LOGINI G****e him in the parking lot.
I sit in my car with the heat running and my phone in both hands and I type his name into the search bar like a woman who needs to understand what she just walked into.
Dominic Sinclair.
The results come back in under a second. Pages of them.
CEO of Sinclair Holdings, a private investment firm with assets across real estate, biotech, and energy. Forbes listed him at thirty-one. No verified romantic history. No public scandal. A few photographs at charity events, always at the edge of the frame, always looking like he'd rather be somewhere without cameras. One interview from four years ago that he apparently gave under duress and never repeated.
He is thirty-four years old. He is worth more money than I can actually conceptualize. And somewhere in a fertility clinic's cryogenic storage unit, his information got taped to a vial that ended up inside me.
I put my phone face-down on the passenger seat.
Then I pick it up and read the interview.
The journalist described him as "a man who answers every question and reveals nothing." There's a quote where he's asked about his personal life and he says, "I don't have one. I have a schedule." The journalist clearly thought this was cold. Reading it now, I think it sounds exhausted. Like someone who decided a long time ago that certain things cost too much to maintain.
I know that feeling. I just didn't expect to recognize it in him.
I drive home.
The agreement arrives the next morning.
Not by email or a courier. A young man in a pressed jacket who hands me a sealed envelope and waits in my doorway while I sign for it, and I think, this is what it looks like when people with money do things. No waiting. No standard processing times. Just a sealed envelope at eight-fifteen in the morning while I'm still holding my coffee.
I read it at my kitchen table.
It is fourteen pages long. It covers financial support, full medical coverage, a housing allowance if I choose to relocate, security arrangements, and a clause at the bottom of page nine that acknowledges Dominic Sinclair's full paternal rights upon the child's birth.
I read that clause four times.
Then I read the non-disclosure agreement that's attached to the back. Three pages telling me, in very polished legal language, that the circumstances of this pregnancy are private, that I agree not to discuss them publicly, and that any breach of this agreement would result in consequences that the document describes in considerable detail.
I set it down, I drink my coffee. I look out my window at the street below where a woman is walking a dog that's clearly walking her instead, and I think about what it means that this document arrived before I'd had a single conversation with Dominic Sinclair about what I actually want.
Then I get a red pen from the drawer next to the stove.
I start on page one.
Petra calls while I'm on page seven.
"Talk to me," she says, the way she always opens calls when she already knows something is wrong.
"I'm fine."
"Ella. I've known you for twenty-six years. You called me at eleven last night to ask if I thought it was normal for a billionaire to have a lawyer on call at all hours. Something is happening."
I tell her. Not everything, not the parts that are still too raw to say out loud, but enough. The clinic. The error. Dominic Sinclair.
The silence on her end lasts a full four seconds, which is very long for Petra.
"A billionaire," she says.
"Yes."
"His sample."
"Yes."
"Ella."
"I know."
"His lawyers sent paperwork already?"
"Fourteen pages and a non-disclosure agreement."
Another silence. Then, "Did you sign it?"
"I'm on page seven with a red pen."
She exhales something that is half laugh and half horror. "Okay. Okay, don't sign anything yet. Let me find you a lawyer, I know someone from—"
"I don't need a lawyer to cross out a clause, Petra."
"You need a lawyer to cross out a clause in a fourteen-page agreement sent by a billionaire's legal team before the coffee is done."
She isn't wrong. I know she isn't wrong. But there is something about this document that makes me want to handle it myself, at least the first pass. Not out of stubbornness, or not entirely. It's more that I need him to understand from the beginning that I am not someone who signs things she hasn't read, and I am not someone who accepts the first version of anything.
"I'll call you before I send it back," I tell her.
"Promise me."
"I promise."
I hang up and go back to page seven.
By page eleven I have crossed out four full clauses, rewritten two, and added a paragraph of my own in the margin in small neat handwriting. The housing allowance I leave intact because I'm not an idiot and my apartment has a draft in winter. The security arrangements I strike entirely. The paternal rights clause I don't touch because that one, at least, is honest about what it is.
The NDA I reduce from three pages to one paragraph.
I photograph every page with my phone, email it to myself for a record, and then I put it back in the envelope.
His office is on the fortieth floor of a building downtown that has that particular kind of exquisite lobby that makes you feel underdressed just walking through it. I didn't call ahead. I considered it and decided that showing up unannounced with his edited agreement was the clearest possible message I could send about how I intend to operate.
The receptionist calls up. I wait. Three minutes later she tells me, with barely hidden surprise, that Mr. Sinclair will see me.
His office is all glass on one side, the city spread out below like something he owns, which he probably partially does. He's standing when I walk in, jacket off, sleeves rolled, and he looks at me the way he looked at me in the clinic. Total. Assessing.
I cross the room and put the envelope on his desk.
"I made some changes," I say.
He picks it up. He opens it. He reads the first page and I watch his jaw do something careful and controlled, and I realize he's trying not to react.
He reads all the way through without speaking. When he gets to my handwritten paragraph he stops, reads it twice, and then looks up at me.
"You added a clause," he says.
"I did."
"Requiring my presence at all scheduled medical appointments unless I provide forty-eight hours written notice of inability to attend."
"You said you wanted to be involved," I say. "I'm holding you to it."
He looks at me for a long moment. The city glitters behind him. And then, quietly, he says, "Sit down, Ms. Navarro."
Not a request.
But not entirely a command either.
Something in between that I don't have a word for yet, in a voice that does something to the back of my neck that I am absolutely not thinking about.
I sit down.
And he picks up his pen.
Ten weeks sounds like a lot until it isn't.I learned this in December.The days have the specific quality of a countdown that you're aware of without being anxious about, the way the last weeks before something important always feel. Full and moving and slightly faster than you'd like.I work through the first two weeks of December. Diane has rearranged my patient load the way she said she would, more assessment, less physical demand, and she was right that it's better. I am good at assessment. I've always been good at assessment. The work has a different texture but the same satisfaction.I stop at thirty weeks.Not because I want to. Because Dr. Vega and Diane and Dominic and Petra form an inadvertent coalition on the same Tuesday afternoon, each from different angles, and I look at four people being right simultaneously and decide that the practical choice is to accept it.I tell Dominic that I accepted it, not that he was right.He accepts this distinction without comment.The ap
December arrives and the city changes.Not the temperature, which has been cold for weeks. The quality of things. The specific energy of a month that knows it contains an ending and a beginning and leans into both.I work four shifts the first week. Dominic has the apartment painted while I'm at the hospital on Tuesday and Wednesday, which I agreed to in advance because I don't want to be around paint fumes for twenty-three weeks and because Petra supervised it remotely via photographs sent every forty minutes, which is somehow simultaneously excessive and exactly right.The pale green is perfect.I see it Thursday morning when Dominic takes me to check the progress. The morning light hits it and it is the exact color of something new. Not spring specifically. More like the moment before spring. The moment when the ground is ready.I stood in the doorway of Lucia's room for a long time.The piano against the wall. The pale green. The east light."Yes," I say.Dominic stands behind me.
Petra picks me up at ten. Just the right time. She is in the car before I get downstairs, which means she left her apartment earlier to arrive in Wicker Park by ten, which means she has been operating at elevated anticipation levels since last night when I texted her.She did not ask what it was and that is very unusual of Petra.She asked one question: "The good kind or the terrifying kind?"I texted back: "I don't know yet."She texted back: "Ten o'clock. I'll drive."She is wearing her nice coat, which tells me she dressed for an occasion without knowing what the occasion is, which is the most Petra thing she could possibly do."You look like you're going to something," I say as I get in."I might be," she says. "You don't know.""You wore the coat," I say."I like this coat," she says. "It's become my favorite one""You save it," I say. "For things."She pulls out into the street. Swerving with experience"Do you know what it is?""No," I say. "He said come see. He said bring you.
Thalia arrives on a Tuesday.She texts from the airport at noon with the specific energy of someone who has been moving toward a destination for a long time and has finally arrived at it. I am at work. I text back a welcome and the address of the restaurant where we're meeting Thursday evening and tell her Rosamund will be in touch about the logistics.She sends back one word: “Ready.”The others arrive over Wednesday and Thursday.Rosamund sends me their names as they check in. Brief, factual texts, the way she communicates everything important.Margot. Dublin. Landed Wednesday afternoon.Soren and Adaeze. They know each other. Stockholm. Same flight.Ezra. Lagos originally, Edinburgh now. Landed Thursday morning.Five people I have never met.Five people who carry what I carry.Six, counting me.For the first time since Mira Seca dissolved thirty years ago, a group of Lunares in one city.I think about this on my Thursday shift. Between patients, during the specific moments of clari
I found the email on Sunday morning.Dominic has already gone. He left at seven with the quiet efficiency of a man who has early obligations and doesn't make a production of departures. I heard him in the kitchen, the specific sound of him being careful not to wake me, and I stayed still and let him think it was working.I've been awake since six.The email is in my inbox when I pick up my phone at seven-fifteen. Administrator Pren. Edinburgh. The subject line sitting there with the patience of something that knows it will be opened when the time is right.I make coffee first. Decaf, the herb pots watered, Sunday morning doing its ordinary thing outside the window. Then I sit at the kitchen table and I open it.Seventeen photographs.I scroll through them slowly.They are not glamorous photographs. They are the kind of images that appear in professional directories or on organizational websites or are pulled from social media accounts that were never intended for this purpose. Ordinar
I didn't answer Administrator Pren that night.I sit with the call the way I sit with things that are large. Let it take up space without immediately deciding what to do with it. The instinct to act quickly has served me well in emergency rooms and less well in the rest of my life and I've been learning, over the last two months, to distinguish between the situations that require immediate action and the ones that require something slower.Edinburgh is the second kind.Dominic stays until ten. We don't talk about Edinburgh specifically. We talk around it, which is sometimes more useful. He tells me about the Conclave's international structure, which is more fragmented than the North American version. Regional bodies with their own governance. The Edinburgh Conclave covers the UK and parts of Scandinavia. They have standing but not unified authority.I listen. I file it.He goes home.I sit in my apartment with the November city outside and I think about seventeen Lunare candidates in







