LOGINCHAPTER 002: Don’t Be Modest
Her question made my heart stop. I was standing between the kitchen and the hallway. Not close enough to make it obvious I’d been listening. But not far enough to pretend I’d just walked in. She came out of nowhere. “Hi ma’am. I um... came for water,” I said nervously, holding up the glass of half-filled water, mostly spilled due to the few seconds of chaos. I was chaos. She must have noticed my paled-out expression, and she chuckled, waving me off. “Relax, I was joking, and please don’t call me ma’am. It makes me feel old.” “Call me Bria.” She added, and I forced a smile, wishing our interaction would end. How could she suggest I call her by her name when my parents called her ma’am half their lives? It was so inappropriate even for me. Hud said his mom was down-to-earth, and I’ve confirmed it, but this level she was in was a new high. “Ok, Ma—Bria." I corrected myself quickly, and she patted me lightly. “Come on, join us for dinner.” "Err... I was about to leave.” I tried to make up an excuse, but she was already tugging me along, her arm linked with mine. “Don’t be like that. You’re Hannah’s kid and always welcome into our home, so why hurry off since you're here already?" I pressed my lips together. She was right. Since childhood, they’d always gotten me similar gifts and holiday presents as Hud. Only with the gender difference. At times I wonder what spell my parents cast on them to make them like us so much. “See, Tee. Gwen just reacted on my I*******m post. She totally wants us back.” Hud bumped into us midway to the dining table. Bria released me lightly, her lips pursed in disapproval that her facial expression had Hud lowering his head. We all knew that look. “The object of my son’s obsession. Gwen.” She started. "Oh, how it makes me so happy to see you hopelessly and crazily in love. You turned out better than your dad," Bria added, sarcasm reeking in her tone. Hud's jaw clenched as we exchanged glances. And as his ever-dedicated chaperone, I signaled for him to drop it. Don't talk about Gwen. Give your family a break. Give me. But Hud, in all his glorious stubbornness, opened his sexy mouth and said, “I’ll get her back. She’s just confused and overwhelmed about the semester with her scholarship and all." Christ. This boy. It seemed like someone slapped Bria in the face as she folded her arms across her chest. Now I wanted to disappear. “Scholarship? You mean the same program Tianna is also on?” Great. Now I’m getting dragged into all this shit. Thank you, Hud. “But Tianna doesn’t go sleeping around and stringing the one she claims she loves along. She’s a decent kid.” “Think about that as you eat dinner.” Bria finished, walking past him to take her seat. Hud's facial expression gave off someone that just got knocked out and has barely regained consciousness as he settled beside me. A dull ache settled in my chest. As usual, I absorbed all his hurt like I was his emotional sponge. I reached for his hand from under the table and gave him a gentle squeeze, and he looked up with those beautiful brown eyes of his, his expression softening. “It’s okay.” I whispered, and he nodded. “Hey, honey.” Derek’s thick masculine voice cut through the air as he pulled out a chair from beside Bria, leaning to plant a peck on her cheek. She adjusted in her seat, spreading her lips into what I might mistake for a smile. As if she were contemplating punching him in the face or smiling through dinner. “Hi, Dad." Hud greeted, earning a curt nod from Derek, who barely acknowledged him. “Hi, Mr. Monroe." I greeted him, and he stopped, his eyes falling on me like he just noticed me there. For a moment, I went still, my grip on the fork tightening, turning my knuckles white as it felt like the older version of Hud was staring back at me. But with darker hair, gray streaks running through the strands, and a chiseled jawline forming a V-shaped face. Along with those topaz eyes that stared on with the intensity of a gangster. Not that I’ve met one. I just couldn't ignore how much my heart hammered against my rib cage as he felt like he could reach me from across the table and consume me with some dark energy. I shuddered at the thought. But he was beautiful. Maybe more than Hud. "Tianna, right?” he asked. I nodded, kneading my knuckles. “Yes.” I managed to speak. “How are your parents? Heard they moved.” “Last year," I revealed. “Hmm.” He only replied, cutting into a steak and fixing it in his mouth. I looked around and realized both Bria and Hud were focused on their plates. Well, was that all he had to say? “Tee goes over to visit on weekends. It’s really far," Hud added. Yeah, because he drove me down most of the time. “And our Tianna here always tops the class every semester. She’s our star student.” Bria praised, and Derek lifted his head, his eyes meeting mine, and I suddenly forgot how to use my fork. This wasn’t the first time meeting him, but I’d never seen him up close because each time I came here, it was either he was on business trips or he was out at his golf clubs. He was a sport enthusiast, according to Hud, who clearly didn’t take after him in that regard. “So you’re in our program?” “Yes, sir, and I want to thank you for the opportunity." "I’m doing my very best to stay on the program," I added. God, that was more than I intended to say, and he only nodded. “Good.” Then he turned to Hud. “The Dean called me. You failed three classes, and it’s only the beginning of the semester.” Hud looked up as if he’d been stabbed. “That’s a lie. I just flunked music class and one of my majors." “A major,” Derek repeated, his voice carrying venom, and Hud stopped eating. He seemed like he was suppressing the urge to throw up his dinner with how his fists balled on the table. Bria titled her chin up, ready to step in. “He’s doing his best, honey. We shouldn’t be too hard on him," she defended. Derek turned to me, “How many classes have you failed in the last two semesters?" I bit down on my lip as all eyes fell on me, including Hud's puppy ones. Why me? Why always me? “I had a bit of trouble understanding the class—“ “Don’t be modest," Derek warned. "None, sir," I said, shutting my eyes briefly as it felt like I just fired a cannon and couldn't bear to watch it detonate. I didn't want Hud to get scolded. And he would, thanks to me. Gwen, you caused this. Derek pushed back his plate. “Since you don’t want to study—“ "I want to," Hud cut in, his tone desperate, and Derek's eyes narrowed on him. “Which is why Tianna has agreed to be Hudson’s tutor while she works here.” Bria interrupted, her eyes on me. Me? Tutor and work here? Bria reached for my hand, her eyes pleading. “Right, Tianna?” What?!Taking it out, I gestured for her to hold on.“We'll get back to it when I'm back.”She pouted, clearly disappointed before turning on her side.My eyes still lingered on her lying form as I glanced at the caller ID.It was Zoey.For some reason I knew Bria had a hand in it.I picked up.“Hey, honey. Remembered your old man today?”“Dad.” She sounded down, her voice low.I arched my brow.“What is it, princess? Talk to me. You know you can tell me anything.”She sniffed.“Is it Martins? Is he being a jerk? I swear I'll break his jaw—"“No, Dad. It's not him. It's me."I lowered my voice, speaking more softly into the phone.“Come on, princess. Spit it out. I'm all ears.”“I'm getting cold feet. I don't think I want to have this baby. I'm not so sure.”“Why?”She went quiet.“Did your mom say anything?”“Not much. Bu
~~ DEREK ~~I watched how she swallowed nervously, her slender fingers massaging her collarbones.And I meant every word I said.She signed a contract. She was bound to me for at least six months.And I intended to make the most of those six months.So I decided something.If Bria refused to sign the divorce papers, I'd separate from her temporarily.She was headstrong. Unrepentant. Manipulative.While my private investigator and Fred worked things out with the paperwork, I'll take Tianna somewhere else.Where we could be together. Away from Bria's anger and jealousy.Away from Hudson's constant presence that seemed to throw her off at every opportunity.“So…so what does that mean?”I took her hand in mine, gently, before dipping down and pressing my nose against the back of her hand.God, she smelt of honey and roses.Roses.Other women would kill for a
~~ TIANNA ~~ “Mom?” I heard her sniffle like she’d been crying, and I dug my nails into the sheets. My grip over the phone tightened. “Mom, are…are you crying?” “What does it matter? Our family is ruined. Your dad’s in between life and death. My only daughter is sleeping around. And it’s with a man that’s been there for our family.” She sobbed. Her words knifed through my chest. “Mom. Please listen.” "What's there to listen to? You hurt Mrs. Monroe badly. I’d never seen her break down like that. I never thought my daughter would be the one to make her like that. Not in a thousand years. She was so good to us. To you.” A lump rose in my throat at that admission. I knew it. Why didn’t I think of this before? Of course Bria called my mom. That’d be the first thing anyone would do. And the woman was predictable. To be honest with myself. No matter how Derek tried to paint Bria black. That she deserved this and all. I knew what my mom just said was true.
~~ TIANNA ~~ He went silent on the other end. Like, he didn't get what I just said. He could pretend all he wanted, block his ear out, and stuff, but I was leaving. I called my mom already. I was going back home. “Is that her? Are you leaving in the middle of our conversation because of Tianna?” Bria's voice sounded from the receiver. Faint. Desperate. Angry. Shit. He was coming here. I could hear his dull footsteps from the other end until they grew louder and the door swung open. “You’re not going anywhere. You’d stay right here. And get better.” He said, walking up to me. I winced as the anesthetics were beginning to wear out and the biting ache in my shoulder resumed. "Please, Derek. Let me leave. I need to take care of my dad.” “You’re the one who needs to be cared for. And if you think I’m sending you back to them in such a bad shape, then think again.” His jaw was clenched in that unwavering determination that assured me he wouldn’t let me go that eas
~~ DEREK ~~ "What...what...what are you talking about?” Hudson stammered, looking from me to Bria, his eyes wide with disbelief. “Mom? What is he talking about?” Bria’s face looked ashen with fear, but she masked it up with a small smile. “Can you give me and your dad a minute, honey? Wait outside.” Hudson shook his head, determined to get answers. I released her chin, stepping away from her with anger still searing inside of me. "No, ma. What does he mean by that? I’m not his son? How’s that even possible?” I turned away from them, pouring myself more whiskey. I didn’t have time for this drama. I didn’t want to leave Tianna all alone. She still needed care. She needed me. “Derek, please explain to your son that you’re just mad at me. There’s no truth in what you just said.” My lips lingered around the glass, savoring the aftermath of the liquor burn in my throat before I took another sip. My private investigator, Marvin. He was fast. In just a year of h
~~ HUDSON ~~ Her eyes widened, then her lips grew thinner, like I’d just said the most impossible thing. I knew it. Hell, I felt it. Every bit of Tianna’s attraction toward me. It was pathetically naive to think I didn’t know she had a huge crush on me. Something that has developed from one silly crush to unconditional love. At the start, I was young and stupid. She was our maid’s daughter. Chubby kid. Plump freckled cheeks. Light brown hair, and she always wore the cutest smile. Only for me. I’d hated how much she smiled at me. How she shared her cheap snacks with me. And how she was always staring at me through the peephole in my door each time I didn’t let her into my room. I had lots of toys, friends, and family, so it was easy to ignore her then. But as we grew older, I started to see her for who she truly was. Tianna only reserved the cutest smiles for me. She was usually obnoxious to the adults and never let other kids bully her. She was a figh







