CHAPTER 11:   PASSIONATE ROSE

“When age chills the blood, when our pleasure are past for years fleet away with the wings of the dove the dearest remembrance will be the last. Our sweetest memorial the first kiss of love” – Lord Bryon.

    The feeling that comes with desiring someone seems so hard to fathom, how can ones heart arch for another touch? It feels like the souls have somewhat been intertwined as one by the gods. The heavens bringing to bear our innermost desires, for our souls to finally acknowledge it, thereby causing a longing in our heart for the other soul. It becomes our meaning of existence, a meal for our souls to feast on, and an adrenaline rush for our hearts. The arch in her heart to draw closer to Neville was what she couldn’t understand, it was a reflect action, showing her hidden desires.  As his lips touched hers, her eyes clenched savoring his taste, but her mouth naturally parted to his coaxing. Aurora couldn’t express herself, she didn’t understand what was happening, she thought he dislike her, why was he all over her and mostly importantly why was she responding like it had been rehearsed, she was in a dilemma with her feelings.

     He moved his mouth seductively upon hers, trying to lure her into his desire, little did he know she was already trapped in his snare. His soft deceptive kiss was slow, tender, thorough, all while the questing touch of his fingers roamed so lightly over her body. His mouth grew bolder, tongue delving, raking, plundering, and drawing a little whimper from her throat. His touch became far more invasive as well, palm rotating over the soft triangle between her thighs. He attempted to slip his hands between her thighs, but she aborted him by clenching her thighs together. She couldn’t be doing this she thought, she came to have a conversation, this wasn’t the closure she seeks, it even made the whole situation worse. She pulled out of his embrace even though, she felt a sting in a heart but she needed to, she could also sense the hurt in Neville eyes, but this conversation had to be done.

‘One moment you are all over me, the next you do not see me’, she whispered.

‘I am sorry for that; I didn’t mean for it to happen. Hope I didn’t hurt you?’ Neville asked.

‘No, it’s fine, I didn’t fight you off. So this is on both of us’, Aurora responded.  She could sense he was more relaxed after her response. He thought he did something wrong, probably hurt her or cajole her, he could be mean but he is never a man to take a women without her consent. And from what just happened, he was sure she wanted him as much as he wanted her, but something was holding her back.

‘We need to talk Neville, which was the main reason I came her’. She said.

‘I had canceled all our schedules for the rest of the day before coming in’. She added.

Neville thought this could be a negative conversation, he thought if he had lost every opportunity with her due to his nonchalant attitude but he choose to be hopeful. Aurora sensed how Neville tensed up hearing her talk, he tried hiding his emotions but she was happy it couldn’t be hidden from her.

‘Hmm, okay I guess there’s no other option’, he responded.

‘What is happening Neville? Did I do something wrong? Why are you throwing all this conflicting actions?’ she said whispering.

‘Did I do something wrong? Are the policies not good enough for you’, she added.

‘Why didn’t you attend my presentation? And why have you been avoiding a conversation with me? Why are you ghosting me?’ she continued. She wanted answers and she knew she was going to get it. 

Neville was very much uncomfortable and wasn’t sure how to rely the message. But he knew he couldn’t hide it anymore, it was time for them to confront the elephant in the room.

‘I didn’t want to be a form of distraction or hindrances to your work’, he responded.

‘How can you stop me or be a form of distraction? I knew no one here, just you. You were to be my support system while I gave the presentation, a form of encouragement but you just lunged me to the upcoming train of directors’, she exclaimed.

‘I knew you could handle it, you had presented to me and I knew the boards of directors were just formalities. Moreover, I didn’t want you to start off with rumors around the office, because I can’t guarantee you, I would have taken my lustful eyes and arms off you’. She flushed up, did she really have that effect on him.

‘Do you know attractive you are when presenting, your thoughts, your ideas are structured so well, that there’s no room for mistake, I wasn’t sure if I wouldn’t have made a fool of myself and everyone will be watching out for me’, he concluded. Aurora was short of words, she had no idea his desires had run so deep but she wanted more clarity.

‘And within our office? Why did you treat me like a stranger? This was our safe haven to a cordial relationship and more’, she asked.

‘I wasn’t sure I could control myself, I barely could control myself a few moments ago. Imagine what would have happened over the past few period we shared office, alone’, he said.

‘And there’s no way the staffs won’t unravel the relationship between us. I wanted a fair ground for you here; I wanted you to accomplish your tasks without any form of complications. I knew you wouldn’t be here for a long while; I could always reconnect with you. But seeing how hurt you were downstairs, I couldn’t help myself, my reflect took over’ he added. It seemed someone had switched up the temperature in the room as it seemed like it was getting hot. All along he was protecting her and her feelings, but why couldn’t he have spoken to her about it. It was her feeling they were talking about here and now it was hurt.

    Neville still on her desk, stretched out to take her hands in his, touching her lightly but intentional. He took her chin on his other hand and stared into her burgundy eyes, while she stared into the different blue hue in his eyes. With soft touches on her chin and hands, the atmosphere of the room changed, and they just stared at each other. No one wanting to ruin the moment, but they knew they couldn’t be like that forever but he enjoyed it. Neville broke the silence saying;

‘Aurora, I can’t help it but i have a deep attraction towards you. I tried really hard to suppress that feeling but I couldn’t. Watching you work gives me so much joy, sometimes I stop everything I am doing just to stare at you work. I barely go down to have a break, but I see myself wanting to go down just to be in the same space as you. My thoughts are filled of you and my actions are determined by you.’

‘I know I hurt you by my silence, at that moment it was the best thing to do for both of us’, he added,

Aurora couldn’t believe what she heard, the all and mighty Neville had a deep attraction towards her and worst of all he was thoughtful of her wellbeing within the office, if he did push it through. She couldn’t lie, she had a deep desire for him, even if she didn’t know earlier but with what transpired between them, it revealed her innermost desires.  Neville trailed his hands from her chain down to her neckline, touching her softly without losing contacts. He seemed like his subconscious knew exactly what to do, his hands trailed down to her lips fumbling on it. And she parted it giving way to his hands, she pushed her tongue forward just to have a taste of his hands, after which she took his finger into her mouth and sucked it. She had no control of her actions, as her subconscious knew exactly what to do and seemed to be taking over, while she stared and got lost in his eyes.  Her actions sent chill sensation down their spines and Neville wasn’t sure if he could refrain himself from ravaging her but he knew she deserve more than that. With great self-control, Neville shut his eyes like he was trying to make it all go away; he genuine had feelings for her. After their first kiss, he knew something melted inside him that hurts in an exquisite way, all his longings, all his dreams and sweetest anguish, all the secrets that slept deep within him came awake, everything was transformed and enchanted by this creature in front of him.

    Aurora threw her hands over his head, this caused him to open his eyes, and she pushed into him such that her blossom was on his chest, she stared into his eyes as she locked their lips together. She kissed him with everything she had and everything she was. She kissed him with the passion of a woman tasting the promise of true love for the very first time in her life, every man before her forgotten. She felt this was fate giving her what she wanted and realizing her need to travel, she kissed him with more force.