Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Ayla Point of view

“How 'bout…. Mike? ” Mitch asked "He's into you, Girl."

I chuckled because of her suggestion, We're now at the coffee shop. I am with my two Best friend, Zariah and Mitch.

“I like him for you! I saw you last year with him. You looked good together, Swear. ” Zari said, she even did the signed peace which made me laugh even more.

They're becoming cupid because of me, they're trying to find me a match. Since I'm getting older and I still don't have a love life.

“C'mon, I'm not interested in him. Why are we talking about my love life? ” I said and rolled my eyes to them, I also tasted the coffee in front of me. "This is good."

“But he is. I heard he likes you, You can give it a try. ” Zari said, She even touched my left shoulder.

I smiled at her and removed his hand on my shoulder which made them laughed, I had past relationship I mean relationshit.

All the men I'm in a relationship with, make fun of me. I'm probably the most unlucky woman in the world. That's why I envy my friends, They were just so lucky in their love life while I'm not.

I already did everything, I tried blind dates and I also tried reaching out my ultimate crush, Mike. But nothing happens. He's just to high to reach, Celebrity tsh!

I raise my standard too much, I don’t just need his love for me, I need his guidance and care. I also want him to love our future child more, he made Time for them especially since I know the feeling of having a workaholic parent and almost no time for us.

We continued our conversation, we talked about their experience and their life abroad. Zari got married last year, She got married to her long-time boyfriend in Canada. I wasn't able to attend her wedding that time because of a serious matter, she even contributed to me before. It was good that they also thought of getting married here. Now Mitch announced that she's also getting married, while I'm still waiting for the man that will love me unconditionally.

After we talked, I decided to go home and I have no other choice since I don’t have any schedule for today. When I got home I was greeted by the housemaids, I just smiled at them.

"Did my brother come home, Manang?" I asked Manang Lordess when I saw her sweeping the living room, she stopped what she was doing and faced me with a smile. I sat down on the Sofa and put down the bag I was carrying on my left side.

She smiled at me “Ayla, you came home. How’s you’re reunion with your friend? are they with you? ” Manang asked trying to changed the topic.

I just looked at her carefully and smiled at her, I also shook my head as an answer. I'm sure Manang lordess missed my friends too. This is because my friends often go here, especially when we were still studying. I don’t mind them being here in our house, especially since I am the only one who's always here except for the housemaids, my family only comes home twice a year, and if they come home, they also don't stay here, they will go home here for Family business and also for scolding me about the mistakes I did. Twice a year, when they come home here, they don't last long either, they only stay in the Philippines for four or seven days and go home when they need something. This house really made to be a vocation house bro!

“Those kids didn't even bother to visit me. ”Manang replied and stopped sweeping, she approached me and smiled at me.

"Manang, don't change the topic." I answered her, she gave me a sad smile. I just sighed and sat on the sofa.

I'm just fooling myself every time I ask manang that thing. I know the answer to my question but I still try to ask others. I was hoping that they might answer me differently.

I looked at her once again "How 'bout mom and dad?" I asked, she gave me a sad smile saying they weren't here yet.

“Did they call?” I asked again and gave her a smile. You can see the joy and hope in my eyes that she will answer yes, but my hopes were dashed when Manang did not answer.

I sighed and closed my eyes, I also leaned my body on the chair. In my current state, I seem to be carrying the problems of the world. I am no longer used to my family. They're all busy with their businesses. They don't have time to come home, they don't have time for me.

I always feel unwanted to everyone, to my parents and my loved ones. Well they don't really make me feel unwanted physically, but I always feel unwanted emotionally.

My mind always thinks that they don’t want me near them, that’s why they don’t come home here. I knew in my heart that I was wrong, parent will never disown their own child.

I opened my eyes when I felt Manang stares, I looked at her and gave her a smile that will give her good news.

"Mitch is getting married." I said, she gave me a wide smile and began to shed tears in her eyes.

Manang has no children. Her story is that she became too busy with their lives. She's the eldest and she is the one who support her five younger siblings so she lost time to find a man to be with in life.

That's why most of us here at home are considered as her children, so sometimes I just think that if Manang had a child and a husband, they would be lucky because they have a loving, caring and kind wife and mother.

"Really !? That kid have no plans to tell me that good news!" She Laughed and I just nodded “Gosh that kid! wait a moment, I’ll just call her." She said and took out her cellphone. She type something to her phone and I saw her looking for a phone number.

"Finally she will get married and You are the next, my child." She’s smiling while saying that to me.

I smiled at her but the sadness can be seen in my eyes. Manang smiled when she looked at me but suddenly her smile disappeared, maybe she realized what she just said.

“My Child, don't worry. You will find someone that will love you. You will not be an old girl like Manang ”She said to me and smiled again, She even tapped my hair.

"I hope so…" I answered and stood up "I'll go to my room Manang, I need a rest, this day is so tiring."

I didn't wait for the answer and hurried to the bedroom. When I got there I threw my bag on the chair and dropped myself on the bed.

My day is not tiring for others, but I feel very tired. Maybe the term 'promise is meant to be broken' is really true. He broke his promise again.

He promised he would come home now, so I hoped. I was his princess before and now I don't know my place to his life anymore. He doesn't like people breaking promises, but he is one of them.

I remember the time that he was so mad at me because I broke my promise to him. He even told me the word 'I Hate you' for two weeks he didn’t talked to me. if I hadn't made ways for us to get along, maybe until now he’s still angry with me. But even though he said that he had forgiven me, I was still not convinced, did he really forgive me for that sin, or does he still feel angry with me?

"Do I need to hate you too, brother?"