It’s science." I blink. "That’s not science." She ignores me, already moving to another stall, leaving me standing there with a pile of blue clothes I’m not even sure we’ll need. Hours later, my feet ache, my arms heavy from carrying bags, and Farah, who refuses to stay still. I collapse into a chair in the food court, setting her down beside me. She wiggles, impatient, while I pull out my phone, desperate for a moment of quiet.
The phone rang late in the evening, just as I was settling into bed, exhausted from another long day of adjusting to life in Amman. When I saw Tala’s name flash across the screen, my heart leaped. It had been weeks since we last spoke, and I missed her voice more than I realized. “Dema?” Her familiar tone washed over me, warm and comforting, like the first sip of tea on a cold morning. “Tala!” I couldn’t hide the excitement in my voice. “I’ve been thinking about you, I missed you so much.” And just like that, we fell back into our old rhythm, talking as if no time had passed at all. The hours slipped away unnoticed as I told her everything that had happened since I arrived in Amman. The fresh feelings of the first few days, the way the city felt both overwhelming and exciting, the small victories of finding my way around, and the kindness of strangers who had helped us settle in. Then, before I could stop myself, the words tumbled out. “Tala… I’m pregnant.” There was a brief
The voices of the neighborhood women buzzed around me like persistent flies, their words ringing in my ears until I couldn’t take it anymore. "Dema, you must drink this herbal tea every morning, it strengthens the baby!" "No, no, my dear, you need to rest more. Too much walking will make the baby come early!" "In my day, we ate dates and honey. Look how strong my children turned out!" I forced a smile, nodding along, but inside, I was suffocating. Their endless advice, their knowing glances, the way they patted my belly as if it were public property, it was too much. Even Farah, my sweet baby had started mimicking them, pressing her tiny hands against my stomach and whispering, "Hello, baby!" like the aunties did. That afternoon, I couldn’t take another second of it. "Farah, let’s go to the park," I announced, grabbing her little sandals before she could protest. She jumped up immediately, her dark curls bouncing. "Yay! Swing!" I didn’t even bother changing her clothes
The mall was too bright, too loud. The lights buzzed overhead, and the chatter of shoppers mixed with the tinny music playing through the speakers made things worse. I pushed the cart slowly through the children’s section, my fingers brushing over tiny dresses and miniature shoes. Farah had been glued to the TV all morning, refusing to even put on her shoes until I promised her a new toy if she behaved. Just get through this, I told myself. Pick out the essentials and go.But my head had been throbbing since breakfast, and the smell of the food court greasy fries and overpowering perfume was making my stomach turn. I grabbed a pair of pajamas for Farah, my hands unsteady, then moved toward the toy aisle. That’s when the dizziness hit. A cold sweat prickled at my temples. My vision blurred for a second, and I gripped the cart handle hard, knuckles whitening. "Breathe, just breathe." I told myself.Farah was too busy staring at a display of stuffed animals to notice. "Mama, can I ge
The phone's ring shattered the fragile silence of our house at 3:17 AM. My body knew before my mind did - that particular hour belonged only to one person now. I looked at Farah's sleeping face, her tiny fingers still clutching the stuffed rabbit. The one she refused to sleep without since he left.I caught the phone on the third ring, my bare feet hitting the cold tile floor as I scrambled to answer before it woke Farah. The balcony door stuck when I tried to slide it open, another quirk of this old apartment that Rami would have fixed immediately. The metallic screech made me wince as I finally escaped into the night air."Dema?" His voice came through clearer than it had in weeks, the static of our usual poor connections noticeably absent. He sounded... different. More rested. Like Germany had already begun erasing the exhaustion lines that Dubai had carved into his voice."I'm here," I whispered, curling my toes against the wrought-iron railing. The chill of early autumn in Amman