LOGINElijah Collins has exactly forty-eight hours before the loan sharks his late father borrowed come to collect – and they aren’t interested in payment plans. When a stranger in a three-thousand-dollar suit buys out his debt in the middle of a bar, Elijah thinks he’s been saved. He hasn’t. Alexander Reed, CEO of Reed Capital and the most feared dealmaker on Wall Street, does nothing without an agreement. His proposal is stark: Elijah will be his partner for three months, charming investors at high-end galas, dispelling rumors, and the entire debt will be wiped clean. Refuse, and Alexander turns him over to the loan sharks. Elijah agrees. But living in Alexander's frigid, flawless world is far different from what Elijah expected. Because beneath Alexander's icy surface, something is hiding, something that could ruin them both. And Elijah, against every survival instinct he possesses, is falling. The agreement is three months. His heart is already overdue.
View MoreThe final notice had been stuck under the coffee mug on the counter for three days.
Elijah Collins knew this because he was the man who had put it there, face down on the counter like if he couldn't read the numbers, then they couldn't read him. Every morning for the past three days, he had gone to the coffee pot, pressed the mug down a little deeper into the clutter of the counter, and gone to work without looking at the paper. This morning was different. The numbers hadn't changed. They didn't work like that. Much as he had hoped they would. Twelve thousand, four hundred and seventeen dollars. The interest on the debt was more than his last three paychecks put together. The man put the coffee mug in the sink and folded the paper once along the crease it already knew. Elijah stood in the pale grey light of the morning in the Brooklyn kitchen, doing the math of the man who already knew the answer but was checking the math anyway. He could ask Dani. But he would not. She was already carrying more than her share of the rent and he was juggling the bistro and the catering work on the weekends. She had never once made him feel like he was not doing enough. He might call the lender back and ask for more time. He had done just that twice already. The man on the other end had been impolite on the second call. Not anywhere close to polite on the third, last week. Forty-eight hours. That was the time they had given him. Forty-eight hours, Mr. Collins, and then we will start the collection process. He had learned, from the long pause on the other end of the line, that the collection process was a lot more than just a phrase. His father had never told him about the debt. That was the thing Elijah couldn't get past. Not the amount, or the name of the person to whom the money was owed, or the interest rate, or the fact that the man was in the ground two years now and still managing to leave a mess behind him. His father had never said a word. They had been close, or Elijah had thought they had been close, and his father had been alone in this for years and years and never once let him in on the chance to help. He supposed he understood that now, standing in the kitchen and not telling Dani. He put the notice in the pocket of his work shirt, where it crinkled every time he moved, and went to start his shift. The bistro on a Wednesday was never quiet, but it was a loud that Elijah found perfectly manageable: the lunch rush dwindling into the lull of the late afternoon, tables turning over at a pace Elijah had spent the last three years studying like the weather. He knew when a table for four was two meals away from their bill. He knew which customer needed his water glass refilled before he'd even notice it was getting low. He knew, based on the position of a shoulder or the way a fork hit the table, whether or not a meal had been a special occasion or just a feeding. He was good at this. He'd always been good at this. He'd also been good at culinary school, for the two semesters he'd managed before his father got sick and the money ran out and he'd had to make the particular kind of adult decision that sounds reasonable in the abstract and costs something real in practice. He didn't think about that much. Or he thought about it all the time and had just gotten efficient about it. "Table nine wants to speak to a manager," said Priya, appearing at his elbow with the flat expression of someone who'd already tried. "What's the issue?" "The bread was too warm." Elijah blinked. "I know," she said. He went to table nine, turned on the smile—the real one, not the performance, because people could always tell the difference—and spent four minutes listening to a man in a golf shirt explain, with genuine feeling, that he preferred his bread at room temperature, at which point the situation resolved itself in the way most situations did when someone was actually listened to. He walked back to the service station, refilled a water glass on the way, and reached into his apron pocket for his pen and found the folded notice instead. Forty-eight hours. His phone buzzed. Unknown number. His stomach dropped before he'd even unlocked the screen. He looked at the dining room – mid-service, Priya had things covered for two minutes – and slipped through the kitchen and out the back door into the alley. The alley behind Caruso's smelled like the inside of a dumpster, which in April meant it was basically perfume compared to July. There were milk crates stacked against the wall and a propped-open door leaking the smell of garlic and hot oil, and Elijah stood in the middle of it with the phone at his ear and tried to keep his voice level. He mostly succeeded. "I understand," he said, which was what you said when you didn't have anything better. "I'm – yes, I understand the timeline. I just need –" The man on the phone was not interested in what Elijah needed. "I can get most of it," Elijah said, and this was not strictly true, but it was true enough that he could say it without his voice cracking. "If you give me until –" "Mr. Collins." The voice was flat. Practiced. "This is not a negotiation. The terms were set two years ago. You've had two extensions. There will not be a third." "My father –" "Is deceased. Yes. The debt passed to the estate. You accepted the estate. This is not a new development." He knew. He knew all of that. He had sat across from a solicitor twelve months ago and signed the paperwork with hands that weren't quite steady and he had known, and he had thought he had a plan, and then the plan had fallen apart in the very specific way that plans fell apart when you were twenty-six and worked for tips and the world was just not built for the math to work. "Forty-eight hours," the man said, and hung up. Elijah stood in the alley for a moment. The door leaked garlic. A pigeon landed on the milk crate and regarded him without sympathy. "I know," he told the pigeon. He put his phone in his apron pocket and stood there another moment with his eyes on the grey sky above the alley's walls, doing the thing he did when panic started – breathing through it, not fighting it, the way you breathed through a bad wave in water, go with it, don't thrash, let it move. It moved. He went back inside. He finished his shift. He made two hundred and twelve dollars in tips, which was a good night, and stood at the bar after close counting it into the jar with the particular mix of gratitude and despair that had become something like a personality trait. Forty-eight hours. Twelve thousand, four hundred and seventeen dollars. He couldn't see the math. He'd been staring at it from every angle for three months and he could not make the numbers do what he needed them to do. He put the lid back on the jar, pulled on his jacket, and didn't notice the man in the corner booth watching him until he was already halfway to the door. He didn't think anything of it at the time. He would later. The apartment was quiet when he got home. Dani's light was off, which meant she had an early shift or had finally caved to a normal human sleep schedule, which seemed unlikely. He moved through the kitchen in the dark without turning on the light because he knew where everything was, and sat down at the table with the final notice, a pen, and the legal pad he'd been using to track his options. The legal pad had six lines on it. He'd crossed out four. He looked at the remaining two. Option five was asking Dani, which he'd already decided against. Option six said, in his own handwriting from two weeks ago: other. He'd written others because he hadn't been able to think of anything specific and had thought maybe the act of leaving space would generate something. It hadn't. He underlined it now, for no real reason, and sat looking at it until the word stopped looking like a word. Twelve thousand, four hundred and seventeen dollars. Forty-seven hours now, if he was counting. He put the pen down. He went to bed. He did not sleep for a long time.For everyone who ever thought survival was the whole story.It wasn't.Epilogue: What They KeptThere is, in the study of the West Village townhouse, a desk drawer that has never been reorganised.It holds: eleven letters, written in blue ink on unlined paper, each one sealed and dated in November of successive years. The envelopes are addressed to no one — there is no address on them, no postage, no name. 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