LOGINThe petition to establish it takes nine days and nearly does not happen at all, because on the second day Croft reads the 1889 file and telephones her at six in the morning.
"No."
"Elder Croft"
"Eleven children, Ms Ashcroft. The youngest was nine." His voice is not raised and it is worse for it. "I have spent thirty years arguing that this compact must stop consuming people who did not consent, and you are proposing to hand fragments of the Vein to seventeen minors, and you are going to tell me that this time it will be different because you have a pedagogical method."
"Yes," Veira says. "That's exactly what I'm going to tell you."
"On what evidence."
"On four weeks of a fourteen-year-old in Aberdeen who can close a channel I have never once been able to close." She is standing at her kitchen window in the dark. "And on the fact that the alternative is that the load keeps overflowing to whoever is nearest, without consent, without teaching, exactly the way it did in 1889 because the overflow is happening anyway, and has been since January, and the only decision available is whether it happens by accident or on purpose."
Croft does not answer for a long moment.
"That is the first argument anyone has made that I cannot immediately dismantle," he says.
"I know. I built it for you."
"Do not be clever with me at six in the morning."
"I'm not being clever. I've had four days and I know exactly who has to be convinced, and it isn't Solvieg." She sits down. "You've watched this kill someone. Nobody else in the compact has. If you tell the Assembly this is a repeat of 1889 they will believe you, and they should, because you'd be half right."
"And the other half?"
"The other half is that in 1889 nobody asked the eleven anything. There's no record of consent, no record of explanation, no record that any of them were told what they were receiving." Veira turns the page in front of her. "Four of them were under sixteen. It was done to them, in a house in Utrecht, in one afternoon, by adults who had decided."
The line is silent.
"You are going to ask them," Croft says.
"I'm going to spend two years teaching them, and then I'm going to ask them, and any of them who says no keeps saying no forever and nobody ever asks again." She keeps her voice level. "And the seventeenth is Nell Fraser, who is already carrying, who did not consent to any of it, and who worked out the third option before any of us because she was the only one in the house who hadn't decided what she could carry on her own behalf."
Croft breathes out.
"The Assembly will require a named authority," he says.
"I know."
"It cannot be you. You are the transferring party. No compact body will authorise a programme in which the person being unloaded also holds the safeguarding authority over the children receiving it." A pause. "That is not politics. That is the correct rule and you would write it yourself."
"I would," Veira says. "That's why I'm asking you."
The silence this time is different.
"Say that again," Croft says.
"I want you to hold it." She keeps going, because if she stops she will lose her nerve. "Named authority for the whole programme. Safeguarding, admissions, consent protocols, the lot. Absolute veto on any transfer, including mine, including on the day, including if I'm in the room."
"Ms Ashcroft. I have spent five months trying to take this off you by force."
"Yes," she says. "And you handed me the two documents that proved your own method wrong, and you filed a medical exclusion for a fourteen-year-old on my word, and you have never once in five months lied to me." She closes her eyes briefly. "There isn't a second person in the compact I'd trust with a veto over my own life, and I've thought about it for four days, and it's you, and I resent it enormously."
Croft is quiet for a long time.
"Morna would have found this extremely funny," he says.
"I don't think you do, actually, because you've been carrying the second half so hard you've forgotten I've been carrying the first." She pulls her coat round her. "I love you. Not the way you're asking. In the way where there are two of us in the world and there always will be, and if you ever needed me at three in the morning I'd be on a plane before you finished the sentence, and that isn't a consolation prize, Emre, it's the only relationship of its kind that has ever existed."He does not say anything for a while."That is considerably better than what I was braced for," he says."It's also true, which helps.""Is it Cole.""It's been Cole for about four years and I've been refusing to look at it because I was fairly sure I was dying." She picks up a stone and turns it over. "Which he knew, and never once raised, in four years."Emre laughs a real one, short and surprised."He's a better man than I am," he says."He's a better man than most people are. It's very irritating." She
She tells Nell on the deck as they come back into the fjord, because the boat is loud and the wind takes half of it and it is easier to say difficult things when the weather is doing some of the work."It's happened before," she says. "Three times. Same conversation. Somebody at the end of a channel apologising for closing it.""And it came back.""Every time. Not soon they were very clear about not soon, and their not-soon is not our not-soon." Veira watches the black cliffs go past. "But it's not an ending. I've been carrying it as an ending for a year."Nell is quiet for a while."Can I say something you won't like," she says."You will anyway.""You've been treating this whole thing like you're the last one. Since Aberdeen." Nell has her hands in her pockets and is not looking at her. "Every time you talk about the channel closing you say it like the door's shutting behind you. And there's nine of us and there's a school and there's an empty chair in Geneva that Zofia's going to s
It grieves her, which is different, and worse in a quieter way."Then I need to talk to them," she says. "Before it goes. Properly, not a report.""About what?""About what happens to a channel nobody can hold." She stands. "They've been in the Vein since before the compact. They waited seven hundred years for a conduit who could hear them. And in about a year there won't be one, and I'd like them to hear that from me rather than have it stop."Croft says, "You'll need a boat.""I'll need a boat," Veira agrees. "And I'd like Nell to come."Nell looks up sharply."You can't hear them," Veira says. "I know. But you're going to be doing this for sixty years after I stop and I'd rather you'd been in the room once."The Friðargeir is eleven years older and so is Brynja, who greets them at the Reykjavik dock with the expression of a woman who has been waiting five years to be asked again and would rather die than say so."You brought more people," she says."Six.""Last time it was seven."
The programme runs for four years.That is the sentence Veira will use afterwards, when people ask, and it is accurate and it conceals everything, because what four years actually consists of is Tuesdays.Nell takes a full share at seventeen and a second at nineteen and by twenty is carrying more than any of them, and it does not kill her, and by then Joon-Ho has eleven hundred days of monitoring data proving why: gradual, consensual, taught, and above all known the thing that killed the eleven in Utrecht was not the load but the fact that not one of them was ever told what they were holding.Aoife from Cork takes a share at twenty-two and immediately becomes insufferable about it.The girl from Kraków, whose name is Zofia and who did not speak for eleven days in her first month, takes hers at eighteen and then does something none of them anticipated, which is enrol in a medicine degree in Warsaw on the grounds that somebody is going to have to be able to treat this properly in thirty
The committee reports on the Friday and the Assembly convenes on the sixth of April, and Veira is not there.She watches it from the farmhouse on a link Sunnsdottir arranges through a procedural clause nobody has used since 1974, and Sebastien sits beside her for eleven hours and does not once say anything unless she asks him something.Croft opposes the conduit holding the seat. He does it in seven minutes and it is the best speech anybody makes all day and he loses the vote nine to four.Then Veira's written submission is read into the record by the convener, and Solvieg reads all of it, including the last paragraph, which several Elders have plainly not been shown in advance.I decline the seat. I ask the Assembly to create it and leave it vacant until a member of the restored bloodline is of age and willing to hold it. If that takes fifteen years, the vacancy is the accurate record of what was done, and I would ask the Assembly to look at it.There is a silence of about four secon
The committee reports on the Friday and the Assembly convenes on the sixth of April, and Veira is not there.She watches it from the farmhouse on a link Sunnsdottir arranges through a procedural clause nobody has used since 1974, and Sebastien sits beside her for eleven hours and does not once say anything unless she asks him something.Croft opposes the conduit holding the seat. He does it in seven minutes and it is the best speech anybody makes all day and he loses the vote nine to four.Then Veira's written submission is read into the record by the convener, and Solvieg reads all of it, including the last paragraph, which several Elders have plainly not been shown in advance.I decline the seat. I ask the Assembly to create it and leave it vacant until a member of the restored bloodline is of age and willing to hold it. If that takes fifteen years, the vacancy is the accurate record of what was done, and I would ask the Assembly to look at it.There is a silence of about four secon







