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. . . Joanne had not gained a single pound. In fact, she was suspecting weight loss. But all her dresses felt uncomfortable. She had not felt this way back in the past. She guessed maybe it was because she was so used to maternity wear that wearing a fitted dress was making her both uncomfortable as well as insecure. She looked at the baby pink dress and the floral yellow dress with beige flowers. “I should just go with what I wore back then.” She said, “I mean, I am making it harder than it needs to be.” She tossed the floral dress onto her bed and hung the pink dress next to her vanity mirror, scouring through her vast collection of footwear and accessories. She had no recollection of what she had worn in the past. The difference? Last time, being all alone at home, she had picked out everything the night before. But yesterday, she was so mad at the horrible man living across the hall that she had gone straight to bed. She couldn't even blame the pregnancy brain for her confusion this early on. But she was so used to having it - the pregnancy brain, the mood swings. “Ugh! I am not going!” Joanne finally gave up, plopping down on top of her rejected dress. This had not been this hard in the past. Another blip in the story, she assumed. Joanne lay there thinking if anything significant happened on the day of the baby shower. She remembered very little of it. Was there anything that day that could have changed the course of her life? She closed her eyes exasperated when she heard the knock. What did this evil man want? “Joanne?” He turned the knob and she cursed internally when she realized that she had forgotten to lock it after her last kitchen run. Reagan wore a pair of loose navy blue sweatpants hanging low on his hips, his abs disappearing into a faint V just peaking above the waistband. And the monster had the audacity to walk around shirtless. He had a glass of what appeared to be apple juice in his hand. “Not ready yet?” Joanne gritted her teeth. She turned away from him and closed her eyes, even though she knew she should not turn her back on the enemy. “None of your business.” She wished he would leave but no, the man walked in and to the side she was facing, the bed dipping as he sat down, looking intently at her as if she was some museum artifact. “Have this juice.” “I had my breakfast.” She muttered. “It's important to incorporate some fruit into your meal as well.” He nudged her. Joanne refused to open her eyes. “Don't tell me what I need.” “Aren't you going?” Joanne opened her eyes. “No.” “Why not? Isn't it your friend's baby shower?” Joanne glared at him. She knew it was Talia's baby shower. But this man had ruined it for her. Like he had ruined every aspect of her life. At some point in life, he had given her the gift of her child. And he had snatched her so cruelly from her as well. She sat up and he held the glass to her. Joanne picked up her phone and texted Elliot that she was not feeling well. Elliot replied immediately. . ELLIOT: LIAR! JOANNE: I FEEL LIKE ABSOLUTE SHIT! ELLIOT: The test comes positive and you are already using it to get out of things? . Joanne smiled at the text and sent a cheeky grin emoji. That might have been true but there was no way she could be blamed for it. She tossed the phone on the bed and covered her eyes with her arm. “I am pregnant and sick.” “You had no problem last time- night. You had no problem last night.” “I do not remember engaging in any soul-sucking social activities yesterday.” “Grady was here all day.” “Eli is not a soul-sucker.” Reagan did not respond with anything more than a grunt. Joanne wanted to ask him why he hated anyone who showed any affection towards her. But she decided to let it be. There was no use asking a snake why it bit her. “Get ready.” He finally said. Joanne decided to ignore him. Sometimes it was better to just pretend your problems didn't exist. She yelped when she suddenly felt his arms on her waist, hauling her up. Her eyes snapped open as her hands flew to grip his naked toned shoulders. “What are you doing?” She asked as he settled her down. “Isn't Talia not important enough to you?” Reagan asked, picking up the juice and holding it out. Joanne gaped at him, royally ignoring the glass. What the heck was actually wrong with him? Why would he even care? “Are you really going to guilt trip me?” She asked wryly. “Over a person you don't even know?” Reagan shrugged, picking up the floral dress. “This is pretty.” He said. “Get changed. Or would you prefer if I did the honors?” Joanne pushed him out of the room as fast as she could. . . . “Whoa, I hope I look that good the next time I feel like absolute shit!” Elliot grinned as he hugged her. His eyes narrowed at the billionaire clad in a beige shirt, two buttons left open and white pants. Beige shirt that matched the flowers in her floral dress. “What are you doing here?” Elliot asked, stepping back, grabbing her hand and securing it inside his huge fingers. “What? You left the police squad and decided to become a bouncer here?” Reagan stepped forward, wrapping an arm around Joanne's waist and pulling her to him, effectively breaking the hand hold apart. Elliot looked at Joanne with the same amount of confusion she felt. “Let's go.” Reagan pushed her forward. “Talia must be waiting.” As she was effectively dragged away, she turned to mouth ‘HELP!’ to her best friend, showing him the universal distress sign. Meanwhile, Elliot was left gaping. But he came to the conclusion that the man probably changed due to the news of him becoming a father soon. What surprised him more was how Joanne was taking it. No matter what happened, the girl had always loved Reagan and wanted his attention and affection. Now that she was getting it - whatever the reason may be - why was she rejecting it outright? Was he in an alternate universe? . . . ________...Joanne knocked at Reagan’s study door. He did not even look up.“Reagan?” She called out to him softly. He still did not respond but it was obvious to her that he had heard her from the way his jaw clenched and unclenched. She let out a breath. “I am going to the ObGyn appointment tomorrow. Will you be coming?” He finally looked up, tension coursing through every nerve fibre immediately. His eyes were cold, his sneer cruel. “Tell me Ramsay, do I look that jobless to you?” His words were sharp, his tone dry. “I just thought-” “You have one job, woman. Bear the heir to the Knight empire. Is that so hard? Do you not have enough people to take care of you? Do I need to employ a nanny for you to hold your hand during your hospital visits? Is it so hard?” Joanne flinched, shaking her head. She had not meant any such thing. It was her first ObGyn visit. Naturally, she was nervous but she had buried any hope of receiving any affection or support from her husband now, especi
____...Joanne did not want to admit it, but the horrible human's choice in takeouts was not as horrible. But she would die before she admitted it. Though she did not understand where the cinnamon twists came from. They were not part of Chinese cuisine. “So? When do you plan to see a doctor?” Reagan had her attention. She looked up from her food. This was new. The last time, Joanne was positive that Reagan did not even know which hospital she went to. “Have you decided on an ObGyn yet?” Again, last time, the hospital and the doctor had been chosen for her by her mother-in-law.She was not complaining. Dr. Martins was exceptional. He was one of the best in the country. But he was not warm. She wanted someone who would care for her like she was a human being and not just an incubator for a human being. Joanne had not felt any affection whatsoever from anyone except Elliot during her pregnancy - well, it had been like that her whole life - and she did not want to live in that void
____...Reagan looked at the time for the nth time as he signed off on one of the budget reports. It was seven in the evening and he hated that he had so much work to do. His intercom beeped to life. He pressed the receive button. “Yes, Alison?”“Mr. Knight, you have a visitor.” “Who?” “Mrs. Knight.” His eyes widened. “Joanne? What is she doing here?” “Oh, no no. Not Ms. Ramsay. Your mother.” He deflated. Of course, Alison had been ordered by him to never refer to Joanne as Mrs. Knight. “She does not deserve the same title as my mother.” He had barked at his meek secretary. “Let her in.” Reagan disconnected the call and leaned back in his chair, massaging his temples, knowing exactly what this visit was about. Pauline must have been running her mouth. The door was pushed open as Alison stepped in to hold it open for the queen of the Knight empire. Reagan rose to his feet, walking over to greet her. “Mom, what brings you here?” Rowena nodded her head at Alison dismissive
____...“I will see you later, Joey.” Elliot pressed a kiss to her temple as he opened the cab door for her. “Yeah, miss you already.” Joanne smiled at her best friend, the only person on her side in this world. Elliot flashed her his very charming smile which was not accessible to just anyone. “See, I knew that was the main reason for you showing up.” Joanne rolled her eyes and got in, waving as the cab pulled away. Her phone rang. She looked down, expecting it to be Elliot calling to say something stupid or about something she had forgotten. She stared at the caller ID. Why was Reagan calling her in the middle of his working hours? Joanne had never received any phone calls in their three years of marriage, even when she was going through the worst days of her pregnancy. In fact, he had stopped coming home in those days. She hesitated before picking up the call, “Hello?” She hated how soft and meek her voice sounded, like her seven-year-old self standing outside her distant
____...Ever since coming back to the past - or what she believed was the past - Joanne finally felt relaxed. The reason? Reagan Sebastian Knight had left for work. She was left fumbling when he had voiced his reluctance to go to office, leaving her ‘all alone in this condition’ as he had put it. She choked on the dry toast she was trying to stomach when he brought up his thoughts about applying for paternal leave. Was this man out of his mind? She was absolutely baffled by his need to be a part of this pregnancy. He wanted to be a hands-on father, he had said. Why? What was he thinking? Did a punch in the nose really change a man so much? Or was, as she had inferred, the change in timeline of the pregnancy news and the return of Serena changed something? Or was it, yet again, as she had inferred, that she was in an alternate reality? Joanne hated that she wished it was true. Of course, she was horrified by this man being around her. She had lost herself in the moment and
____...“What the hell?” Pauline screeched. Joanne and Reagan snapped out of their stupor, Reagan pulling Joanne's shorts back up before fixing his own clothes as he quickly got off of her and she struggled to get to her feet. “That's what I should be saying, Lynn. What the hell? Stop showing up unannounced.” Reagan was absolutely flustered, and Joanne even more so - she didn't know whether to thank Pauline for halting a disaster or hate her for how mannerless she was.All the ladies’ heads whipped to his face as if he had gone crazy. “What did you just say?” Pauline had tears in her eyes, but her baby brother ignored her in favour of her hated sister-in-law. “You okay?” Joanne blinked. Was she okay? She did not think so. She was confused as to whether she should choose the alternate reality theory or he needs a brain check theory. “You can't talk to your sister like that.” Was what she ended up blurting out. Which had the two ladies whipping their heads in her direction
____...“So she knows it's a boy?” Reagan asked as he sipped on the over-sweetened mojito that went straight to his brain. He winced as he placed the blue food-dyed drink down. Joanne nodded, though all she really wanted was to overturn the mojito on his head. She did not like him here. She di
____ . . . “You had to see the blood. So much blood. I will send you all the juicy pics as soon as it is made legal to release.” Reagan stared at Sergeant Elliot Grady. He was a homicide detective. He had no problem talking gore. What stunned him was how interested Joanne was in the stories.
____ . . . Joanne bit into her nails as she thought of all the possible reasons for Reagan’s sudden metamorphosis. The top two reasons she could find were: brain injury and deception. The latter was more likely. She had locked herself up in her room, after resolving just this morning
____...“This is ridiculous!” And bad! So fucking bad!Joanne shook her head, swatting the cup away. “I am not peeing in front of you.” “Why not?” Reagan was out of it. He had the stupid bandage removed so now he stood there in front of her with his stupid Rudolf nose and demanded that he watc







