i thought about it all

I thought about it all night and all the next morning.

Spending any more time with Derek was a bad idea. I knew this. That was not in question.

But Kevin was still pouting and hadn’t called me back – so technically, whatever I did wouldn’t be cheating.

For the record, I knew that was a total copout. I didn’t even think it held water as an excuse.

…but it was, technically, correct.

And it gave me a certain amount of psychological cover to play ‘What If.’

At the end of the day, I could always scream like Ross on Friends, “We were on a BREAK!”

But I still knew I was getting back together with Kevin. I was, there was no question in my mind of that.

And anything I did with Derek would be cheating, technicality or not.

But…

…if we never kissed…

…and we never touched…

…and we never had sex…

…was it really cheating?

Of course it was. It was ‘emotional’ cheating.

But since Kevin and I were broken up, ‘emotional’ cheating seemed like it wasn’t really cheating at all.

And if I kept things in con