I had been waiting a long time for my father to ask me to come home. What I didn't expect was for him to tell me that it was the alpha who insisted.
I don't know if my father doesn't really like me or if it's the fact that I look like my mom that has kept him away from me for more than twelve years.
Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy here. It was a lot worse at first. No one could expect a six-year-old pup, who had just lost a mother, not to be upset about losing a father as well. My uncle, the Alpha of the River Ash Pack, my late mother's only brother, made me feel a part of the pack, of the family. He and my aunt had two children—a girl one year older than me and a boy one year younger. We grew up together like brothers, and I trained, since I was little, with the pack's future alpha.
You could say that my beta genes made me strong, but my cousin won most of our fights in training camp. No wonder, after all, he was an alpha, and I think that the times I won, he just let me win.
My cousin found her mate in a neighboring pack on her eighteenth birthday, and now she is the mate of the Beta in that pack. There's a pup on the way, too, and I promised to help choose the name, but that's not going to happen because I have to leave early next week.
My cousin is still seventeen, and I've promised to be there for him when it's time for his first shift. Yet, another promise I couldn't keep.
For me, the Alpha and Luna are my real parents because they raised me and treated me like their real children.
My Luna has already started to cry because I'm leaving.
My Alpha pretends to be strong, but I know he's crying inside.
If I had already found my mate, and he was of a higher rank than mine, I would be living in his pack. But I'm still mateless.
What will be a real pain in the ass for me is to cut the link with the pack.
When I joined my uncle's pack, he, as the alpha, performed the acceptance ritual, and I joined the pack physically and mentally. I drank his blood and became a River Ask Pack member. When I get to my dad's house, I'll have to perform another ritual, which will sever all my connections with the River Ash Pack. That is my biggest sorrow.
Anyway, at least I'll have my two friends there, Dominic and Colby, the youngest Alpha children. The Alpha and Luna also seem to like me. I just don't know how Klaus will react. When I was five-years-old and he was nine, he told me he was too big to play with a puppy my age, and he joined other werewolves, many of them older, who took him to drink and stuff. He hurt me a lot. Is he the same type of person?
Dominic and Colby call me every day, and we video call a lot, too. They never let our friendship fall apart, and I adore them. Colby is my age, and Dominic is two years older. I bet they're already planning loads of stuff for us to do. Then I look forward to seeing them and hugging them.
As for what hurts me the most about moving to my father's house is having to break up with my boyfriend. Yes, I'm gay, and everyone here knows and respects me, but in my father's pack, I don't know how it's going to be. But, as I was saying, leaving my boyfriend is going to be hard. He's human, and he doesn't know I'm a werewolf. We've been together since we were sixteen, but we only had sex for the first time last month. It's not that we've done it many times. We've only done it three times because Peter is very shy and says it hurts a lot afterward. Yes, I'm a top, and my cock's bigger than normal for humans, but our inexperience didn't help much, either. I love him. I know he's not my mate, but I love him. People say that when I find my mate, who I hope's a werewolf and never a shewolf, what I feel for Peter will disappear. I don't know about that. I don't have a mate now, and Peter is the one who has my heart, and my heart only beats for Peter.
He's going to hate me. He's going to think I used and left him after, and that's not true.
I don't know how I will explain to him why I have to go abroad.
- What are you thinking so much? You're getting wrinkles on your forehead. - Peter asks me, smiling.
Lunchtime had passed, and I hadn't even touched the food.
- Nothing. - I said, pulling him and giving him a peck on the lips.
I wasn't going to have that conversation in the school cafeteria. I would have to have it in a different place.
- You haven't eaten. Aren't you hungry?
- Yes, I was distracted - I say, shoving the food in my mouth as quickly as possible before the bell rang for the first time.
Peter always laughed at my actions, and having my mouth stuffed with food was seriously a source of laughter for him.
The bell gave the first signal just as I put the last bite of food in my mouth. I got up and ran to the washroom. I needed to wash my hands and mouth, and mostly, I needed to pee.
When I leave the washroom, Petar is waiting for me at the door, carrying my books and his.
I took the books from his hands, and hand in hand, we ran to the classroom. Everyone knows we're together, and although the atmosphere was strange at first, now nobody cares. We managed to get in before the second ring, and we sat in our place, side by side, ready to listen to the lecture that our teacher had prepared.
One thought sticks in my head throughout class. He loves me as much as I love him. This is going to be so painful.
The giggle of several children could be heard in the packhouse living room.Angel was sitting in an armchair, stroking his enormous belly.Colby's son, now two, was playing with Seline and Luan, wrestling over the stuffed rabbit.Luan looked at his sister and cousin with a sly smile. He got up, grabbed the rabbit, and ran, followed by the other two little ones, screaming.In the other corner of the room sat Peter on Dominic's lap. Peter had asked Klaus to make him a werewolf, and he was now stretching his pregnant belly farther than necessary for everyone to see.A year-and-a-half-old girl was sleeping in Raven's lap.After 18 years, she had managed to have the girl she wanted so much, and Ukric looked like a peacock, being a father again.Klaus enters the room and kisses his younger sister, who shudders and complains sleepily. He sits on the arm of the chair and kisses Angel's beautiful face.- How do you feel? – Klaus asks his mate.- Like a balloon about to burst.Both laugh.Klaus
I had my head down, full of shame. But Snow calls my attention,“Stop being embarrassed. You're going to be Luna of the pack. Hold your head high.”“You are very happy to have the title made for a woman. Do you want to be the mother of the pack that bad?”Snow scoffs and goes to the corner where he likes to ignore me.Klaus turns to me.- Angel, my life, my love, will you accept to be my Luna?I'm nervous, but I smile.- Yes, I accept.- Do you accept being the pack's mother, moon, Luna, and the representation of the Moon Goddess herself in the Lycan Moon Pack?- Yes, I accept.- Do you accept responsibility for caring for all pack members, yang and old, healing and feeding all, as a real mother does?- Yes, I accept.- Do you accept caring for the elderly and orphaned pups as if they were your own?- Yes. I accept.The elder removes the golden rope, cuts Klaus's palm and then mine, joins the cuts, and reties our hands.He looks at all the pack members and says:- With the grace of the
When he asks me for a chance, my heart skips a beat.I looked at him. God, he is so good-looking, and his words warm my heart.- I accept your proposal. I'll let you flirt with me and try to win my heart. I confess that I am not displeased. I'm not one to be attracted to men I don't know, but if I'm attracted to you, there could be something more between us.I see Dominic smile, and the smile reaches his eyes and changes color, leaving me intrigued.-Your eyes have changed color. - I say, curious.- Because my wolf loves you as much as I do. He wants to ask you if you agree to take a walk through the night, sitting on his back.- I don't know if I understand what you are saying.- Ray, my wolf, wants you to sit on his back and let him take you for a walk through the forest.- But I'm wearing my pajamas.- It doesn't matter. Do you want to come? - he says, holding out his hand.I took his hand, and we went down the stairs, walking to the forest's edge. He looks at me and undresses, and
When Angel sits beside me, the courage to ask everything stuck in my throat seems to fade. I hadn't joined in the run and had waited patiently for Angel to return.Seeing Peter hiding behind his father and both of them going into the bedroom without even glancing at me, I felt destroyed inside.I don't mind that my mate is a man or a human, but he's not feeling the mate-bond, and that's a huge problem. How am I going to make him give me a chance?- Dominic? - I heard Angel say and looked at him.The tears don't stop flowing.Klaus, my Alpha, passes me and squeezes my shoulder affectionately, heading towards the packhouse to let us talk freely. A wolf doesn't leave his mate with another wolf, especially if it's another Alpha, but my brother trusts me and Angel.Angel pulled me against his shoulder, and I cried out loud. The sound of my sobs echoes through the courtyard, but I'm not ashamed.- I've been waiting for my mate for two years. Before becoming an adult, I had already dreamed o
When it was time for the ritual, Klaus let go of my hand and walked up to the stage, which had been improvised for the entire pack to see.I had never watched a title-passing ritual. I also didn't know how Luna's ceremony would be.I fixed my eyes on the stage, not wanting to miss anything. Dominic approached me, and I looked at him. He had red eyes from crying, and my heart squeezed in my chest.- When the ceremony is over, can you give me five minutes? I wanted to talk to you privately.- Dominic, you are one of my best friends. I will always have time for you.He stood by my side but wasn't looking at the stage. Out of the corner of my eye, I see that John and Peter are sitting next to Raven, and it's Peter he's looking at.The world takes many turns.The Moon Goddess plays some pranks on us, too. If I had gone back to England, it would never have been to be with Peter. It is destined for my mate's brother and best friend. What a mess. This would never cross my mind. I know Peter v
One more morning, I woke up alone. In a few days, I'll start spending weeks in New York, and then, in addition to sleeping alone, I'll eat all my meals alone.It didn't affect me before. I have never been one of those "desperately looking for their mate" guys, but seeing my brother's happiness moved me more than I expected. Maybe I'm mateless. I could have asked the Moon Goddess; maybe she would have told me, and then, knowing, I could look for a chosen mate.The hope of feeling what my parents felt for each other kept me a virgin. Nobody knows because they've seen me with some girls, but I want to save myself for my mate. Liking someone is nothing compared to feeling the bond.I get up and go about my daily business in the bathroom. I choose an outfit and get dressed. The white pants and tight T looked good on me. I comb my hair and leave the room. The packhouse was silent, and only the knocking of utensils being moved in the kitchen echoed in the air.When I entered, the she-wolves