LOGINCHAPTER 004: Eyes Up, Little Girl
Kill me, Universe. Ramsey and Naomi exchanged worried glances as my cheeks flushed with embarrassment. Hud stopped laughing immediately and turned sober. “Maybe not. Ramsey has been with our clique since high school, so he knows—" “Enough. Hud. You’ve made your point.” I said and stood up, my body trembling with humiliation mixed with anger as I walked over to the bar. "Tee," Hud called, attempting to follow me but Naomi waved him off. “I’ll talk to her.” She said, leaving the boys back at the lounge and settling next to me at the bar. “Aren’t you making it a little too obvious he’s the absolute love of your life?” I turned to her, trying to keep my head up. “Well, thank goodness. That’s an improvement because the last time I checked, it was all rotting away in my head.” I finally said it. I’d hate to see sympathy in Naomi’s eyes, so I quickly turned away. Pathetic. I faced the bar guy, slipping a wrinkled bill over the counter. “One margarita. Extra shot," I ordered. "And maybe be nice enough to slip in a roofie just the right amount to make me pass out.” The bar guy looked stunned as he eyed me, like he suspected I just got out of rehab or something. “Ignore the roofie request, please." Naomi intervened before turning to me. “Gwen is a playing with his feelings. Soon, Hudson will realize that." "Then he'd come to terms with the fact that you're the only one who truly cares about him.” She consoled, But we all knew that Hud's obsession was deep in his bloodstream. No one got rid of that kind of obsession that easily. “See, can we just stop talking about this? I also came here to have fun.” Destructive kind of fun. To let loose and let bad decisions rule me. The moment my drink came, I grabbed my glass and drained it. “Now that’s my girl. Get this sexy ass on the dance floor!” Naomi cheered in excitement as I eased off the bar stool. I shrugged off my jacket and tossed it to her. She caught it midair, screaming 'Go girl' at the top of her voice in more encouragement. I was almost as scantily dressed as the other girls on the dance floor. But something was missing. A man. “Hey baby.” A slender guy with curly hair and a leather jacket said in a smooth voice as he came up from behind me, lightly touching my waist. “May I?” I looked down at his hand resting on my hip, irritation getting the best of me as I could smell weed on him. Then my eyes fell on a stripper giving Hud a lap dance like her life depended on it. Hud threw his head back, chuckling while he ran his hands over her naked thighs. Ramsey and Naomi were cuddling next to him, and I veered my face away. Something bitter settled at the back of my throat. Hurt. I didn't know. Because people only got hurt when their feelings were invalidated. “Say the word and I’ll give you a time of your life. Right over there.” He said, pointing at a dark corner tucked beside the entrance. I shrugged his hands off, turning to him. “Not interested, homie. Now run along," I said, and he only gave an annoyed look as he disappeared into the crowd. I wasn’t a saint. I’ve had my own share of men. Flings rather. But I was very particular about them. I wasn’t so desperate that I’d let some random pretty-haired guy that reeked of weed drag me into a dark corner. All because of what? Hud hurting my feelings? That wasn't new. I swayed my hips, dancing to the rhythm as I strolled over to the bar to get my second glass. Right after I grabbed my drink, someone familiar moved from the corner of my eyes, and I looked again. My blood went cold, and the glass in my hand automatically became too heavy. Gwen. Hud had already left his seat. Of course, he was too predictable. The stripper he’d been with was sprawled on the couch looking abandoned while he guided Gwen to a corner of the room. From their gestures they were arguing as usual. How did she manage to find us? Oh, now I get it. It was partly a frat-themed party, and Gwen was apparently hooking up with one of the frat guys. These guys were dangerous. They could hurt him if he ever got into a fight with one of them because of Gwen. Forget it. He obviously didn’t care about his own safety, so why should I? I left for the bathroom, washed up, and started to navigate my way back to the club. After a good ten minutes, I ruffled my hair in frustration. I was lost. How was that even possible? The building didn't seem complicated on the outside. At this point I was freaking out but I had to relax and figure things out. I could ask someone. Making my way up to an illuminated hallway, I took three turns and saw a “Reserved” sign on a doorpost. Great. It must be a restricted area, meaning I was lost deep inside as the sound of the loud music was dull from here. I sighted a half-opened door and heard noises. People were in there. Without wasting time, I hurried over there and went it. What I saw next made me stop short. Four bulky-looking guys taking one skinny-looking girl. “Oh, sorry.” “Get out!” She screamed, and I slammed the door shut, running off. "Yes Attorney, yes, I’m around the block. Oh…the papers. Yeah, email them to her first in the morning.” A baritone voice drifted out at the end of the hallway. Well, he sounded calm and less busy than the people in the other room. I’ll just pop in and ask him. He could be the manager. Deciding it was civil to knock this time, I did. One— At count of two, I heard, “Come—“ Before he finished his sentence, I pushed the door open and walked in. The blue-lighted room reeked of sex, men's and women’s perfume, and the harsh smell of what I guess was tobacco. “Who said you could come in?” He asked, and my muscles stiffened as I noticed I’d walked past him. The dim lighting and heavy shadows concealed the room’s details, making it hard to notice him. Then I heard someone moan. I turned around slowly, like someone put a gun to the back of my head. A stripper was on her knees, butt naked, her head moving between his thighs. My eyes widened on seeing his full, veiny erection. “Eyes up, little girl." Almost immediately, my eyes traveled up his figure as though his command had hypnotized me, and that was when I saw him. Hud's dad. Derek. I staggered backward, my hand flying over my mouth in shock.~~ DEREK ~~ Taking it out, I gestured for her to hold on. “We'll get back to it when I'm done.” She pouted, clearly disappointed before turning on her side. My eyes still lingered on her lying form as I glanced at the caller ID. It was Zoey. For some reason I knew Bria had a hand in it. I picked up. “Hey, honey. Remembered your old man today?” “Dad.” She sounded down, her voice low. I arched my brow. “What is it, princess? Talk to me. You know you can tell me anything.” She sniffed. “Is it Martins? Is he being a jerk? I swear I'll break his jaw—" “No, Dad. It's not him. It's me." I lowered my voice, speaking more softly into the phone. “Come on, princess. Spit it out. I'm all ears.” “I'm getting cold feet. I don't think I want to have this baby. I'm not so sure.” “Why?” She went quiet. “Did your mom say anything?” “Not much. But it turns out she's using me to stall the divorce. I don't think she ever truly loved me...I don't want to be that kind
~~ DEREK ~~ I watched how she swallowed nervously, her slender fingers massaging her collarbones. And I meant every word I said. She signed a contract. She was bound to me for at least six months. And I intended to make the most of those six months. So I decided something. If Bria refused to sign the divorce papers, I'd separate from her temporarily. She was headstrong. Unrepentant. Manipulative. While my private investigator and Fred worked things out with the paperwork, I'll take Tianna somewhere else. Where we could be together. Away from Bria's anger and jealousy. Away from Hudson's constant presence that seemed to throw her off at every opportunity. “So…so what does that mean?” I took her hand in mine, gently, before dipping down and pressing my nose against the back of her hand. God, she smelt of honey and roses. Roses. Other women would kill for a rose bouquet, but this woman in front of me smelled exactly like it. Exquisite. She was the most beau
~~ TIANNA ~~ “Mom?” I heard her sniffle like she’d been crying, and I dug my nails into the sheets. My grip over the phone tightened. “Mom, are…are you crying?” “What does it matter? Our family is ruined. Your dad’s in between life and death. My only daughter is sleeping around. And it’s with a man that’s been there for our family.” She sobbed. Her words knifed through my chest. “Mom. Please listen.” "What's there to listen to? You hurt Mrs. Monroe badly. I’d never seen her break down like that. I never thought my daughter would be the one to make her like that. Not in a thousand years. She was so good to us. To you.” A lump rose in my throat at that admission. I knew it. Why didn’t I think of this before? Of course Bria called my mom. That’d be the first thing anyone would do. And the woman was predictable. To be honest with myself. No matter how Derek tried to paint Bria black. That she deserved this and all. I knew what my mom just said was true.
~~ TIANNA ~~ He went silent on the other end. Like, he didn't get what I just said. He could pretend all he wanted, block his ear out, and stuff, but I was leaving. I called my mom already. I was going back home. “Is that her? Are you leaving in the middle of our conversation because of Tianna?” Bria's voice sounded from the receiver. Faint. Desperate. Angry. Shit. He was coming here. I could hear his dull footsteps from the other end until they grew louder and the door swung open. “You’re not going anywhere. You’d stay right here. And get better.” He said, walking up to me. I winced as the anesthetics were beginning to wear out and the biting ache in my shoulder resumed. "Please, Derek. Let me leave. I need to take care of my dad.” “You’re the one who needs to be cared for. And if you think I’m sending you back to them in such a bad shape, then think again.” His jaw was clenched in that unwavering determination that assured me he wouldn’t let me go that eas
~~ DEREK ~~ "What...what...what are you talking about?” Hudson stammered, looking from me to Bria, his eyes wide with disbelief. “Mom? What is he talking about?” Bria’s face looked ashen with fear, but she masked it up with a small smile. “Can you give me and your dad a minute, honey? Wait outside.” Hudson shook his head, determined to get answers. I released her chin, stepping away from her with anger still searing inside of me. "No, ma. What does he mean by that? I’m not his son? How’s that even possible?” I turned away from them, pouring myself more whiskey. I didn’t have time for this drama. I didn’t want to leave Tianna all alone. She still needed care. She needed me. “Derek, please explain to your son that you’re just mad at me. There’s no truth in what you just said.” My lips lingered around the glass, savoring the aftermath of the liquor burn in my throat before I took another sip. My private investigator, Marvin. He was fast. In just a year of h
~~ HUDSON ~~ Her eyes widened, then her lips grew thinner, like I’d just said the most impossible thing. I knew it. Hell, I felt it. Every bit of Tianna’s attraction toward me. It was pathetically naive to think I didn’t know she had a huge crush on me. Something that has developed from one silly crush to unconditional love. At the start, I was young and stupid. She was our maid’s daughter. Chubby kid. Plump freckled cheeks. Light brown hair, and she always wore the cutest smile. Only for me. I’d hated how much she smiled at me. How she shared her cheap snacks with me. And how she was always staring at me through the peephole in my door each time I didn’t let her into my room. I had lots of toys, friends, and family, so it was easy to ignore her then. But as we grew older, I started to see her for who she truly was. Tianna only reserved the cutest smiles for me. She was usually obnoxious to the adults and never let other kids bully her. She was a figh







