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46. The Apology
Ashar comes to the hospital as he said so I go out to see him. He called me outside.
He's leaned against his car. When he sees me, he stands straight and passes me a smile. I smile too, feeling light goosebumps on my arms. I walk to him.
"Hey." I say, don't know how to start the conversation.
He rubs his forehead, looks uneasy. "I..." I frown.
He looks into my eyes straight, "I haven't done my lunch. Will you accompany me?"
I couldn't hide my surpise, "Yes?" Is he asking me out? I'm surely dreaming.
He looks to his left for a second, then me again, "There's a good restaurant nearby on walking distance. Come with me."
It's actually four in the evening in my watch and he's talking about lunch.
"I'm...I'm not...hungry?" I say, unsure and hesitant. I don't feel ike eating anything.
"Okay. You can accompany me, just sit with me."
"That's fine." I agree tentatively.
He locks his car and start walking f
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