LOGINAdaeze gets there first.
She drives herself, which she never does in Lisbon, because what she needs to say to Veira is not something she can say with a third person in the car. Not because it's secret. Because it requires a quality of privacy she has not often allowed herself, and the drive is where she finds it.
She finds the village by postcode and the cottage by walking the one main street until she sees a grey-and-white cat in the window of a stone building at the end of a lane. The cat looks at her with the expression of an animal who has been briefed.
She knocks.
Veira opens the door. They look at each other. Adaeze has been preparing for this moment for three weeks and finds, standing here, that preparation was largely useless. You rehearse the version of the conversation where you say the right things in the right order. What actually happens is a door and a face and the complete realisation that there is no version of this that doesn't start with being honest about why you're here.
Veira steps back from the door. She puts the kettle on. Variable watches Adaeze from the armchair with the focused reserve of someone who has already formed an opinion.
They sit at the kitchen table. The cottage is warm and spare and smells of coffee and sea air. Through the window the cliff path is visible and below it a strip of grey water.
"I chaired the Florence meeting," Adaeze says.
"I know."
"I want to take responsibility for that in a way that doesn't turn this into an exercise in my absolution, so I'm going to say what I'm responsible for specifically and then stop."
"Go ahead."
"I wrote the agenda. I sourced the venue. I set the format and kept the meeting on task and drove it through its items with full professional efficiency." She looks at her hands on the table. "At no point did I introduce the question that wasn't on the agenda. The question of what you wanted. I didn't introduce it because it didn't occur to me to introduce it, and it didn't occur to me because I had been thinking about you for six months as a strategic asset and strategic assets don't have preferences that need to be consulted, they have characteristics that need to be managed." She pauses. "You are not a strategic asset. I knew this. I filed it and kept moving."
Veira says: "Why."
Adaeze considers this properly. "Because I have spent fifteen years building something in a world that did not expect me to build it, and I learned to be efficient above other things because efficiency was the quality that allowed me to survive the rooms I was in. I stopped asking certain questions because certain questions slow things down, and slowing down, in those rooms, cost me." She pauses. "That is an explanation. It is not an excuse. The rooms I was in were not the room in Florence, and you were not an obstacle to be worked around. You were a person I had chosen to know, and I managed you anyway."
There is a silence. Veira is looking at her with the building quality of attention that Adaeze has observed since their first meeting constructing a model in real time from whatever is being given to it.
"Thank you for being specific," Veira says.
"I have a lot of practice at specific."
"I know. I've read your market analyses." Something moves across Veira's face that is almost amusement. "The 2022 European bond assessment. Section four was exceptional."
Adaeze says: "I was particularly pleased with the momentum modelling."
"So was I. I had three questions about it I never got to ask."
They look at each other. Something settles not warmth yet, the ground is too newly turned for warmth, but the specific recognition of two people who, under different circumstances, would have found each other interesting without any of the complications.
"I'm going to ask you something," Veira says.
"Yes."
"The man in the corner chair. The neutral investigator. Emre Yildiz."
Adaeze says: "What about him."
"What do you know about him."
She considers this carefully. "Less than I should, I think. He's been trusted by all five bloodlines for seven years. He attended Florence. He said almost nothing. He asked to be the one to find you, when we discussed it in Edinburgh." She pauses. "He knows things about you that none of the rest of us know. I don't know the source. I haven't pushed for it, which I'm retroactively not comfortable with."
"He called me."
Adaeze looks at her.
"Three days ago. Said he needed to come and tell me something." She looks at the window, the cliff. "I told him I'd let him know when."
Adaeze says: "And?"
"And I'm making him wait a little longer. Not cruelly. Just long enough that when he comes, he comes having sat with it. People say better things when they've had to live with the alternative for a while."
Adaeze looks at this woman in a cottage on the Scottish Borders coast, managing the most important conversation of her own life with the same clean precision she applies to everything else, and she thinks: we all underestimated her. Every single one of us, in every single way, consistently and comprehensively.
She finishes her coffee. She says: "I'd like to come back. Not about the Folklore. Just I'd like to come back."
Veira says: "The 2022 bond assessment. Section four. I had those three questions."
"I'll come back next week."
She goes. Driving back north through the Borders hills, grey-green and vast on either side, she thinks about the meeting in Florence. The agenda she wrote. The item that wasn't there. She thinks about what it would have changed if she had stopped the meeting once and said: we should probably talk about what she actually wants.
Everything. It would have changed everything.
She drives faster.
"I don't think you do, actually, because you've been carrying the second half so hard you've forgotten I've been carrying the first." She pulls her coat round her. "I love you. Not the way you're asking. In the way where there are two of us in the world and there always will be, and if you ever needed me at three in the morning I'd be on a plane before you finished the sentence, and that isn't a consolation prize, Emre, it's the only relationship of its kind that has ever existed."He does not say anything for a while."That is considerably better than what I was braced for," he says."It's also true, which helps.""Is it Cole.""It's been Cole for about four years and I've been refusing to look at it because I was fairly sure I was dying." She picks up a stone and turns it over. "Which he knew, and never once raised, in four years."Emre laughs a real one, short and surprised."He's a better man than I am," he says."He's a better man than most people are. It's very irritating." She
She tells Nell on the deck as they come back into the fjord, because the boat is loud and the wind takes half of it and it is easier to say difficult things when the weather is doing some of the work."It's happened before," she says. "Three times. Same conversation. Somebody at the end of a channel apologising for closing it.""And it came back.""Every time. Not soon they were very clear about not soon, and their not-soon is not our not-soon." Veira watches the black cliffs go past. "But it's not an ending. I've been carrying it as an ending for a year."Nell is quiet for a while."Can I say something you won't like," she says."You will anyway.""You've been treating this whole thing like you're the last one. Since Aberdeen." Nell has her hands in her pockets and is not looking at her. "Every time you talk about the channel closing you say it like the door's shutting behind you. And there's nine of us and there's a school and there's an empty chair in Geneva that Zofia's going to s
It grieves her, which is different, and worse in a quieter way."Then I need to talk to them," she says. "Before it goes. Properly, not a report.""About what?""About what happens to a channel nobody can hold." She stands. "They've been in the Vein since before the compact. They waited seven hundred years for a conduit who could hear them. And in about a year there won't be one, and I'd like them to hear that from me rather than have it stop."Croft says, "You'll need a boat.""I'll need a boat," Veira agrees. "And I'd like Nell to come."Nell looks up sharply."You can't hear them," Veira says. "I know. But you're going to be doing this for sixty years after I stop and I'd rather you'd been in the room once."The Friðargeir is eleven years older and so is Brynja, who greets them at the Reykjavik dock with the expression of a woman who has been waiting five years to be asked again and would rather die than say so."You brought more people," she says."Six.""Last time it was seven."
The programme runs for four years.That is the sentence Veira will use afterwards, when people ask, and it is accurate and it conceals everything, because what four years actually consists of is Tuesdays.Nell takes a full share at seventeen and a second at nineteen and by twenty is carrying more than any of them, and it does not kill her, and by then Joon-Ho has eleven hundred days of monitoring data proving why: gradual, consensual, taught, and above all known the thing that killed the eleven in Utrecht was not the load but the fact that not one of them was ever told what they were holding.Aoife from Cork takes a share at twenty-two and immediately becomes insufferable about it.The girl from Kraków, whose name is Zofia and who did not speak for eleven days in her first month, takes hers at eighteen and then does something none of them anticipated, which is enrol in a medicine degree in Warsaw on the grounds that somebody is going to have to be able to treat this properly in thirty
The committee reports on the Friday and the Assembly convenes on the sixth of April, and Veira is not there.She watches it from the farmhouse on a link Sunnsdottir arranges through a procedural clause nobody has used since 1974, and Sebastien sits beside her for eleven hours and does not once say anything unless she asks him something.Croft opposes the conduit holding the seat. He does it in seven minutes and it is the best speech anybody makes all day and he loses the vote nine to four.Then Veira's written submission is read into the record by the convener, and Solvieg reads all of it, including the last paragraph, which several Elders have plainly not been shown in advance.I decline the seat. I ask the Assembly to create it and leave it vacant until a member of the restored bloodline is of age and willing to hold it. If that takes fifteen years, the vacancy is the accurate record of what was done, and I would ask the Assembly to look at it.There is a silence of about four secon
The committee reports on the Friday and the Assembly convenes on the sixth of April, and Veira is not there.She watches it from the farmhouse on a link Sunnsdottir arranges through a procedural clause nobody has used since 1974, and Sebastien sits beside her for eleven hours and does not once say anything unless she asks him something.Croft opposes the conduit holding the seat. He does it in seven minutes and it is the best speech anybody makes all day and he loses the vote nine to four.Then Veira's written submission is read into the record by the convener, and Solvieg reads all of it, including the last paragraph, which several Elders have plainly not been shown in advance.I decline the seat. I ask the Assembly to create it and leave it vacant until a member of the restored bloodline is of age and willing to hold it. If that takes fifteen years, the vacancy is the accurate record of what was done, and I would ask the Assembly to look at it.There is a silence of about four secon







