LOGIN~NICO~
“She called you a bitch.” Enzo’s amused voice is the last thing I want to hear right now. The sound of it echoes in the silent VIP corridor and grates on my last nerve. I ignore the idiot, my hand sliding into my pocket. But the smooth tingle of her wrist in my palm refuses to fade. “She’s got spirit, Nico. I’ll give her that,” Enzo continues, catching up to me with that effortless stride of his. “Most girls hear the Vescari mafia and run the other way. This one? She looked like she wanted to bite your fucking head off.” I adjust my cuffs, my expression a frozen mask of indifference. “She’s a thief, Enzo. Nothing more.” But I’m lying. To him, and partially to myself. In my mind’s eye, the C.C initials scrawled under every entry in her journal finally have a face and a name. Belva according to her fights... I’m starting to think that might not be her real name. But it’s a fitting name for a woman who knocks out her opponent with one punch and doesn’t bat an eyelash at being threatened. However it doesn’t fit with the way she writes. How deep and beautiful her thoughts of the world are. I stayed up the whole night reading her journal, tracing her slanted handwriting and getting invested in her sharp wit and sarcastic humor. I know her fears. I know how she feels about her father’s death and her mother’s constant struggle. I know the way she hates the world for trying to break her. I know how much she craves violence. And I know in fucking detail how she loves to pleasure herself with her vibrator. The filthy things she thinks about when she’s fucking herself and how no man has ever touched her. At some point, I wanted to meet her, but her initials were as common and her face was unknown. All I remembered from our meeting was her mesmerizing mismatched eyes. The soft amber and icy blue that haunted my dreams this morning. Seeing it today nearly sent my heart into shock as if she had materialized from my imagination. More beautiful than what I initially expected. A literal fucking goddess. “Do you want me to take care of her?” Enzo says, his tone suddenly serious. I stop abruptly, turning to face my cousin. The air between us chills instantly. “No.” Enzo arches a dark brow, his lips twitching. “No? You’re going to let a street cat hiss at the Don and walk away?” “She isn’t walking away,” I say, my voice dropping to a low, dangerous register. “She’s going to be my wife. So find out everything there is to know about her.” Enzo’s eyes widen, then a slow, confused grin spreads across his face. “You were serious? I thought that was just a tactic to scare her.” “I’m always serious, Enzo.” We reach the back exit of the club, where my armored sedan sits idling in the afternoon sun. “What about Bianca?” Enzo asks, his voice taking on a sharp edge as we step out into the private lot. “And your wedding? You can’t just swap a socialite for a street fighter because she has pretty eyes.” As it turns out, I can do whatever the fuck I want. “I broke off the engagement last night.” Enzo freezes, his hand on the car door. “You did what?” I glance out at the city skyline as he opens the door for me. “You heard me.” “Nico, have you lost your fucking mind?” he hisses. “Bianca is still Milanese royalty. Her bloodline has value. Some will see it as disregard for tradition.” “Let them,” I say, sliding into the back of the tinted car. Enzo climbs in after me, slamming the door. He stares at me for a long beat, searching for a crack in my resolve. He doesn't find one. “Is this about Tomaso?” Enzo asks quietly. “You know she has nothing to do with what her uncle did.” “I know.” “Brutta idea, amico.” {Bad idea, man} I lean my head back against the seat and close my eyes. “My father is dead, Enzo. I’ve inherited his empire, filled with vultures waiting for me to fail. I’m fresh out of ‘good’ ideas. All I have left are the effective ones.” “And marrying Cake, a girl who stole from you and punches people for a living, is effective?” “She’s an outsider, fratè{brother}. She has no motive, she gains nothing from our alliance. She’s the right type of chaos I need to shake things up,” I reply, opening my eyes to look at him. “Bianca is lovely but she still has ties to Tomaso. I’d rather not share my bed with someone who calls my father’s killer uncle.” Enzo sucks his teeth, looking away. “It’s a dangerous game you’re playing, Nico.” I clap a hand on his shoulder. “Stop worrying like a granny. Let’s focus on the meeting.” I lean back. “It’s going to be fun.” The meeting is always held in the top floor private bar of the Grand Hotel de la Minerve. One of my father’s many hotels. As we enter, the cloying smell of cigars and cheap loyalty hits me. The men are seated around the table waiting. Nine pillars of Rome’s underworld. Men who served my father and are now looking at me with the hungry eyes of wolves. They are drinking heavily, draped in the arms of young women who giggle and preen for attention, dressed in skimpy things that leave nothing to the imagination. I feel a flash of disgust. My father tolerated this bullshit; I find it distracting. A girl in a dress that covers nothing but her nipples tries to glide toward me. I don’t even look at her. I simply step aside, my gaze fixed on one man in particular. “Hello, beautiful.” Enzo steps into my place, catching the girl around the waist and leading her away. Tomaso Greco sits with a glass of vintage scotch in one hand and a cigar in the other. He looks exactly like the man tailored to fit into the role of Don. Silver-haired, impeccably dressed and disturbingly calm. A man once my father’s right hand and best friend. When he sees me, he stands, spreading his arms wide and walks over. “Nico,” he says, his voice a warm, honeyed baritone. He pulls me into a brief, suffocating hug just like the way he did at the funeral right before I found out he was responsible for killing my father. “My boy. How are you holding up?” I pat his back twice and pull away. “Better.” “Sit, sit,” he urges, gesturing to the chair opposite his with Rafaelle on the other side. We exchange brief nods as I sit, and the meeting begins. For the first twenty minutes, it’s a chorus of hollow condolences. The men speak of my father’s legacy, their voices thick with a respect they don't feel and I catch Enzo’s distasteful expression a few times. When they’re done with all the fuckery, the atmosphere quickly shifts. “We worry, Nico,” says Thomas, a weapons dealer who was always a thorn in my father’s side. He’s loud, sweaty and thinks he’s untouchable. “You are young. Calculated, yes, but reckless. This business requires an old, seasoned hand. Someone with… experience, we can trust.” He looks around the room. “We all know the perfect candidate is Tomaso.” Nobody objects. I glance at Tomaso to find him already looking at me with an unreadable expression. I remember the shock on his face after I agreed to make him the Don, only to change my mind at the last minute. He’d tried to hide his humiliation but I saw through it. A small wave of satisfaction in my chest at the way he stood there in his best suit, looking like a fucking fool. I sit back, my hands folded on the table, and simply watch them. My silence lasts just long enough to make them twitch. “I respect your concern,” I say, my voice vibrating with a cold, absolute command. “And I respect Tomaso’s history with this family. But let me be clear. I am my father’s only heir, so this legacy is mine. I have assumed power and nobody else will. If any of you feel otherwise, the door is right there. I suggest you use it before I find a more permanent exit for you.” I see several men shift in their seats. Thomas goes red in the face, his jaw clenching. I lean forward, my eyes locking onto each of theirs in turn. “I expect the same allegiance you gave my father. I won’t tolerate anything less.” I pause, letting the weight and meaning of my words settle in the silence. “Operations will not slow down,” I continue, “the shipments, the money, the expansion into the digital markets. Everything will go as my father planned it. And since we are discussing the future, I have an announcement. As of yesterday, I have broken off my engagement with Bianca Moretti.” The shock travels down the table with horrified expressions. Even Tomaso twitches in his seat. Thomas explodes. “You did what?” he roars, slamming his fist onto the table. “That marriage was sanctioned by the circle! You cannot simply discard the Moretti girl.” “I’m marrying another woman,” I say calmly. “Who?” Thomas demands, standing up and pointing a finger at me. “Some whore you probably found in a gutter can’t compare to Bianca! Your father would be ashamed!” I sigh. Finally, a demonstration. Slowly, I stand up. I feel the room hold its breath as I walk around the table toward Thomas, who is still fuming and shouting. “Who do you think you are? You’ve been Don for a handful of weeks and you’re making such fucking mistakes. It just shows how unprepared you are. A boy playing at being a king!” When I reach him, my face is still blank, my mouth pressed together in a fine line. Before Thomas can continue, I pull my Beretta from its holster on my belt in one fluid motion and press the barrel against his forehead. The girls squeal. The other men freeze. “Nico—” Tomaso begins, his voice warning. Bang. The sound echoes in the room but the result is absolute. Thomas slumps back into his chair, a neat hole between his eyes, dead before his head hits the mahogany. I holster the gun and straighten my tie, wiping the flecks of blood off my sleeve. My sharp eyes look around the room, meeting the terrified eyes of the men. “I won’t tolerate disrespect either,” I say, my voice cold as ice. “Do well to inform his family of his death.” I lean my hands on the edge. “Does anyone else wish to question my decisions regarding my marriage? Or my leadership?” Dead silence. Even Tomaso remains still, his eyes hooded and unreadable. “Good,” I say, a ghost of a smile touching my lips—the first one since I saw Bel in my club. “I’ll see you all at my wedding.”~NICO~My office is soundproof, sealed tight against the chaos below.Only the bass reaches me, a dull vibration under my feet—proof that everything is running exactly as it should.I’m seated behind my desk, jacket off, sleeves rolled to my forearms. Paperwork opened before me, and yet—Her words from the car replay in my head, crawling in. “Please don’t insult me over something I’m already struggling with.”I grip the edge of my desk and tell myself it’s nothing. She hadn’t begged, hadn’t apologized, hadn’t even waited for a response. She’d said what she needed to say and walked out of my car like she hadn’t just tilted something dangerous in me.A knock doesn’t come. The door opens anyway.Enzo strolls in like he owns the place. A glass of whiskey already in hand. Shirt unbuttoned too far, with a knowing smirk on his face..“So,” he says, dragging the word out as he drops into the chair opposite me. “Let me guess. Productive day?”I don’t look up. “If you’re here to talk, leave.”
~CAKE~By the time we leave the boutique, my body feels like it has been wrung out and folded back into itself.My feet hurt. My shoulders ache, and my head feels too full.Not once did he offer me the cake. Not once did he ask if I wanted a drink, even though there were two glasses on the table and only one of them ever touched wine.I did not ask.I refused to give him the satisfaction.The staff are smiling too hard as we step out. That tight, strained kind of gratitude people wear when money has been thrown at them in obscene amounts. One of them thanks him again, says something about a complimentary gift for shopping at that level.Shopping.As if what just happened was normal.They hand me a box. Then another.A Louis Vuitton heel. A matching handbag. I stare at it, briefly wondering where exactly they think I’m supposed to wear six-inch heels too.My life does not have sidewalks for this.One of the security cars is loaded until it sags slightly at the back. Shopping bags disap
~NICO~The boutique is silent in the way expensive places always are.Sound dies here. Even time slows down, respectful, waiting to be told what to do.I sit back in the leather chair, phone in my hand, attention split between the room and the screen. Business does not pause just because my future wife is sitting ten feet away pretending she doesn’t exist.Enzo: Sienna just called. She’s flying in from New York for the wedding. Says she intends to stay.I stare at the message for a full three seconds.Me: No.Me: She’s not coming here until I finish dealing with Tomaso.His reply comes immediately.Enzo: She’s your sister, not a soldier.Enzo: And she’s as stubborn as you.Enzo: You know she won’t listen to me. Tell her yourself.I exhale slowly through my nose.Me: I will.I lock the phone and finally look across the room.She has not moved in five minutes. She is sitting straight, her hands folded tightly in her lap like she is holding herself together by force alone. Her eyes are f
~CAKE~My mother is awake when I check on her, which means it has been a bad night.She is propped against the headboard, coughing into a handkerchief that has seen better days. Her breathing sounds wrong. Like every inhale is something she has to bargain for.“You took your meds?” I ask.She nods. “An hour ago.”I cross the room and straighten the blanket she keeps kicking down. She hates feeling trapped. I hate that she is trapped anyway.“You should still be asleep,” I tell her.She gives me a look. “Says the girl who came in at five this morning.”Fair.“Get a decent job baby, how do you get hurt for money? Break your ribs, cut your lips, bruise your eyes? They’re decent jobs, baby.”“But mama I like this one, you know I do.” I sigh. And I heard a knock at the door. “I’ll get it,” I say.“I know that knock,” my mother says quietly.I pause. Turning back to her. “What do you mean?”“It should be your father’s friends from that night, they always knock like that.”I do not answer he
~NICO~I sit up in my bed, reaching for the journal I read every night before I go to bed. It’s mine now, as much as she is. The feel of it in my possession makes satisfaction roll through me.I open to a page I flagged before, and start reading.It’s the one where she pushed herself.Day 50,Fifty days of touching myself and moaning into my pillow.Fifty days of wanting a man and settling for a buzzing toy until the battery dies.I tell myself to stop. I never do.My hand won’t obey, and when it’s over, I’m left wondering if it would feel different with a man instead.Safe to say this isn’t going anywhere.So I’ll let it stay.~C.CI smirk at the way she writes, so casual yet deliberate, like she’s scolding herself for needing relief, for craving something her hands and little toy have to give her.Her words are filthy but innocent, desperate but disciplined. I catch myself smiling, darkly amused. Most women hide these thoughts, bury them deep. C.C, as she calls herself, writes them
~CAKE~The man taps his foot, avoiding my eyes. The annoying sound matches the frantic beating of my heart. He’s staring at a computer screen that probably has my life story written in red. “I’m sorry, Miss Coogan, but I can’t help you.”I lean forward, my hands flat on his desk. I wore the stupid blazer for this meeting, the least he can do is fucking try. “Look, Mr. Henderson, I’m not asking for a handout. It’s a loan I’ll pay back.” “Con cosa?” {With what?}“Excuse me?” “I’m looking at your credit score now and it’s a tragedy, Miss Coogan. Your mother’s is even worse. You two are up to your necks in debts from loan agencies. You have nothing to your name.” He sighs, finally looking at me with a pity that makes me want to launch myself over the desk and punch the glasses right off his face. “Frankly, no bank in the whole of Rome will give you a penny. I’m sorry but there’s nothing I can do for you.” I push to my feet, anger rolling off me in waves. I grab my bag, the strap







