Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. The five stages of grief are usually an ongoing journey, but I feel like I have gone through it all in one day. That unbelievable pain I felt yesterday has lessened, and I think it had to do with the dream I have just woken up from. I saw my mother meeting my father after his death. He was so happy to see her that he broke down in her arms and sobbed. As it turned out, the reason he didn’t Ascend with her was that the Volkov Transfer of Power needed to happen. It is an age-old Volkov tradition where the next Alpha in line needs to devour the heart of the previous Alpha. He didn’t want to put his children through that but knew it needed to be done. Somehow he knew if I did it, that our combined strength would force Haze’s submission. So he let the enemy think they won, and in turn, it weeded out Luka’s betrayal. I didn’t expect to wake up with a clear head this morning, but a sense of peace invaded my heart even as a tear slipped
The cries of my family stills my heart even as it’s ripped from my chest, but I’ve known for the longest time this is what’s needed. Without the Volkov Transfer of Power, Creed would remain at the mercy of this beast and its anger… and with everything that comes with my family, a sacrifice is needed.Pain blooms as I look up into the eyes of the beast who has controlled so much of my son’s life. He’s the reason Creed has hated himself for the longest time, and now his greed will be his downfall.Then sweet darkness pulls me under and the last thing I see is the tear-filled blue eyes of my only son. But the blissful smile on my face remains as serenity courses through me, knowing that my pack is in good hands.I hear the gentle trickling of a stream and open my eyes to a beautiful, cloudless day. The sounds of the forest echo around me, and I smell the Spring scent on the breeze. A smile curves on my lips as I realize where I am.How long have I been laying down here for, I wonder? Mon
RebeccaWhen I arrived in New York dead set on taking down Sage Volkov, I didn’t expect this plot twist to reveal itself to me. Apart from Sage taking everything I have ever held dear, now I am forced to take him back to my home.I didn’t want this. I didn’t want to rely on him for a darn thing, but since he let me speak to my mother and I know my Court is safe… Let's just say things have changed.Now I’m stuck on this fancy private jet on my way to New Orleans and hoping he isn’t hiding something from me.“Once we get there, we can take an SUV to your lands,” he says with his head down staring at his cell phone. “Unless you need to make a stop first.”“Heading there first sounds good. The less time I’m stuck with you, the better,” I say and catch the smirk on his face at my words.“Please, you love spending time with me, I can tell,” he says in a voice dripping with sarcasm.“I love spending time with you as much as I love swallowing glass, don’t get ahead of yourself, Heartless,” I
SageHow can a drop in her demeanor affect me so much? Throughout this entire trip, she had a sunny attitude even as she tried to hate me but mention her fucking Prince and she visibly deflates?I clench my fists at my sides. This woman is testing me and as much as I like her fight when I win our banters, I hate seeing her like this. Again, she’s making me feel shit I am not equipped to deal with - years later and she still has a hold over me.“Just through here,” she announces as we come to a large oak tree. She removes the key from her little backpack and holds it out before murmuring something that sounds like Gaelic. I step back and my eyes widen when I see the tree literally splitting in half to reveal an intricately decorated door. The words on the door seem to be in a language that I can’t understand and as I read the letters, my heartbeat picks up.So much so that I drop to one knee while clenching my chest and groaning. Rebecca turns around when she hears the sound and a loo
SageLast night I had the same dream I had after I walked out of Volkov forest stripped of my emotions. It had the same beautiful dark-haired woman luring me back to the forest, only to fuck me senseless. She told me I belonged to her, that everything I was doing was for her and I believed her. It was the first time in years I woke up hard as a fucking rock with no relief to be found. I still don’t know who this woman is or why she says I’m hers. “So, what exactly made you so heartless?” Rebecca asks on our third day of nothing, snapping me out of my thoughts. I glance up at her as I page through a spell book. “When you say heartless, what exactly do you mean?” I know exactly what she means, but I want to hear her say it.She closes the drawer she’d been rifling through and breathes out a sigh before leaning back in the chair. “You; everything that you are. Everyone who has met you says the exact same thing. You’re cold, nonchalant, you don’t care about anyone else but yourself-”“
Rebecca Six days in the presence of Sir Heartless and I’m about to have a hissy fit. How long can it possibly take to find whatever it is he’s looking for? We’ve scoured the place every single day, and there’s nothing!Not only am I frustrated, but it seems as if being around me has made him cockier than before. Last night was the worst of it, he kept on pushing my buttons and making me flustered.I watch as he walks towards the front door, ready for another day of nothing. But as he picks up the SUV keys, I rush forward, turn to face him, and place my hand on his heart.“I’ve had enough of this,” I say, before reversing the cloaking spell on the Unseelie Queen’s mark. He looks up at me in horror and I scoff because I knew something was up with him after our first day together. It started with the look in his eyes, down to his mannerisms and teasing. Old Sage would never just tease for the sake of it, he'd do it to get a rise out of me.And he’d do it all with an impassive look on h
Sage The one thing I’ve wanted since I woke up with Rebecca missing that morning, has now happened. She has no idea how fucking beautiful she looks when she comes apart for me, how gorgeous her complete submission is. And this time she was the one who begged me to take her. She’s fast asleep in my arms; right in the middle of the morning after our first time together in years. Just being with her right now, even without the cloaking spell, I feel lighter than I ever have before. I don’t know if this is the answer to my problem, but I think I need to have a talk with her about it. She’s not my mate, I know this. But she’s the only one who makes me feel while I’m this heartless fucker, so that has to mean something, right? Even without that cloaking spell, she makes me FEEL. “Hmmm,” she groans, stirring in my arms and snuggling into my chest. “I’m dreaming, right?” “Did your dream include being thoroughly fucked?” I ask with a grin and know she’s rolling her eyes at me right now
RebeccaI’m in my shower, staring at the tiled wall and trying to figure out if I’ve hallucinated the entire day. From sleeping with Sage to him literally worshipping my body and in the next few minutes, I’m speaking to my mother. Yeah, I definitely think I’m dreaming.From everything Sage has told me, the only reason he’s emotionless is because of the Unseelie Queen’s mark on his heart. If my mother has a spell or enchantment that can remove that, then Sage should be back to… uhm, normal, I guess?But then what happens after that? When my mother comes back, she won’t want me anywhere near Sage. When I acted nonchalant with him about our future, I was pretending because I didn’t want to face what was shoved right in front of me.Not only that, but Sage has a mate out there somewhere. I’ll always be looking over my shoulder, waiting for the day he has a Mate Bond Sighting.I’ll never be the one his Goddess chose; the other half of his soul.Argh, I shouldn’t be so negative. Who says S