I accidentally fell asleep on the roof. I guess looking at the stars soothed me. That and knowing there was no chance of running into anyone. Why did Beta Rhett believe in me and Dex not? How could he see through the lies so easily yet the man my wolf pines for doesn't care. Anger bubbles away because one word from him could silence this whole thing. One announcement at a party was confirming I never asked him for help and my test scores are far from successful and my reputation could be restored. My anger does not last, it is not in my nature to harbour resentment. Not when the only thing I can see is the dawning sun, rising over the olive groves and pink-flowered trees. I pull myself up to sit and hug my legs. The morning breeze is cool and refreshing, my hair whipping around pleasantly. I sigh and resolve to make this the best day I can. /We look after ourselves. To rely on a man such as Alpha Dex would be our downfall, not the rumours/ Raya warned. I nodded in agreement. Conti
I knew it couldn’t be this easy. Berlarot and our deal would have to be discovered eventually. Tottering next to Kate, wishing I didn’t have ankle-clattering wedge heels on compared to her easy, ballet-like walk in sneakers I felt an utter fool. How was I ever going to explain making a deal with a demon? The ultimate taboo of Dark Arts? “Hey, everything will be okay,” Kate said, giving my hand a quick squeeze, “it will be nothing,” and all I could do was nod. It was either that or vomit. The punishment for bonding with a demon, I hadn’t even dared to look up. I knew it was in the Dark Arts library, I’d even held the book but been too afraid to read it. So I had Kate’s opal pendant in my purse, but there was no tangible proof I had done anything to her. It would be my word against hers. It was only some rumours! /This is what happens, I warned you/ Bree scolded, my wolf forever frustrated at my choices. Pacing across the full length of the compound my heart was racing. If they as
How could I be the kind of friend to begrudge Roxie’s joy? Only someone with nothing can understand the unfillable gap in an orphaned soul. The one where all you learn about is a closeness, a happiness that you can never have for yourself. Every alphabet book, every play, every pretend world contained parents, aunts, uncles and happy gatherings. To learn that Roxie had a family out there, even though one branch had died, there might be more out there to discover was amazing. It almost made the fact I am nearly broke bearable. This was Roxie’s day. She practically skipped all the way back to the main Compound, her wedges dancing over the cobbles with no effort. “What were you so afraid of before?” I asked, “you seemed to think you were in trouble?” “Did I?” she asked, swinging her arms giddily and smiling. “You looked just like when you get caught taking food from the kitchen that time, remember when Mrs Rogging shouted and you froze with your hand in the fruit bowl?” “You were
I was right about the early bird catches the worm, I just never expected it to be the wizened, scary-ass old worm I never want to be alone with. As I sat on the bench, idly playing with some vine leaves I toyed over yesterday’s Conference meeting. Twirling the ring from my father absent-mindedly, its black opal revealing fiery folds of orange and red when examined closely. I should wear it all the time, instead father doles it out for official business only. I keep it when he officially recognises me. Like having a toy repeatedly taken away. Alpha Austin wanted something. The forestry of Luna Gwyneth's pack was too paltry to go to war over, but what if it was a cover for something bigger? Trying to make me look the other way and miss the bigger picture? I didn’t expect to see Kate running past. It was as though my imagination conjured her into life. Watching her move, with long slender limbs like a ballerina, I almost called her name. Then, with a pang I remember all my duties, my r
I keep hidden in our room until it is time for Warrior training. The training complex is on the outside of the compound, where the bonfire parties from previous weeks take place. Two dozen of us, including Roxie, Matt, Felix and Cherry are attending. The grass is marked in training circles, the aim being to fight within a smaller area each time. The first circle is the size of a basketball court, designed to reflect an open battlefield. The final one, three sizes down, is smaller than a double bed, deadly personal combat. I warm up, stretching and jumping like it might magically turn me into the kind of battle-hardened machine you need to be for a place in this squad. “Pair up!” Coach Grantley shouted as everyone quickly shuffled to the side. A rugged man in his mid-fifties, greying and covered in silvery scar lines he looked terrifying. His shaved mohawk hairstyle didn’t help settle my nerves. If Roxie had been standing anywhere near me I’d have suggested he looked like a psycho
Following Luna Madeline’s little diversion I eventually stopped mooning over Kate’s window like a desperate puppy and headed inside. Only to find my father proposing a change to the itinerary. Rose glared at me as I walked in, Beta Rhett stood very near her which I glared back at him for. Not the fucking start I wanted. He sighed and took a step to the left. Rose mind-linked me, her voice full of frustration, /Father wants me to accompany Alpha Austin on this fucking tour of the compound, you have to look after me!/ /Nothing is happening, there are no deals being made like that without me knowing first/ I sent back but my words felt hollow. If father could change the full conference schedule without telling me then of course he will do his dealings with Rose separately. /Father, can I ask-/ /Not now. Did Luna Madeline have anything to say?/ I gave him the slightest of nods across the room. This wasn't for a mind-link conversation. Especially when Dark Arts specialists were presen
This has been the greatest month of my life. Since finding out about the money everything has just been fabulous. Felix is adorable. Such a cuddly cupcake of a man hidden under all those rippling muscles. It’s bringing out all kinds of sides of me I didn’t even know I had, I could do anything, I mean anything to Felix and those big green eyes would let me. I’ve had him blindfolded, tied to the bed, I’ve straddled him to the point of screaming for release all because in my mind I am doing these things to Alpha Dex. I don’t just want to fuck him, I want to be his Luna. I want to completely shatter his world and leave him no option but to pluck and fuck me out of obscurity and into the limelight. It sounds completely crazy doesn’t it. It seemed impossible at one point, until that fight. He might have rigged the game for Kate out of pity, but his eyes were on me. I felt that burning heat, it could only be from him. Every muscle in my body tingled, I wanted to pose, stick out my ass or
Every night alongside the little prayers I send up for my mother and father, I send one for Felix too. He is making Roxie so happy, and without realising it, I can crash in our shared room on my own for the most part. We are naturally avoiding each other. She comes in to get new clothes when she knows I have an extra lesson. I hang out on the roof for the few hours she uses the shower. I miss her silly, dramatic ways, and how loudly she has to complete every task. The room is so quiet with just my thoughts. We nod in the corridors as we pass, she might mouth a “how are you?” but no conversation. Nobody wants to be tarnished by association. Even Cherry and Matt, two people I thought so much of are strangers to me now. I might have been an orphan almost all my life but it is this month where I felt truly alone and abandoned for the first time. Roxie is glowing though. Like a supermodel, her hair, skin and eyes all seem so much brighter than I remember. It’s as though she has burst