Casillas The whiskey burned slow as it slid down my throat, the kind of burn I liked because it kept me steady and sharp. I swirled the glass lazily, watching the amber liquid catch the light while Oliver droned on about our routes. His voice carried the weight of bad news, and I knew it before he even spat it out. “Our southern run was hit a few days ago,” he said, his eyes lowered. “Law enforcement set up an ambush, and we lost the shipment.” I tilted my glass and let the burn linger on my tongue before swallowing, the taste turning sour in my mouth. A muscle ticked in my jaw, but I didn’t interrupt. That route wasn’t just any line. It was the one tied to Bonafide, the one Marceline and I split the cut from. Bonafide’s dealings had always been steady profit. Losing a stream like that was irritating. I let my mouth curl in distaste, though I stayed silent. My phone on the table started to buzz. All seven men turned their eyes toward it like dogs scenting meat. I looked at
SusannaSomething didn’t add up. The way Conrad skimmed over certain parts, the way his gaze slid away all gave me the distinct feeling that there was more to the story that he wasn’t telling me.I set my chocolates aside, wiping a trace of melted cocoa from my fingers onto the napkin beside me."So what’s the plan now?" I asked.His eyes met mine then, and his sigh this time was heavier. "Mother hasn’t contacted me," he said slowly, "but I have my own ideas on how to help her." There was a beat of silence. "I’m hoping it’s something you will be able to help me with."And just like that, whatever comfort that had been growing in my chest over the last few minutes turned to ash. I felt it drop, heavy and cold, somewhere deep in my stomach.Why else would he be here? It wasn’t loneliness. It wasn’t regret. It wasn’t even an obligation. No, Conrad was here because he needed something. Because Conrad only ever remembered I existed when I was useful.I took the napkin I had been holding an
SusannaI stared harder, my heart skipping before I could stop it. The flowers were clutched close, the kind of unnecessary gesture that seemed so unlike him these days.But then I exhaled sharply and shook my head. No. That wasn’t him. It couldn’t be. Conrad hadn’t been here in so long I had stopped bothering to count the days. I doubted he even remembered I existed, not unless my name came up on one of his bills. The man I had given so much love and devotion to had paid me back with neglect, distancing himself more with every passing week.It was really laughable that my brain would even try to conjure him from the shape of a stranger.The realization annoyed me. More than that, it embarrassed me. I pinched the inside of my arm, hard enough to make myself wince. “Foolish girl,” I muttered under my breath. The sting was a punishment for my own stupidity. If there was one thing I had learned in here, it was that it was better to smother the thought before it could take root.I turne
SusannaI was sitting in the corner of my room pressed into the seat by the window, my eyes fixed on the world outside the window bars. People watching had become my main pastime, not because I liked it, but because it was better than staring at my own hands, or worse, my own reflection. Most days felt the same: terribly lonely, and suffocatingly boring.Florence had come in earlier this morning for her usual check-up. She had tried to coax me into going to the hospital common room, waxing monotone about some new romance series that was premiering this afternoon. I had refused without even pretending to think about it.The thought alone made me sick. I couldn’t stand to see the faces out there, smooth, and untouched, smug in their perfection.The worst were the women, their skin glowing like it had never even heard of a scar. I would rather sit here in silence than subject myself to that kind of torture.My aversion to intact faces had only gotten worse over time. I hated them all. Ev
Conrad And frankly, I had been fine with that arrangement. Her staying there kept her out of my way. It spared me the whining, the dramatics, the constant tears. God, the neediness. Every word out of her mouth had been another plea for attention, for me to listen to the endless loop of her mourning over her ruined face. I could only take so much of that before it drove me insane. It wasn’t that I didn’t try at first. I had. But the thing with Susanna was that she didn’t actually want solutions. She wanted pity. I offered her a whole legion of top surgeons. I did the research, set up consultations, and even had several flown in. And what did she do? She balked. She cried. She threw tantrums. She “didn't want this one.” Every time we got close to moving forward, she found some new reason to drag her feet. It was infuriating. And really, enough time had passed. The swelling was gone. The scars, while not invisible, were manageable. Any normal person would have at least tried to take
Conrad The desperation was eating me alive. It was a nasty, ugly thing that clung to my skin like dirt, and no matter how I tried, I couldn’t wash it off. I hated how it made me feel weak and restless, but I couldn’t lie to myself. I was desperate. It had been two days since I had met with my mother in her office, two days of more silence from her and two days of feeling like I was pacing the edge of a cliff, the ground crumbling under me while I tried to pretend I had control. In those two days, I had done something I never thought I would have to do: I had tried reaching out to Casillas repeatedly.I had told myself I just wanted answers, that I just wanted to question why he wasn’t lifting a finger to help my mother when he was supposed to be her ally. That was the justification I’d clung to because the alternative that I was asking him for help was too humiliating to admit, even in my thoughts. The first time I called, the line had barely rung once before the connection clicke