What Do I Do?AZARIA'S POVGod.Killian had none of Nicholas’s weaknesses; he was consistently stable, patient and considerate. As a result, everything became even more difficult.His words played through my head repeatedly.“Time is what I need right now,” I whispered.“I’ll always be here waiting, remember I'm not rushing for an answer,” he answered. “Even if it brings me pain.”The call finished and I remained silent, hearing what he said over and over. A deep sadness in my chest wouldn’t let me feel anything else.There really was a part of me that did care for Killian.But it wasn’t the kind that tore you apart and left you breathless.That one was Nicholas’s.I was in the living room when the knocking outside began.I froze.Almost midnight had passed.And my dad, aunt and the twins were out and wouldn't be back till weekends.I quietly came to the door, with my heart pounding and looked into the peephole.Nicholas.I held my hand against the door in an effort to stop him from c
A Heart Torn Between ShadowsAzaria’s POVWhen I got to my apartment, I immediately shut the door and leaned my body against it. The stillness when I arrived made me realize it had waited for me all day to fill my thoughts. I dropped my bag on the floor as it slid from my shoulder and for a long moment, I couldn’t move or breathe at all.Pain.I just felt that way. It wasn’t physical, but a powerful emotional struggle I struggled to talk about. It didn’t come on fast like a lot of pain I’d felt before. It’s the one that slowly enters you, transports itself around your body like a poison and makes thinking clearly very difficult.I was crushed.I worked hard to be resilient. Tried to keep in mind that I wasn’t being stupid. That I didn’t end up with him. That all he wanted was to catch me off guard. Unfortunately, the most aggravating issue is. What I despised the most?I hadn’t stopped feeling for Nicholas.Despite everything, despite understanding I might have had company. When I not
The Truth Beneath Blood and BoneNicholas’ POVAs soon as I stepped into the palace, my steps moved quickly, I was very loud and what I had seen weighed heavily on me. My guards saw that I felt very tense, angry and nearly boiling over. I had more anger than just anger. I didn’t understand. Betrayed. Tugged at by opposite sides of what is expected.I held a special meeting with the council.It took only an hour for them to gather, sitting in the hall that was chilly even in summer. Marcel stood to the right of me, silently watching and concerned, creating a slight furrow between his brows. I was walking back and forth, hoping that my mind would still and then come alive again.“I have to know,” was my reply. My friends and I were wondering, does a person possess more than one mate?Silence settled in the room. At this time, there were faint whispers. With their heads tilted, the males shared a glance using their wise eyes. Some looked disappointed. Others remained silent, as if they t
What Do I Do?AZARIA'S POVGod.Killian had none of Nicholas’s weaknesses; he was consistently stable, patient and considerate. As a result, everything became even more difficult.His words played through my head repeatedly.“Time is what I need right now,” I whispered.“I’ll always be here waiting, remember I'm not rushing for an answer,” he answered. “Even if it brings me pain.”The call finished and I remained silent, hearing what he said over and over. A deep sadness in my chest wouldn’t let me feel anything else.There really was a part of me that did care for Killian.But it wasn’t the kind that tore you apart and left you breathless.That one was Nicholas’s.I was in the living room when the knocking outside began.I froze.Almost midnight had passed.And my dad, aunt and the twins were out and wouldn't be back till weekends.I quietly came to the door, with my heart pounding and looked into the peephole.Nicholas.I held my hand against the door in an effort to stop him from c
Not Mine AnymoreAzaria’s POVThat day felt just like winter refusing to move aside for spring. At that point, I felt as if many things around me moved very slowly—like my body realized we’d been very lucky to get out unharmed, even though my mind refused to accept it.Since I woke up, Ashley kept disturbing me with her fussing. She kept covering me with my blanket, gave me water when I asked and said she would break the bones of anyone if I did not sleep well. She was fiercely protective and that was what I loved when everything seemed so unstable.Never did I imagine that Ashely would suddenly barge in and slam the door. She seemed pissed.“And who do we have smiling back at us like nothing ever happened?” she asked, arms folded tightly across her chest.I lifted my eyebrow and took a stray lock of hair away from my face. “Anyway, I’m guessing… Selene.”Ashley gave an unexpected gasp. “Ring ring ring. You get to take home the prize. She has signed up for school, Azaria. Enrolled. Li
When the Storm BrokeAzaria’s POVThe noise from outside the nurse’s office was enough to drive me crazy—I could just barely hear shouts, fighting and things being knocked over. It was clear that stress and tension would not allow me to get any rest, since my mind and body were too active.Next, I could hear the sound. A growl. Fists colliding. A fight unleashing its obvious power.Again.There was an uneven breath in my lungs. I could easily tell who the mystery person was.I made sure my body was sitting upright. The pain in my muscles and arm grew worse, but I still kept going. Anger wasn’t enough, because some other emotion was pushing me.I was tired of it.“Stop fighting!!!” I yelled as hard as I could.Everything seemed to shut down.The first person Killian looked at was me. His breathing was quick and blood dripped from the side of his mouth. The anger he felt was echoing in the shivering of his clenched fists. He stepped back and stood beside her, with his eyes opened wide a
She Screamed His NameNicholas's POVI did not delay.As I walked away from Selene, I heard her choked sobs but ignored them and her fake cries. I was overcome by anger and also by the need to find a way out. Azaria. I had to visit her. I wanted to know she was still breathing. That she had not gone away.I marched down the hallway with students moving aside on their own, like waves being pushed by a storm. My anger could be seen by them. My rage as a wolf. I practically skipped instead of running and my heart was pounding inside me. I didn’t bother to knock at the nurse’s office when I arrived.I pulled the door hard to open it.That’s when I saw her.Resting with hardly any movement. Too still.Azaria.An artificial light shone down on the room thanks to the fluorescent bulbs. Her usually strong and blazing features were now delicate and pale. She had a small tube under her nose that supplied oxygen. A blanket was draped around her to her waist and her left arm was wrapped with blo
Why Are You Really Here?Nicholas’s POVAfter I spoke, the silence seemed to hang heavy in the air and neither of us wanted it to stay.Selene avoided meeting his gaze and her mouth moved as if she wanted to say something, anything. Games weren’t something I felt like doing, especially on a day like today.“Look at me,” I whispered, but my voice was as harsh as a knife edge.She finally paused and looked into my eyes. Her eyes were open, soft and I recognized that look from my earlier experience. She had the skill of forming her facial expressions like a magical spell. She had it all along.She said, “I didn’t want to cause any problems. It was because of you that I chose to return.”I simply gazed at her without saying a word. Even after her confession, the walls remained silent, the floor was still freezing and the air did not move.“For me?” I reacted with surprise as I said the question. “After everything, you came back for me?”“Can't you see that I've missed you,” She tried to h
What Did You Do?Nicholas’s POVI was passing by the hallway, feeling a little bored and a bit irritated, when I had a realization.I was suddenly struck by a sharp stabbing pain at my side. “Arghhh…”The sudden impact made me grasp the wall so hard that I almost stumbled. There was no physical side to it—at least for me. It flooded through me and I noticed my senses grew sharper. My inner wolf was agitated, snarling and walking restlessly.I carried on, about reaching my classroom, when the pain came again, this time stronger than the last one, pain rushed through my veins, my wolf snapped almost causing me to transform in school.“Calm down…” I snapped at my wolf.“Why am I feeling so much pain?” I muttered under my breath.I went to the restroom to calm myself down, “argh…” another sharp pain coursed through my body, I held onto the sink, my fangs coming out slowly, my eyes switching colors.“Not here….” I growled hard.“She's in trouble, mate… in trouble… mate,” my wolf kept fight