Chapter 4: Human Anatomy
"I have read their texts. Seen their biology as you have learned it from me. I don't know all the ways to be human."
John couldn't stop staring at the red staining Tom's lean cheeks. Blood flowed through the body as a result of emotions as much as biology. He couldn't think of a reason for Tom to be flushed. Sickness wasn't possible. Their kind rarely became ill. Heat was unlikely. They were both sharing the same berth with the same temperature flowing over them. What caused his face to flush?
"I don't like it when I can't hear your mind voice. You seem too far away. I'm human now. Your voice won't change me. You know I can hear you."
Tom reached out to stroke his hand down John's arm, squeezing his bicep gently before letting his hand fall to his side once more.
"It's hard to speak with my mind. For me. I do not have the talent for it you do."
"I can hear you."
John freed himself from the security lashes in order to gain more access to Tom. He gripped his friend's waist, squeezing to emphasize how much he was willing to give up for this man.
"I can touch you. We can touch. Touch me."
Tom searched John's face with his eyes, the flush on his cheeks darkening and capturing John's attention once more. He could feel Tom's uncertainty as if it were a weighted net falling over them both to pin them in place. Summoning his courage, he stripped his tunic from his upper body and seized Tom's hand in his own.
"Touch me. Please."
John thought Tom was going to refuse until he used his free hand to reach out.
No touch ever felt so right as Tom's slim fingers splaying across the thick pectoral muscles on John's chest. He began to worry about sickness again as the heat of Tom's hand seared his skin.
"You're so hot."
Breath catching in his throat, Tom sent the thought to him, "Humans use words differently than we know them. They say someone is 'hot' when they find them attractive. Human bodies warm as their blood pumps faster. When they're aroused. Sexual desire causes the male organ to react. Their anatomy is not so different from other bi-gender kinds."
Tom only skirted an issue when he was uncomfortable talking about it.
John knew Tom better than he knew himself.
"You don't want to teach me this. Why?"
"I don't want to disgust you."
"You could never!"
John tightened his grip on Tom's hand, covering the one resting on his chest with his free one. He wanted to trap Tom in place. He didn't want to lose the intimacy they had in their berth. It was possible they would never have a time to themselves alone again. Every world was different in how it was colonized. John was needed for Security while Tom was the last of Records.
Their value was in two totally different fields.
"I live for you. I, Tom, live for you, John, because of the pact which joins us. Tom for John. John for Tom."
No one knew about their pact.
John wondered if his blood brother would feel differently about Tom if he were to know a sacred pact bound him to his brother. Their lives were separated by many years -Peacekeeper had left the creche as a young man before John was birthed- and they did not often spend time together one-on-one.
"John for Tom. Tom for John. How could you think I would reject you for anything? We belong together."
It was more certain to him than whether they would be able to live on the surface of the planet they orbited. There were no mistakes made by their scientists. No one would have awakened if it had not been certain they had found a suitable planet.
"I want you to---to---to touch me."
John couldn't help showing his confusion, "I want to touch you. Why should I not?"
"Young," Tom whispered, fingers curling against John's chest, "You will want young. I cannot take that journey with you."
Shaking his head, John argued, "You could. We could find a compatible female. We could offer ourselves to her as part of her breeding group. Females want the chance to breed as much as we do. They improve their chances taking more lovers. You're the only one of your bloodline left. No female would deny you a chance to pass on Records to another generation."
Tom crowded close to John, ducking his head to tuck into the curve where Tom's neck met his shoulder. If their form was bipedal, Tom always found his way into the same position. John couldn't determine if it was because he appreciated the fact John couldn't see him from the position or if it made him feel better because he could smell his blood or hear his pulse or if he took comfort in some other biological stimuli entirely.
"Would you want to witness that?"
"What?"
John wasn't sure what they were even talking about any longer. All he could focus on was how warm Tom's body felt against his own. His warm breath against his neck caused every hair on his body to stand at attention. John didn't know a body could feel so many feelings at the same time. What were these humans? Why had they not found their way into the stars already?
"Me. Mating a female. Would you want to witness that?"
Sex was no secret thing for Zen. Mating units consisted of multiple males and one female all attempting to produce young. Most males had been witness to other males mounting the same female. John had even been involved in a mating unit with his blood brother as the female especially wanted a young of the Security bloodline.
John stiffened in place, his body going taut with the strength of his reaction as he snapped, "No!"
"I thought not. You do not like it when others touch me."
John finally understood why Tom's face was vibrant with color as blood rushed to his own.
"I have never denied you touch. You have always been free to find the mating unit of your choice."
"I have never wanted a mating unit. I've only wanted you."
Tom pressed his mouth to John's, sending a mental plea out at the same time saying, "Kiss me."
Chapter 5: Kissing LessonsJohn breathed him in before instinct drove him to seek Tom's taste with his tongue. The slight difference in their height allowed their mouths to meet with a tilt up from John and a tilt down from Tom. Kissing was an entirely new experience for them both."Is this allowed?"Tom nodded his answer even as he bit at John's lips, angled his head to the side and tried to get closer, taste more of him, feel more of him."Humans kiss this way?""Lovers kiss this way."John felt the words down into the very marrow of his bones.Their pact had kept them together throughout their lives as they grew up, changed, took on the roles of their bloodline rather than their choosing. If they had remained on Zon, this moment would never have happened. Zen took lovers for procreation, rarely for recreation. John could not name a pair of lovers who were same-gendered.
Chapter 6: Guardian DescendedTomRecords were left to their own devices. Most Zen chose not to associate with the historians of their race without just cause. It was disconcerting to think of someone remembering every single word or action without effort.Perfect recall was the one gift all members of Records shared in their bloodline.In exchange, Records were unable to connect to the rest of their kin with the ease all other Zen families possessed.Guardian descended with the stately grace of a much smaller vessel; alarms were sounded to signal Zen to begin their descent protocols. Everyone had a job. Except Tom. Avoiding the thought to spare John any discomfort, Tom focused all his energy on feeling calm, cool, and collected.Earth was going to be their new home. Earth was a new planet. Earth would need all of Tom's focus for a time as he tried to learn its history to place it alongside the
Chapter 7: DisembarkingJohnZen were forming into orderly groupings when John was told they were all meant to be escorted to registration.Immediately upon exiting their ship.How was he meant to register with Tom if he was to be taken to registration as soon as he disembarked?John was not given the chance to panic due to an issue with his blood brother demanding his attention -"Have you seen my mating unit? They went for our female. She was berthed on the other side of the deck."-followed by concerns as to whether Security should escort each group to registration or not.The Zen had been promised a peaceful welcome so long as they followed the rules set out for them to join the United States. All of their preparations had been done in advance far before the passengers had been woken. There were many reasons to be concerned about adapting to a new planet. Should they be concerned their people had e
Chapter 8: RegistrationTomAll the orderly lines of Zen were divided into separate queues upon entering the registration depot. Tom was able to make out the words above the door using the information he'd gleaned from the human version of Records. They were registering at the County Clerk Office where it seemed many types of registration were available.Queue directors helpfully shuffled the Zen from one path to another in order to try to keep an even number of registrants before each human worker; Scientist Serena was moved to the queue beside Tom and John before either of them had an opportunity to protest. Tom knew he would have tried to insist they remain together.Tom didn't want to admit he knew John would have felt otherwise regarding the Scientist.Surprisingly, the pair in front of them were human."What are we doing for you gentleman today?"Tom listened to the cheerful worker greet the pair
Chapter 9: NewsworthyJohnQuestions continued to be fired at them with the speed of stun bolts and they had the same effect on Tom who was trying -unsuccessfully- to tuck his taller, leaner body behind John. It was instinct alone which had him wrapping an arm around Tom's waist to pull him into his body; Tom responded beautifully as he ducked enough to tuck his face into the crook nestled between John's neck and shoulder.Why did he have to be shorter in this form of all forms?"We are unable to respond without permission of our expedition council."The answer was not entirely truthful as no Zen was forbidden from speaking as they pleased. The human recordkeepers seemed to understand and accept it all the same which was relief enough for John.Feeling Tom trembling against him was rousing his protective instincts."Hey! You guys were right behind us!"John glanced over to see
Chapter 10: On Hunters and GatherersTomEvery step through the throng of reporters felt harder than the one before it. Tom was painfully aware of how exposed his face was as he felt blinded every time a flash went off in front of him. They were out in a sunny area. Why would these people even need additional lights for their records?Nothing about the questions being posed made sense.Who would benefit from knowing how long he and John had been in a relationship? What use would humans have of their designated employments? Why would any human want to know who had 'proposed' marriage as an option for them?Questions spun around in his head until he felt dizzy, grateful for John's sturdy form keeping him upright until they reached the automobile their new human companions claimed for their own."Do you mind riding in the back? I get carsick in the backseat."'What is 'carsick'?' Tom though
Chapter 11: GatheringJohnBrian and Ryan linked hands as soon as they were clear of their vehicle; John followed their example to entwine his fingers with Tom's and instantly felt better about being so far from Guardian."How many in your party?"Ryan indicated John and Tom were with them and responded, "Four. We're celebrating our wedding day! We're all newlyweds!""Thank you for choosing us to celebrate this day with you! We are very happy to serve you here!"The woman was the smallest female John had ever seen among humans. She had features which he'd been told were Asian and she moved with the kind of grace he associated with his Tom. All the other customers seemed to look at them as they made their way through the main floor of the establishment to be seated before a cooking station."Please be seated. Our chef will be with you soon."They sat two a side at the station
Chapter 12: HuntersTom"Please calm down, sir. We will seat you on this side. Far away. You see? Very far away.""I don't want to be in the same buildingas those things!"Tom leaned closer to John as the man continued to yell at the small hostess who'd been so kind to them on their arrival. Why was he so angry? Was he so very afraid of Zen? How did he know?John moved his hand in slow circles on Tom's back and he found himself breathing slower, calming even more when the man stormed out with his companions."Don't worry about him," Ryan encouraged, "We used to get complaints when we held hands in public. People choose how they react to anyone different. That guy? Total bigot. He's probably terrified you're going to turn him into a frog or eat him."Brian nodded his agreement while Ryan rolled his eyes expansively; Tom found he was smiling once more.Wer