13: I will die

Massimo

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The last week was one of the toughest weeks of my life. I've never felt so lonely and alone in my life. I knew I had my mate, but whenever I used to think about her, my mood would turn sour, thinking her presence was also the reason behind my loneliness. I knew that sounded absurd because whatever happened, I was the only one behind it, but like a coward or loser, I was blaming others for the things that I did to make me feel good.

I groaned when I saw Amelia’s call again. Why couldn’t she understand that I needed some time? Even though Corni was ready to jump on her, I wasn’t. I couldn’t.

From the moment I opened my eyes in the morning until I closed my eyes at night, I couldn’t help but think about Felicity.

Not that I love her or any stupid theory like that, but because I was fully dependent on her. I was late in training for all seven days without her.

Then I wanted to puke after drinking the coffee. That was why I decided to stop drinking coffee for the rest of my life.