šš«ššš”šThe flat feels too quiet, as though every cushion and lampshade is holding its breath, listening for the front door that never opens. Marcosās cologne still lingers on my jumperāwarm cedar threaded with pepperāand it claws at my lungs each time I inhale. I trace slow, useless laps around the coffee-table, phone clutched like a flotation device. Guilt sits in my chest like wet sand: heavy, cold, immovable.When Yemaya finally rings me at 10:17 p.m., according to the taunting blue digits, I jab accept on my phone screen before the second buzz.āBaaabe, please donāt kill me,ā she pants. Behind her a DJ hammers out club-house bass and someone shrieks with champagne-fizzed delight. āLord Agilolfings' twenty-fifth anniversary gala has gone full Shakespearean tragedy. The sopranoās lost her voice and is currently sobbing on a pile of caviar canapĆ©s, the ice sculpture melted into something that looks suspiciously X-rated, and Iām now playing the part of harp-wrangler. All in all,
šš«ššš”šMy lungs forget how to work.Iām still astride his thigh, skin flushed a tomato red and my pulse thundering beneath my skin, when the words fall from his lips:Iām in love with you, Aretha.The living-room air turns solid. I feel it settle on my shoulders like armor I never asked to wear. I push shaky palms against his chest, climb off his lap, and take three unsteady steps backward. My knees nearly buckle, the rug rippling beneath my indoor slippers.āAretha?ā Marcos calls, his voice akin to raw silk while it drips with hope lacing his fear.I canāt look at him. Not with the confession echoing in my skull, not with the slick reminder of what Iāve just done still damp between my thighs. My gaze fixes on the coffee mug on the table, on the lace curtain stirring in the draftāanywhere but the man who just handed me his heart.āSay something.ā The plea in Marcosās tone makes my own chest ache.āIāā My throat locks up tight and when I try to force a swallow, it hurts as though
ššš«ššØš¬I donāt even get a full knock in before the door yanks open, revealing the woman who has plagued my mind and every waking thought since I first laid eyes on her.Aretha stands there, eyes sharp and blazing, mouth drawn tight like sheās been sharpening her words for days. The sight of herābarefaced, in a loose hoodie that swallows her frameāshould comfort me. Instead, it cuts deeper. Cold fury dances in her gaze.āYouāve got some nerve showing up here,ā she snaps. āComing here like nothing happened.āHer voice slices through the hallway, venom laced in every syllable. I open my mouth, but she beats me to it.āI saw enough. Harrietās hands all over you like you were hers to touch. You didnāt even try to stop her.āāThatās not what happened,ā I say, breath tight. āYou walked in at the worst momentāāāNo,ā she bites out, stepping back just enough to let me enter, āI walked in at the exact moment I needed to see what kind of man you are.āI limp in, my ankle still aching with
ššš«ššØš¬I hear the knock before I even glance at my front door, slow and deliberateātwo quick raps, followed by silence. My first thought is that it's Aretha again, coming to visit. My heart lifts a little, foolishly hopeful, though I know deep down that itās too soon for her to be here. Not after how she'd responded to my words the last time.I limp over, slowly, the ache in my ankle a persistent reminder of how fragile everything feels right now.When I open the door, however, my heart sinks to my stomach because it's not Aretha who's standing on the other side. Instead, it's my colleague...Harriet.Sheās standing there with a too-bright smile and a bag dangling from one hand. Her perfume hits me before her words doāsomething sharp and floral, thick enough to choke on.āSurprise,ā she says, stepping forward just enough to make declining her visit awkward. āI brought soup.āI blink, caught between disbelief and irritation. āHarriet, you didnāt have toāāāI wanted to,ā she inter
ššš«ššØš¬Her lips are still on mine when I feel her pull awayājust slightly, like sheās remembering herself. Like she wants to forget that for a second, we werenāt pretending.I notice the moment her kiss changes. A little more urgency, a little less heart. Sheās using it nowāusing meāto bury something deeper.It stings more than I want to admit.Sheās not ready.I knew it before tonight, but now I feel it.Still, I donāt press.I kiss her back, gently, one more time before I feign a flinch and hiss.āShit. My ankle,ā I lie, leaning back with a dramatic wince.She jolts up like sheās touched a flame. āOh my God, Iām sorry! I wasnāt even thinkingāare you okay?āāYeah,ā I say, not meeting her eyes. āJust twisted wrong.āHer hands flutter at her sides, unsure what to do. For a second, she looks like she might bolt.To make her comfortable, I give her an out. āLetās just sit. Watch something dumb. Keep it chill.āShe nods quickly. āYeah. That sounds good.āBut itās not good. Not reall
šš«ššš”šBy the time noon rolls around, Iām practically vibrating with restlessness.Iāve powered through two meetings, edited four proposals, and smiled at people I donāt even like. My coffeeās cold. My inbox is full. But my mindāmy mind is somewhere else entirely... or rather, on someone else.Marcos.Itās not unusual for us to go a day or two without texting. But lately, weāve been close. Closer than I ever imagined weād become. Thereās an ease between us. A current I donāt want to name.Still, I havenāt heard from him since yesterday. That silence lingers, like a pause in a song you know too well. The kind that makes you wonder if somethingās changed.I glance around the breakroom, then pull out my phone and shoot him a quick text:"Hey. Just checking in. You okay?"I hit send before I can overthink it.Seconds pass without a response, then minutes.I tell myself not to take it personally. Heās probably busy. Or sleeping. Or ignoring me. The last thought burns more than I want
šš§š¤š§šØš°š§The bass doesnāt thump hereāit prowls. Heavy, hypnotic, primal. It coils around the flesh and glass of The Black Fortress, a fortress of sin carved from obsidian glamour in the belly of Yerevan. Outside, it wears the face of an elite club: mirrored doors, velvet ropes, godless wealth. Inside, it breathes sex and shadows. Past the layers of bodyguards and biometric scans, past the velvet-smothered corridors and diamond-threaded curtains, lies the VVIP loungeāwhere pleasure turns into a weapon.Bodies twist, moan and beg wantonly.My eyes blur from champagne and perfume and sweat. Theyāre all touching meāhands, lips, mouths. They moan my name, but I donāt hear it. All I can hear is power in every whimper.A girl writhes beneath me, her nails digging into my back. Another straddles my thigh, whispering filth into my ear as she guides my hand between her legs. Their kisses are mindless, desperate.āHarder,ā one pants.āDonāt stop, pleaseādonāt fucking stop.āThey don't know
ššš«ššØš¬āHi, baby,ā my mother says, standing there with a wide grin and a large insulated carrier bag in her hand. āI thought Iād surprise you.āāHey, Mom,ā I say, stepping aside. My voice doesnāt carry warmth, but it isnāt cold either. Itās... neutral. Detached.She steps in, kisses my cheek like we do this all the timeālike sheās always been here. The house immediately takes on her scent: jasmine laced with antiseptic, crisp and overwhelming. Her heels click on the hardwood floor as she heads toward the kitchen like she owns the place. Like sheās earned the right.āI brought jollof rice. And that chicken stew you like. I threw in some moi moi tooāfigured the boys would be hungry.āI glance at Cameron and Nathaniel who are seated quietly but exchanging a look. Cameron raises his brows in something like amusement while Nathaniel simply watches.āYou spoil him,ā Cameron says, flashing her a smile. āNow I see where the charm comes from.āShe smiles back, maybe a little too brightly
ššš«ššØš¬The living room hums with the easy comfort that only years of friendship can build. I pass the cold drinks I'd fetched from my home bar to Cameron and Nathaniel before sinking into the armchair across from them. Cameronās seated somewhat stiffly on the couch, his eyes staring off into the distance as he seems mentally occupied with something while surprisingly, Nathaniel lounges in his seat, one hand tapping lightly on the armrest and the other lifting his drink to his mouth for a sip. Although his posture today is more relaxed than he usually is, he still has that signature quiet and observant look he always wears.My friends appear to have swapped personalities for today.āYou know,ā Nathaniel starts, his low and measured voice breaking the silence before I can, āI had a client last week who asked me to help him sue his dead wife.āCameron finally blinks out of his reverie, lifting a brow. āCome again?āNathaniel tilts his head slightly. āShe left him a letter before sh