CHAPTER 7 - FINDING HER

Amos’ POV

“What have I done?” I thought as I took off my clothes, transforming into my wolf form.

Running into the woods, I sought sanctuary in my den. It held so many memories not just of me but those of my lover, my wife, and my mate. I hated to think of her as dead, gone, out of reach and I have lived my life like she was here, like she wasn't gone, never in all these years have done something like I did tonight. A few years, months, weeks, and even days from now I was not in any way open to the idea of another mate, it had never once crossed my mind but tonight, I not only found my new mate but I already marked and mated with her.

“Damn it,” I roared as I increased my pace, finding this cave was proving harder today, even my nose had lost the scent of it.

I kept running and running but it was useless I was going around in circles.

“Arhhhhhggg!!!” I screamed as I brought myself to a halt.

Sitting on top of a rock and staring at the moon, I struggled to calm my still heavy breathing.

Thinking back at everything that had happened in the last week, I struggled to make sense of the different scenarios that led to where things were right now.

It all started when this strange human became Angie's tutor, I could perceive her scent from my room and I knew she was human, I came to find out what was going on and I bumped into her.

“Avery, meet my Father, Mr. Amos,” I remember Angie said as she introduced her to me.

There was definitely something different about her and that was all the more reason I couldn't trust her.

I watched her for a while, a week to be precise, she taught Angie so well and I couldn't find a fault in her, I decided to stay clear from her after our encounter in my office.

She had clearly lost her way to the kitchen and ended up in my office, one minute I was looking at her, and the next minute, I pinned her against the wall, her scent was unmistakable and I needed a better sniff.

“My goodness,” I whispered as just the memory of her did wonders to my body, more especially in wolf form.

Tonight was entirely something else, I couldn't leave her side, I needed to be close to her, I made several excuses to stay by her side, shocked that she could bake.

“How many things could she do?” I thought in perplexity.

I watched her dance and bake, she seemed to have really loved baking and I wondered why she left her job in that bakery. All that flour and butter, but nothing could hide her scent, my control was snapping, I couldn't help it, I watched her body move from one side to another, her breast giggled and my mouth was watering, I caught myself drooling so many times.

“Get yourself together,” I admonished myself so many times but nothing helped.

My wolf was going crazy on the inside, he needed to have his mate, it had been too long a time and he needed release.

I didn't know when I lost it, before I knew what was happening I was biting down on her neck and claiming her as mine, her body felt so soft, so perfect and she was mine, I took her again and again, I couldn't get enough, I didn't even know how long it was but I didn't stop until my wolf had enough.

“So beautiful, so perfect,” I whispered and my wolf yearned for more.

When it was done, I came to my senses, I had mated with someone else for the first time in years, I felt like I had betrayed my first love but that pain didn't run as deep as the pain I felt when I remembered that she was human. Half-human, full-human, in my dictionary, it meant the same thing, I couldn't believe she had to be the one. One from the lot I despise, the people I hate so much.

“Why did it have to her,” I roared into the darkness and my voice echoed back from between the trees.

I remember my wife, my lover, she was my whole world, we were high school lovers, we mated at a very young age and she helped me all the way, she believed in me when no one else did, and she gave me two wonderful children and we had a perfect family, she always told me I would be alpha no matter what but she didn't stay to see me live her dream.

“These cursed humans,” I screamed in anger as I remembered how she died.

Suddenly something strange began to happen, my memories became foggy, I couldn't make out her face anymore and every time I tried to think of her, it was Avery's face I saw, she was fading away from my memories and Avery was replacing her.

“No!!!” I screamed but there was nothing I could do, it was beyond my control.

This was my wolf telling me that I could no longer hold anyone but Avery as my mate, my wolf had chosen her for some reason and that was never going to change.

As I struggled to accept all that was happening and this new development, I began to rethink everything that had happened tonight, she had saved Angie from being embarrassed, had made cakes and pastries on emergency when she was supposed to be enjoying the party and how did I repay her?

Memories of what happened after we mated flooded my mind, it was her first time but my wolf wasn't patient enough to take it easy on her, she let me in, and she let me take her, claim her but after I did… I rejected her and ran away like a fool.

“I have to find her,” I said as I thought of the implication of what I had done, it was all me, I went to her and claimed her and now I had to take responsibility.

I began to run back to the castle with greater speed than I had left, hoping she was still at the anniversary.