LOGINDEVIN’S POV
Stella had cried out her heart and tried sniffling toward me, except it didn’t work. I wasn’t interested in her anyways. Fine, I did like Stella, but love? That was a huge word for me. I couldn’t keep up with it.
“Devin? Where are you heading? Let’s have breakfast,” she called hastily as I stopped to a halt by the door, my hands resting on the knob. I was in no mood for any stunt she was about to pull. Reluctantly, I turned backward, not bothering to hide the frown on my face.
“Breakfast?” I asked, tilting my head, playing it out with heavy sarcasm laced into my words.
“Is that meant to be a joke to you, Stella? I do not wish to have this conversation today anyways. I have to be somewhere else, I have a business meeting today,” I retorted hastily, pissed at the fact that she really believed I would forgive her.
We weren’t any different. We both cheated. I was even more of a monster if I was keeping that fact from her, but it was removing the idle truth. Stella cheated on purpose. I? I didn’t. Mine was an honest drunken mistake. Well, to be fair, it didn’t mean I wouldn’t tap that ass again if I got a chance.
Jesus Christ! Fuck! Get a hold of yourself, Devin.
I ignited the engine to the car, hastily driving out of her garage on time to see Stella’s hurt and pissed expression watching me through the rear mirror.
I needed to speak with my father. I really needed to get things over with. I’d ignored every call, every alarm, and every business schedule. I made a straight line for my father’s office.
“I’d like to meet with my father,” I spoke hastily and in a curt manner to Grace, his secretary. Grace looked somewhat surprised to see I’d broken out of my morning routine, but she hadn’t put up an argument either.
“He’s in there right now, but I’m sorry to tell you we have to leave for a meeting—a trip for a breakfast meeting with an important client in about… seven minutes,” Grace spoke, not once lifting her eyes off the laptop before her.
“Thank you, Grace,” I greeted, blowing her a kiss as I marched toward my father’s office, buzzing with anticipation. This was better. I couldn’t have stopped the wedding to a halt. I couldn’t tell my father his son, whom he’d spent lots of money on and was about to become CEO of his company, was… well, gay.
It was as good as possible, and I was about to wager my hand.
“Devin?” my father called, putting the phone away from his ear. His eyes darted to the door behind me and then back to me.
“Why are you here? And where’s Stella?” he asked with a very gruff tone that showed how displeased he was by my sudden appearance—or maybe by the fact that I wasn’t on my honeymoon, rolling in sheets with who was deemed fit to be my wife.
“I needed to see you as soon as daybreak, and Stella’s the exact reason I’m here. She’s cheating on me, Dad. I can’t exactly forgive her. I’m here to inform you before making a public decision that the marriage would be dissolved.”
Father hadn’t interrupted my words. He’d only listened and nodded before he gestured for me to take a seat across from him.
I watched patiently as he lit the end of his cigar and took a drag from it before throwing his legs over his table.
“What makes you think I’ll allow a divorce? You got married when? Forty-eight hours ago? Are you sick in the head, son?” he asked so easily, his tone not once holding a different pitch that it confused me. Was he really saying this? Or was he equally pissed as I was?
“Didn’t you hear me? She cheated! She’s the one who should be getting the blame. She’s the one who got married forty-eight hours ago even after knowing—”
“Enough already,” Father finally snapped, raising his voice as he spoke. He buffed out the end of the cigarette into the ashtray before taking another drag. I watched him rise to his feet as he took slow strides toward me, his eyes filled with anger.
“The girl cheated what? Once? Twice? Who cares about who she fucks? You both are rich. You think you have time for romance and playhouse?” he questioned again in low tones. I frowned deeper, hating how much he believed he could keep pressuring me into being his submissive little bitch of a son.
“You both are married. It’s final. If you do not trust her enough to fuck her, suit yourself, but there would be no divorce, Devin. You’ve put your life into this work, into this company. You wanna lose your position now? After everything?”
My breath hitched. My heart hammered hard against my ribs.
Everything went still. I couldn’t try thinking clearly. He was right, and he damn near knew it. I’d put in too much, done too much, sacrificed way too much. I couldn’t just up and give it away.
“That’s what I thought. So, son—get back home. Yell if you must, but get that marriage going. I’ve finally secured a partnership with her parents, and the papers have been signed. If they decide to pull out now, do you know how much of a loss it would be to our company? The dent in our finances if they decide to sue?” Father asked again, each of his words harrowingly cold and full of the intention to stab me right in the heart and yank at the invisible threats he used in controlling me.
The door pushed open, and Grace’s face popped out behind it.
“Sir, the breakfast meeting—we have to go now,” Grace spoke, her eyes darting to me, and a gentle smile dipped on the sides of her lips. I nodded anyway and stood to my feet.
My father cocked one of his eyebrows up in a questioning manner. I gave
him a curt nod before storming away through the doors.
DEVIN.A week passes and it doesn’t soften anything. It just stretches the pain thinner until it’s everywhere, like I’ve been skinned and forced to live anyway. Every hour feels the same. I don’t wake up refreshed, I just surface from one kind of numb into another. I keep thinking there should be a moment where my body realizes Aiden is gone and adjusts. It never does. It just keeps waiting, stupid and hopeful, like I trained it wrong.I stop eating first. Not deliberately. I sit in front of plates and stare at them until the smell turns my stomach. When I try to force it down, my throat closes. My body rejects it like it’s foreign. Like it doesn’t deserve to be fed when the person who mattered most to it isn’t here anymore. I tell myself I’ll eat later. Later never comes.Sleep goes next. Or maybe it goes first and I just don’t notice. I lie in bed for hours, eyes open, staring at ceilings, at corners, at nothing. My mind loops relentlessly—what I said, what he said, what I should’ve
AIDENI haven’t stopped moving since I got here. That’s the first thing that hits me every time I become aware of myself again. Not where I am. Not what I’ve done. Just the fact that my body refuses to settle, like if I stop, something worse will catch up to me. The room feels wrong in a Foreign hotel. Neutral colors meant to offend no one, comfort everyone, and somehow they do the opposite.Thick curtains pulled shut even though it’s still daytime. My suitcase is open on the bed, clothes half unpacked, folded and unfolded again without purpose, like my hands needed something to do so they wouldn’t reach for my phone.I pace from the window to the desk to the bed and back. Over and over. The same steps, the same path, like if I repeat it enough times it will start to make sense. My fingers twitch. My jaw aches from being clenched too long. My chest feels tight, heavy, like something is pressing inward, something that won’t let me take a full breath. I keep thinking if I inhale deeply
DEVINS POV.I swore I’d never step foot in Festus’s house again.I said it years ago, out loud, drunk and furious and bleeding from a fight that never should’ve happened. I remember pointing at the place like it was cursed ground, telling Timone if he ever dragged me back here it’d be because I was dead or desperate. Turns out desperation counts.The door closes behind me and the sound lands wrong in my chest. Too final. Too quiet. The house smells like coffee and wood polish and something citrusy that doesn’t belong to me. Festus’s place has always felt like a territory line I wasn’t supposed to cross. Clean. Controlled. Everything I’m not right now.I stand there longer than necessary, hands shoved in my pockets, jaw tight, trying not to think about how I don’t actually have anywhere else to go.Timone notices. Of course he does. He always notices.“I’m sorry,” he says, low, careful. “I know you hate this place. I know you said you never wanted to come back here.”I let out a breath
DEVINS POV.“I love Aiden,” I say, and I don’t pause, don’t soften it, don’t give her time to brace because I’ve been bracing for years and I’m done carrying that weight alone.“I don’t love you, Stella. I never did. I tried to convince myself I could, that it would come with time, that marriage would fix something that was already broken in me, but it didn’t. It just made the lie heavier. If you need the truth stripped bare, then here it is: I've been gay my entire life. This didn’t start with him. It didn’t start last year or last month or whenever the rumors decided to crawl out of the gutter. I was born this way, and I buried it because it was easier to be the son, the husband, the partner everyone expected than to be honest.”She doesn't move at first. Just stares. Like she’s watching something collapse in slow motion and can’t look away. Her lips part, then press together again, like she’s tasting every word, weighing how much damage they’ve already done. I can see the anger bu
DEVIN.I woke up to noise, I didn’t open my eyes at first because my head was pounding and my body felt pinned, heavy, wrong, the whispers kept going anyway.“—that’s him.”“I know.”“I thought he died.”“Well obviously not.”I opened my eyes. I saw White ceiling. Hospital lights. Curtains half pulled. Two nurses standing just outside my room, angled toward each other, heads close. One of them noticed my eyes were open and stopped talking mid-word. They both looked at me like I’d caught them doing something dirty.I swallowed. My throat burned. “Morning.”Neither answered. They exchanged a look. One nodded. They walked off together and started whispering again the second they were a few steps away. My heart started racing. I lay there staring at the doorway, jaw tight, chest feeling too small.Another nurse passed by. I tried again. “Hey.”She smiled without stopping. “Morning.” Already gone. They were avoiding me. All of them. Talking around me. Like I wasn’t supposed to be consciou
DEVINS P.O.VI woke up before my eyes opened.There was a tightness in my chest, like the kind that didn't come from a bad dream but from something real and waiting. My body felt coiled, restless, the way it feels when it's been bracing itself all night for impact. When the phone on the nightstand started vibrating again, I didn't jump. I already knew it was there. I already knew it wasn't going to stop.I cracked my eyes open and stared at the ceiling for a second, breathing slow, trying to convince myself I was still half-asleep. The early morning light barely filtered through the curtains, soft and pale; the world outside was still quiet. Inside my chest, though, everything was loud.I reached for the phone.The screen flickered on, and my stomach dropped so hard it felt like I might actually be sick.My father had called a lot.Not one missed call. Not two. A long list, stacked on top of each other, like he'd been calling all night and only stopped when exhaustion or rage finally wo







