An initiation

Once I was calmed down he asked if I was ready and I nodded.

“Alright, grab my hand.” 

I did as he ordered and held his big hand. I could feel the veins and the callousness on his palms. 

“From now on, do as I say, Kamilah. Look into my eyes.” 

I did as he told, seeing his chocolate brown eyes melting my own and he concentrated. 

“Follow after me. I, state your name, is now free from my past pack and is now in the BloodLust pack, under Alpha Magnus. I will do whatever my Alpha asks me to, accept his orders, and let him mind link.” 

I said the words he uttered and after we were finished, I could feel a sharp pain in my mind, a strong magnetic field on our hands that was still clasped together, and my inner wolf battling inside. I groaned in pain, falling to my knees. Alpha Magnus caught me before I could hit the floor and he grabbed my arm, whispering in my ears. 

“Calm down. I didn't mean to harm you. You just need to go through this process quickly and it will leave soon.” 

“I-I know.” 

I took quick breaths, closing my eyes and trying to make the pain go away and after a minute, the pain stopped. Alpha Magnus released my hand, but not before I felt a sharp zap between us and I instantly withdraw my hand. 

Alpha Magnus seemed to feel it too and he supported me as we walked down the stage. 

My mind was hazy and my throat felt dry. He made me sit back on my chair and Dimitri spoke again to catch everyone’s attention, “Now Kamilah is officially part of us. Let us have our feast now!” 

“Are you alright?” Alpha Magnus said beside me, still checking on me.

I nodded, grabbing a glass of water and drinking it to quench my dry throat. “I’m fine.”

He smiled, “You handled that better than anyone. Others passed out and woke up after two days as the pain was unbearable.” 

My eyes widened, “Really?” It must be because of my new strength…

“Now that you are fully well and officially one of us, I’ll have to train you tomorrow. Don’t be late.” 

I nodded, “Alright Alpha.”

“You can go back to your room and rest. But it's better if you can mingle with the others. Make friends.” He suggested and I nodded. 

I know that Alpha Magnus has a reputation for being ruthless and merciless to everyone, but from my stay for a few days here, I personally would like to decline that. He’s actually nice to his members. 

I stood up and looked around, seeing them now eating, drinking, and dancing the night away. woman. A woman then came upon us and I remembered it was Thora, the woman who helped me earlier.

 “Hi, Kamilah! I hope you still remember me from earlier hehe.” She said against the loud background music.

“Hi. Thora!”  I replied back. 

I couldn’t hear the rest of her words and she motioned for us to go outside. I followed her and saw Owen and the other woman with him.

“Gosh, it was so loud inside. We need to have a breath of fresh air.”  Thora complained. 

“Hi, Kamilah!” Owen greeted them as they approached them. “If you don’t remember, I’m the guy who saved you from Stacey earlier.”

“Yes, Owen, I remember you,” I said. 

“Hi, My name’s Tyra. Owen’s mate.” The woman introduced me and I shook hands with them. 

Thora then carried on the whole conversation and started to get to know them. 

“You did great earlier. Congrats!” Owen said, “You felt that strong magnetic field right? That was how strong our alpha is.” 

I nodded. And suddenly wanting to pee, I excused myself from them and went to the bathroom. But what I saw made my jaw drop.

Stacy was leaning on the wall and kissing a man. 

No. Not some random man. 

From the way, the man was standing and his build, it was too easy to guess that it was Alpha Magnus. 

I felt like I shouldn't have seen that…nor should I feel this weird aching sensation inside my heart. 

Rage filled inside me and I don’t know why. I instantly walked back towards where Owen, Thora, and Tyra were. 

Thora noticed my discomfort and asked, “Are you alright?” 

I looked at where the direction of the bathroom was, still at a loss for words. 

“Hello, Earth to Kamilah?” 

Tyra looked at me, “She must have seen it.”

I raised my eyebrows, “Seen what?” 

Owen took a sip of his drink and cleared his throat, “We all know it, Stacey is the last fling of Alpha Magnus. Well, Alpha Magnus didn’t care at first, but her father is one of the warriors here so...” 

The rest of the night felt bitter for me. After chatting with Owen and the others, I just went back to my room. I took a shower first before changing into the clothes that Dimitri had brought earlier. 

I appreciate how nice and accomodating Alpha Magnus is. His pack is nice and welcoming, unlike my past pack. But strangely, something seems lacking. Something feels off. I couldn’t exactly pinpoint it but there was a hollow feeling in my heart that tells me I don’t belong here.

I shrugged it off, thinking it might be just because I’m still new and adjusting. I will get comfortable in this place soon. I know it. I am strong, I know I can do it. 

But left alone now as I hear the distant music from the packhouse, it felt lonely. And I was left alone with the thoughts that I had been forgetting.

How is…Darian doing? 

I gulped, wanting to rip away the memories I had with him. Darian is just my past now. I couldn’t return to them now. 

I am dead, hidden…and now in a safe place. 

Why do I still think of that man? 

And Alpha Magnus…Sure...I thought Alpha Magnus was caring for me…he probably was just pitying me that’s why he took me in. 

A short creaking sound appeared and I instantly sat upright. 

Everyone is at the packhouse, partying so I’m sure I’m alone here. Is it Dimitri? 

“Who’s there?” I asked through the thundering silence, my heart thundering for some reason. 

Just then, a tall figure appeared from the darkness and there was a knocking on the door. 

“Kamilah? It’s me.”

A deep voice said. I hesitated for a bit, knowing it was Alpha Magnus. Muttering my courage, I opened it.

“Did you enjoy this night?” He asked.

I nodded, “I did. Thank you, Alpha.” 

His eyes darted to my eyes, down to my lip, and into my collarbone. “I saw you talking to Owen…” he trailed off as if wanting to say more.

I saw you kissing Stacy.

I wanted to say that but I didn’t. My head may come out from here. As much as Alpha Magnus is now evidently nice, I don’t want to risk my life from this mere matter.

It’s his personal life after all.

“Yes, he’s a nice guy. And Thora and Tyra too.” I replied instead.

He nodded, “That’s good. 

“I also came to say one thing.”

“What is it?”

He blinked, deciding against it and turning around. “Go to the training grounds tomorrow. We’ll train you so wake up early.”