One of the reasons that drive Joan to act out of the ordinary without thinking now is his memory of meeting Lynd 10 years ago. That moment for him was a meeting that became a precious, beautiful memory. Joan did not think that after that Lynd would disappear again or be difficult to contact even though they had exchanged contact. As long as they met Joan didn't notice Lynd's odd behavior and thought all was well. Then in reality it turned out to be just Joan's vision-judgment alone. This time after seeing her rushing away, looking for excuses, and secretly crying earlier, how could Joan let her go and part like this. When it became clear that Lynd was hiding something from him.
Joan took Lynd to the hotel lounge. Only that place seemed quieter, quieter than the hotel area other than the hotel room. Joan and Lynd sat there, choosing a spot in the corner of the room.
“Joan, what do you mean bring me all the way here?” Lynd's tone was clear of protest.
"Sorry, I just wanted to talk to you alone." Joan reflected on his actions after they happened.
"What are you want?" Lynd was deliberately cold. But that attitude made Joan even more confused.
"You are mad at me? Is it because I forced you to come with me here?”
"What do you want to talk to me about?" demanded Lynd not to answer Joan's question.
Joan's face looked sad, the nuances between them became more sensitive. "I miss you. After our meeting that time, I always think of you, Lynd. Whenever I have a hard time I want to meet you and share stories, just like that day.” Joan looked firmly at Lynd. The look in his eyes softened Lynd's feelings.
Why is it so easy for Joan to say the word missing? Even though Lynd was suffering so much from holding back this desire when she was dealing with him like this alone. Joan had no idea how hard this together was for Lynd. It was the awareness of their status that made Lynd still cling to her senses now. Yes, Lynd and Joan's relationship is only friends. Joan already holds the status of someone's husband. Lynd couldn't shorten the distance she had set since realizing her feelings for Joan.
"Joan, I don't understand what you mean. Do you think we can be friends?”
Joan looked at Lynd in confusion. “Aren't we already friends with, Lynd? You are my friend. And I want our friendship to be closer in the future. I want us to keep in touch, to meet like this.”
“Relate as friends you mean?”
"Of course," he said. "I want us to maintain this friendship, you can also tell me about whatever your problem is. I regret our last meeting, I didn't do anything for you. I feel indebted to you.”
"Debt of gratitude? Haha, that's exactly what I did for you." Lynd's laughter was ridiculous. Besides, Joan's offer did not interest her, to make friends become friends to share life's problems. What if the problem Lynd had was about Joan himself. How could Lynd tell him?
“I survived today because of your words back then Lynd, you gave me strength as well as support. I want to be someone like that for you too, even if it's just a friend to share your pain with."
Why did Joan think Lynd had the same thoughts and desires, even though for her that day the meeting was one of the things that Lynd regretted. If at that time she had not met Joan, surely she would not have this love now.
“No Joan, I can't be your friend. And I also hope we don't see each other again." Lynd refused firmly, much to Joan's surprise.
"Lynd, what do you mean?"
Lynd didn't answer.
"Lynd wait! Did I do something wrong?” Lynd had suddenly left and was crying. Joan began to wonder if Lynd was crying because of her. “Lynd I'm sorry if I did something wrong, or offended you, made you sad. Honestly, I don't understand what I did and disappointed you—”
"Joan, I hope you can respect my wish."
Joan was still looking at Lynd with a shocked expression on his face.
“No, Lynd please tell me that I did something wrong. I'll fix it, can you explain it to me?" again Joan held her, stopping her from leaving. Lynd's hand on the table Joan easily grasped without any weight.
Lynd lost her temper, she was the only one on the verge of madness here. All Joan's words, his actions eroded Lynd's final defense. "Joan you don't understand. Won't be able to understand! I'm not asking you to understand either. It's just... I don't want us to meet or be in touch again." Lynd stood up to leave but Joan still held her hand.
"But why Lynd? What is the reason?"
"Don't make me talk Joan, you'll regret it." If Lynd told him the reason like Joan's request, things and the relationship between them would never go back to how they used to be. Better to end without Joan knowing anything.
"You mean? At least let me understand what you mean by all this coldness, rejection, and distancing of yours, Lynd. Don't go like this." Joan asked. The problem of regretting or not will be faced him once the situation is clear. The reason Lynd was behaving this way to him.
Lynd closed her eyes, feeling like she was on the verge of losing her mind in the face of Joan who was so obsessed with her right now, for some reason. Lynd was determined, her heart had already made up her mind. Taking a deep breath steadied her to dare to speak, not only to be brave but also to forget her shame. Lynd resigned after this her relationship with Joan would be irreparable.
Lynd looked straight into the face of the man in front of her. “Joan I like you, have feelings for you. That's why I want us to stop seeing each other."
The first sentence Lynd said made Joan freeze, for a moment he doubted his hearing. Meanwhile, Lynd tried her best not to run away. The look on Joan's face right now was driving Lynd almost crazy. But she was halfway through her voice, and Lynd decided to let it all out.
"I don't want to see you again in the future. At whatever opportunity comes up in the future, I will avoid you. Wherever you are I will go away. That's why we don't have to talk to each other anymore. And you know very well the reason why I'm behaving like this to you." Lynd could feel Joan's grip weakening. Perhaps because he was surprised to hear her long and too honest confession. Whatever it was, Lynd didn't care, she had already said everything. "Now I have to go."
Lynd still had to meet Sarah and then say goodbye to go from there to go back home. Lynd left Joan alone who was still digesting the situation. A few moments passed, and Joan still sitting alone after Lynd's departure.
“Lynd likes who? W-what does this mean!” Joan's head was spinning, his head stopped working normally after hearing what Lynd said. But his heart was pounding hard, the more Lynd's words replayed as if recorded in memory. “Lynd likes me? No. Joan wait! Lynd said she didn't want to see you again." Joan knew the reason, Lynd didn't want to see him again because of Joan's married status.
Yes, the status as a husband whose wife is pregnant with their future child. She was right, chasing after Lynd wasn't making Joan feel better. It seems that now he chose the wrong path. How did he face Lynd after this.
"Sigh... That right, Lynd doesn't want to see me anymore.." Remembering Lynd's words, something in his heart screamed to reject this one-sided decision.
Should it go that far, Joan is already married then does his status prohibit him from making friends? From the very beginning what Joan offered Lynd was friendship. What's wrong with that.
"Are you stupid? Obviously wrong!" somehow Sarah was listening to Joan's current vent about the conversation she had with Lynd at her wedding. Joan couldn't find any other friends to share his anxiety with about Lynd. Even though Sarah had just returned from her honeymoon. She was relaxing at home spending the rest of her day off from work when Joan called and said he wanted to talk about Lynd."What? I want us to be friends. Friends, just friends!" Joan sounded so determined to make Sarah understand or agree with him."Yeah you consider Lynd a friend and want to be friends, and maybe a close relationship like when we were in school. But Lynd already said she had feelings for you. Don't you think about her feelings? Her position? Or furthermore people's views on your relationship later.""Sarah, you're going too far… I don't understand the way you look at this. What does that have to do with other people?" Joan sounded annoyed."Okay, okay, I made a mistake." Maybe it was true that Sa
For a while, Lynd was too busy chatting with her new little friend Stefan. Though she had come to talk to his mother-- her old friend. But Arte didn't disturb their fun, instead enjoying the fun of watching in silence until the two new friends were satisfied playing. She was sure that Lynd wouldn't be strong enough to play with her son who could be very energetic when he was comfortable and fit with someone. Or so it was natural for a boy of Stefan's age who was still energic and cheerful in the world of play. Lynd returns to her best friend Stefan after their game. Her breath hitched a little, tired. It must be because she's not used to being that active. Sipping her drink, Lynd still hadn't shared the story with Arte. "You know what happened last month?" she asked Arte. "Last month? What's going on?" Lynd didn't answer, allowing Arte to think through her own question and look for an answer. "A-ah… What do you mean Sarah's wedding? You came there?" "So you also know what it lo
This morning, some time ago before the project meeting time with Lee.Co. Before Lynd meet Joan. Lynd worked at a contractor company as a director for quite some time. But this morning before the meeting, suddenly her job must hold the position of project manager. Indeed Lynd's company was in a bankruptcy crisis with financial difficulties. The boss, aka the president of the company who was supposed to attend the meeting this morning, could not be contacted. In other word disappeared or run away allegedly carrying the company's funds from the winning tender last time. “How is this Lynd? If we don't attend today's meeting then our company will be completely over!” even though this new project is their company's only hope to survive. Lynd who was cornered either in question or in the responsibility of the critical situation that was happening at this time also filled her head felt empty. Not to mention the pain and disappointment of the betrayal of a long-time believer who has destroy
Somewhere stiil in the same areas. They footstep stop. “Miss, please come in.” He opened the door.After following obediently, Lynd gets to a private room where limited access is not for just anyone. At first she thought she would be taken upstairs, back into the room meeting but it was not. The building is separate and hidden. Don't know what was waiting for her in that room. Lynd stepped inside, prepared her heart, took courage.The man who took her to that place didn't come along inside. Finished with his task of escorting, he left without a word closing the door behind her, leaving Lynd there. But Lynd was too shocked by what she found in front of her eyes, so didn't have enough attention to worry about anything else.“J-Joan? You called me here?” Lynd voice cough at troat.“Yes.”“ You— " Lynd almost cried out in emotion. What Joan didn't quite understand was Lynd's cold, stern attitude at the meeting. That she was trying to draw distance until she rushed away from the meeting r
The office situation when Lynd returned was quieter than before. She found office desks that should be at this hour filled with employees sitting struggling with busy work in front of the computer. Now was empty, even the space of some tables that have been neat clean of personal belongings. Lynd tried to figure what was happening in this place during her absence."Derek! What happen all of this?" she asked confused at the co-workers who found there."Lynd, you're back. Uh, here's the thing..." Derek felt it was awry how to explain what happened while Lynd was gone."What? Tell me?" Lynd impatient."They decided to leave, handed in a letter of resignation today. Yeah, you know our situation, and I can't decline or prevent it, even say a word."After hearing the word of resignation, she was silent. The decision made by colleagues to leave the company has good reasons, the biggest of which is salary arrears. The colleague who finally chose to step do
Maybe it was fate that brought Lynd to this place. The school that she really never thought of would take the next three years alone without a friend. In this place there is nothing she is looking for, but there is something Lynd wants to protects with all out as best she can. Lynd didn't want to let little things go unnoticed again. Don't want to lose more time together with her precious person. She will start collecting small pieces, make good memories, live without regrets towards her loved ones again. Don't want to make the same mistake a second time."Are you and Daniel close friend?" Ask sassy girls to the girl that seat beside Lynd. Who she know the name of her new friend is Sarah."Yes I'm. But, who you are?" Sarah's voice a bit angry. Its rude she think for someone ask you but not introduced yourself first."Ops! Sorry. I'm Arte, will you be my friend too?" said the one who still standing in front of Sarah and Lynd. Till now Lynd still keep her
The contents of the letter that Joan wrote to Lynd.Sudden presence. Existence is like the wind that can be felt but not seen by the eye. That's what my presence means to you..Before reading this letter any further, please introduce me as your foreign travel companion. Where we ride the train in the same series. Sitting in the next chair with a destination that neither of us knows each other.A few stations missed, I just silently watched you from the seat next to you sitting silently reading a book. Looking at you it occurred to me, 'where are you going alone at night in this dangerous train. Aren't you afraid to go alone?'I want to greet you but don't want to disturb you who are so immersed in the book you are reading. So I stopped my intention, it's better not because it's rude and you might not like it.The train was still running, the occasional warning sound could be heard at each station. You remained seated without any sign of getting off at the
A letter came back in a few days. This is the third letter from Joan. The content wrote.I will be waiting for your reply to answer my question in the previous letter.Lets meet and getting know each other better. I'm waiting for your after school today in the back gate. Let's walk togather.Your ifriend Unfortunately the letter never get to Lynd hand. So for long long long time the mysterious letter still be mystery and forgotten until Joan make a confession when they's graduation ceremony.Why school memories dominate Lynd's mind now. Is there because Joan standing in front of her with passion that she never know before."You have change a lot, in many things. I guess.." Lynd spoke with soft voice. Joan Lee that she know gentle and always considered for other people."Well I can't say I didn't, and half of the reasons because of you." Joan can't wait anymore just standing there forever. So he just came in