Few minutes later, someone knocked on my bedroom door.
“Come in!” Skyler came in while holding a tray filled with foods
“Here’s your food.”
“Why are you the one bringing that?”
“I volunteered because I wanted to ask you something.”
“And what is that?” I asked as I sip from the glass of orange juice. Skyler is the youngest among the four of us. He’s a singer and he’s like a baby to me. Well, I could say he’s definitely a different breed compared to my other brothers.
“How can you do that?”
“Do what?”
“Being bold, being tough, being brave and being fearless. How can you answer father and grandfather without fear? Because, in my case, I get shivers all over my body down to my spine with just a single glance from them. But you, you can be that brave even with those glares from them.”
“Was that supposed to be a compliment or not? I should be happy about that, should I?”
“Of course! There’s no way I’m insulting my favorite sister!”
“Skyler, I’m your only sister.” I placed the glass down and laid down on the bed. I answered his question while staring at my room’s ceiling. “Do you want to know the secret for that attitude? Skyler, it takes a lot of pain to be like me. Do you know how much pain, hateful words, bullets, cursing, and disappointments I had to endure just to be who I am today? I have to endure all those pains for twenty-eight years and had to accept that I’m a black sheep just to become who I am today.”
“Twenty-eight years? That’s not true! I’m sure there was a time they loved you, especially dad.”
“Actually, there is, probably before they found out my gender. Since I’m the first born, I’m sure dad and grandpa were thrilled.” I sat straight and looked at Skyler. “You know what? Mom said that they prepared an extravagant gender reveal party for me. I’m disappointed though, they didn’t keep any photos or videos, but that’s expected. Anyway! She said that a helicopter was used for the event. A colored power is sprayed from the helicopter. Do you know how funny it is when I think about the disappointed faces of dad and grandpa after seeing pink powders coming out from the helicopter above the sky? I’m just imagining it but I’m already cracking up! I’m sure they were both disappointed but they tried hard to maintain their posture for the media and constituents. Can you imagine that? It’s so funny.” I was laughing while telling the story but Skyler doesn’t look thrilled at all. Well, it’s not really a funny story but it is for me. I’m still glad they somehow set-up an event for me. It was probably the first and last.
“How can you laugh at that?”
“Why? It’s really funny!” It became silent for a couple of minutes. I sighed as I lean my back on my bed’s headboard. “But maybe it’s a defense mechanism I developed? I just laughed the pain away. Skyler, if I let the pain eat me up, I’m at disadvantage and they’re still the winner, and I can’t afford that. Of course, I wasn’t born this way. There were times that it was so painful to the point that ending my life became an option. When Stefano was born, I was happy to have a sibling but I envied him a lot. You know that our birthdays are just days apart, right? He had the most extravagant birthday but I had nothing, literally nothing. Mom was the only person who celebrated my birthday, dad didn’t even greet me or maybe he didn’t remember it at all. But you know what? There was a time that I was above Stefano. Did you know he didn’t have a gender reveal? They probably got traumatized by mine, so, they never had it. It was just a small celebration, but that was after dad and grandpa confirmed his gender beforehand. At least I had something he didn’t have.”
Well, what I said was all true. If I let them beat me up emotionally, I’ll still be the loser and the laughingstock. I’m still the loser now, unfortunately, but at least I’m a bitch who doesn’t let myself get stepped on, that’s better isn’t it? Maybe, it’s more of like I’m still fighting? Yeah, not a complete loser yet since the game is not yet over.
“What about the marriage with Brian?”
“Oh, hell no! Never going to happen. Over my dead body! NEVER!”
“Why? Aren’t you dating him from two years now?”
“Oh that?” I took a bite from the salmon steak before answering my brother. “I only dated him out of boredom. You know how dad pressured me to date Brian for some business schemes or whatever? I just did it since I’m bored with life. I mean, Brian is good looking but he is a complete jerk. Also, I dated him to piss off his sister, Bria, because she’s my rival and I just simply dislike her.”
I mean, Brian is not that bad and he’s an actor too. But he is definitely not a husband material. I’ll live in hell if I get tied to him.
“What are you planning to do?”
“Dump him? I’m planning to break up with him anyway, and they just gave me another reason to do it. Who knows? He could be screwing with another woman right now?”
“You’ll be fine, right?”
“Of course! When was I not fine?”
“You’re not, for twenty-eight years.”
“Oh, well, at least I’m still stunning.” I put down my fork and knife before laying back on my bed. “Bring the food tray with you as you leave. Don’t forget to close the door.”
“Fine, goodnight sis. Call me if you need backup with your jerk boyfriend.”
“Oh, you mean jerk ex-boyfriend?” Both of us just chuckled. As soon as Skyler left my room, my emotion switched faster than light. Ugh! This is reality! This is the Savannah they never know and will never get to see; the weak, fragile and soft.
I would lie if I say that I did not love Brian even for just a split second. He is a complete jerk and red flag, but I messed up seeing red and instead I saw green. I thought I could change him, but no. I caught him cheating multiple times and half of those were painful. The other half? Oh, well just burn to hell.
I wiped my tears before deciding to take a bath so I can sleep. Someone like Brian, dad, and grandfather doesn’t deserve my tears anymore.
I left the mansion early the next day because I have another photoshoot. After finishing my exhausting schedule, it really is exhausting because we did motion shots which I totally hate, I went to my soon-to-be ex-boyfriend’s penthouse.I step out of the elevator that directly brings me to the penthouse. I searched around and saw no one inside. Did he leave? Where the hell is that jerk?I was about to call him but I started hearing moaning noises from his room. I slowly walked towards the room and opened the door and there I saw him having intercourse with a woman that I never saw before.I knocked on the door while leaning on it. The two were to startled after seeing me. The girl covered her body with the blanket while Brian wraps a towel on his waist before approaching me.“What are you doing here?” he angrily asked. “Why didn’t you call me before coming?”“Why? Is your girlfriend not allowed to be here now? Sorry to disturb you, you probably haven’t reached the climax yet.” He trie
I woke up because of the sun shining to my face. I rubbed my eyes and stretched my body until I started feeling pain on my abdomen. That is where reality strikes. I opened my eyes and panickily looked under the blanket.Holy shit I’m naked! Oh my gosh, what did I do?!I slowly turned around a saw a man, naked, sleeping. I slightly lifted my head to see his face and... HOLY CRACKERS IT’S CAMERON! I had sex with my bodyguard?! Oh my gosh! I am in total panic and shock right now! I... I fucking lost my virginity to my bodyguard?! To a mere bodyguard?!Focus Savannah! You have to get out of here!I slowly reached for my clothes on the floor and immediately wears them. I grabbed my purse and quietly left the hotel room. I tried my best to hide my face while walking to the parking lot. I can’t be seen by anyone at this state! I’ll be on the headlines of gossip magazines if that happens!Luckily, I reached my car without anyone recognizing me. I took deep breathes as soon as I entered my car
The first thing I did as I wake up is to rush to my bathroom and throw up. This is the second day I’m doing this early in the morning! This is crazy! I don’t know if I ate something bad or what. There are also days I feel dizzy, sleepy and tired for no reason.I stood up and grabbed the cordless phone on my bedside table.“Hello, this is Savannah. Tell Cameron to come up here,” I order the butler from the other line. I hanged up the phone after and laid down on my bed. Few minutes later, someone knocked on my door and Cameron entered.“You were looking for me miss?” “Yeah, buy a box of Hawaiian pizza, large milkshake and large fries. My card is on my wallet on that table beside you,” I commanded without even glancing at him. I didn’t hear anything from him so I looked. I saw him standing and just staring at me. “What are you looking at? Didn’t you hear me? I said—”“Are you sick?” I just stared at him for a few seconds and did not answer him.“Do what I just said. Stop crossing the l
I am feeling nauseous and I’m not even half way to my room! My room is on the other side and I’m way too far to reach it, and I can feel that I’m about to throw up anytime now. I opened the door on the first room I reached and didn’t even bother knocking. I ran to the room’s bathroom and started vomiting on the toilet. “WHAT THE HELL SAVANNAH?!” I heard Sylvester yell. Oh, I think it’s his room. I didn’t face him and continued vomiting. I didn’t even saw him when I entered. After a few minutes, I stopped throwing up. I stood up and was startled when I saw Sylvester. “Why are you standing there like a ghost?” “Why did you barge in my room without even knocking?” “As you can see, I’m dying.” I stepped out and saw a woman on his bed, half naked but covering herself with a blanket. “It’s early in the morning but you’re already in action.” “Did you just get home? Are you sick?” I turned to Sylvester and gave him a judging look. “When are you going to stop messing around with women?”
The next day, I woke up with morning sickness...again. I sat on the bathroom’s floor after vomiting. I am tired of this shit every single morning...but what can I do? There’s a human being growing inside my belly. I gently massage my belly while starring at it. “Don’t give too much pain to me. I’m dealing with this alone, so I expect you to cooperate.” What am I even doing? I’m talking to my belly. I can’t still process everything completely but I know that I have to face reality because I have a fetus inside of me. Honestly, abortion came to my mind but thinking of killing an innocent child inside of me is killing me already. I stood up and looked myself in the mirror. Damn! I look horrible! I am a mess! I barely slept last night. I lifted my shirt and looked at my belly through the mirror and realized that in a few months it will start growing forming a bump. How long can I hide this pregnancy? A knock on my door got my attention. I pulled down my shirt before opening the door.
I took a deep breath before entering the room. As soon as I opened the door, I saw various people inside.Those judgmental eyes! They are probably judging my entire existence right now.I felt someone hold my arm and I saw Stefano as I turn around.“You can’t face all those gazes alone. This is not your first time, be more realistic and stop throwing tantrums even for just one night.” I pulled my arms away from him and glared at him.“I’m not the one throwing tantrums, your father is. Mind your own business.”“This is the most I can do for my older sister. Better just sit back and do nothing.” He walked away and left me. I calmed myself down. Now that I’m pregnant, my emotions are more sensitive. I get angry even at the smallest things. I just decided that it’s best for me to lay low because stress would do no good for me and my baby.I walked towards my family who’s busy talking with the Morgan family. Basically, Morgan family is our relative. My dad and the chairwoman of MGH Company
It’s been three weeks since the event and I am currently in the hospital for a check-up. I’m having an ultrasound right at this very moment.“Look here Savannah.” She pointed something on the monitor. “This is your child. She or he is still small but you can see that it’s slowly developing. In three to five months, you’ll be able to know the gender.”I can feel tears slowly fall from my eyes. I can’t help but smile and feel emotional as I stare at the monitor.“Oh! The baby is moving!” I exclaimed.“She or he is probably excited to meet you.”After my check-up, I proceed to a five-star restaurant. I’m meeting Cassandra for lunch.“Sorry, am I late?” I worriedly asked as soon as I arrived. The longer I stare at her, the longer I realize how pretty she is. She could be a model considering her exceptional height too.“No, I just arrived too. What do you want to eat?”“I’m fine with a steak or any of your recommendations. I never tried this place before.”“Really? You’ve never been to thi
It became more awkward between me and Cameron after that confrontation. I don’t what pushed me to lie to him but I thought that it’s the best decision for now.But I’m really offended on what he said. He now knows why I’m the black sheep? Does he mean that I deserve to be treated like shit? I really swear to kick his ass one day!Another two weeks has passed. I’m at the living room waiting for my foods to get delivered when Skyler came.“What are you doing here?” “Why? Am I not allowed to be here now?” He just stood in front me while starring at me weirdly. “What do you want? Why are you looking at me like that?”“I don’t know. You’re getting weirder and weirder.” Oh gosh, does he know? Can he notice?I’m about to answer him but my delivery arrived. I picked it up and was about to go back to my room but Skyler stopped me.“Are those fast foods? Ah! I know what’s weird with you! I keep seeing you eating fast foods and junk foods! Are you not dieting?”“Why? Am I not allowed to eat wha