LOGINCassie
I’ve never been to a café like this before. White marble tables. Gold accents on everything. The kind of place where the lighting is soft enough to make everyone look expensive. There’s a glass case near the counter filled with pastries that probably cost more than my grocery budget for a week. I’m sitting by the window, both hands wrapped around a water glass because I need something to hold onto. The waitress brought it in a bottle. An actual glass bottle with a label I couldn’t pronounce and a slice of lemon balanced on the rim. My phone says 1:58 PM. She said two. My leg is bouncing under the table. I try pressing my palm against my knee to stop it but my whole body feels like it’s vibrating. Like I’m coming apart at the seams and the only thing holding me together is the fact that I’m sitting in public and can’t fall apart here. The door opens. A woman steps inside and I know before she even looks around. That’s her. Katrina Petrova. She’s wearing a long coat. Navy blue. The fabric looks heavy and expensive, tailored so perfectly it doesn’t move when she walks. Her hair is pulled back, dark brown with streaks of gray she hasn’t bothered hiding. She’s beautiful in that tired way. Like she used to care about things like that but doesn’t have the energy anymore. Her eyes scan the room. Then lands on me. I lift my hand halfway. It feels awkward and stupid. But she’s already walking over and it’s too late to pretend I didn’t. “Miss Brennan?” “Yes.” I start to stand but she waves me down. “Please. Don’t.” She sets her bag on the empty chair beside her and sits across from me. “Thank you for meeting me.” Up close, she’s even more put-together than I expected. Her makeup is perfect. No cracks. No smudges. But her eyes give her away. There are shadows under them that powder can’t quite hide. The waitress appears out of nowhere. “Can I get you anything, ma’am?” “Double espresso.” Katrina doesn’t look at her. The waitress leaves. Katrina folds her hands on the table. Looks at me like she’s trying to decide something. I don’t know what to say so I sit there, waiting. “I’ll be direct with you,” she says finally. Her voice is smooth and controlled. But there’s something underneath it that sounds like exhaustion. “I don’t have time to waste and I suspect neither do you.” I nod because if I try to speak, I’ll lose it. “My son needs a caregiver. He’s…” She pauses. Glances down at her hands. “He’s difficult. That’s the polite version.” I swallow. “Difficult how?” Her mouth tightens just slightly. “The last caregiver quit after three days. The one before that lasted a week. I’ve hired eight people in the last six months and none of them stayed.” Eight people. In six months. “What happened?” I ask. She looks up and meets my eyes. “He’s cruel when he’s in pain. And he’s always in pain.” The waitress returns with the espresso. Set it down gently and leave without a word. Katrina doesn’t touch it. “He won’t talk to me,” she continues. Her voice is quieter now. “Won’t let me help him. He locks himself in his studio and refuses to come out for days. He throws things. Refuses physical therapy. Refuses to eat half the time.” She stops and take a breath. “He’s drowning right in front of me and I can’t reach him.” There’s a crack in her voice at the end. Small. Almost too small to notice. But I hear it. “I’ve tried everything,” she continues. “Therapists. Doctors. Different medications. Nothing works. And every time I hire someone new, every time I think maybe this person will be different, he pushes them away. He’s so angry and I don’t…” She trails off and look out the window. “I don’t know how to save him.” I should say something. I should tell her I understand or that I’m sorry or literally anything. But the words stick in my throat because all I can think is that my brother did this. My brother is the reason her son is drowning. The reason she’s sitting here in this expensive café, desperate enough to hire a stranger. She opens her bag. Pulls out a thick folder and sets it on the table between us. “This is the contract,” she says. “I want to walk you through it so there are no surprises.” My hands are still in my lap. I don’t reach for it, just stare at the folder. “The position is live-in,” she continues. “But I’m willing to be flexible. Four days a week at the estate. Three days you’re free to maintain your work at the hospital, your personal life, whatever you need. I understand you have family obligations.” I blink. “How did you know I—” “I did my research, Miss Brennan.” She opens the folder. Slides a sheet of paper toward me. “Your mother is a patient at St. Mercy’s. Stage four cancer. Surgery scheduled for…” She glances at the paper. “Well. Pending funding, I assume.” My chest goes cold. She knows. “I’m not trying to invade your privacy,” she says quietly. “I’m explaining why I think you’ll stay when the others didn’t. You need this job. And I need someone who won’t quit the first time my son screams at them.” I look down at the paper. At my mother’s name printed there in black ink. At the diagnosis I’ve been trying not to think about. “The pay is twenty thousand dollars per month,” Katrina says. She taps a line on the contract. “Six months. One-twenty thousand total.” “But there are conditions,” she continues. Of course there are. She pulls out another page. Points to a section highlighted in yellow. “If you quit before three months, you’ll only be compensated for time worked. Standard hourly rate.” She looks at me. “That’s roughly eighteen thousand dollars. Nowhere near enough for what you need.” My hands are shaking again. I press them flat against my thighs under the table. “If you complete three months, you receive a signing bonus. Sixty thousand dollars.” She taps the page. “Enough to deposit for your mother’s surgery. Enough to keep you stable while you finish the contract.” Sixty thousand dollars. Three months. I can do three months. I have to. “And if you complete the full six months,” she continues, “you receive the remaining sixty thousand dollars plus an additional completion bonus. One thirty-five thousand total.” My lungs forget how to work. The number sits there between us. Impossible. “I need someone who will commit,” she says. Her voice barely cracks again. “I can’t keep doing this. Hiring someone new every week. Watching him destroy himself. Watching him push everyone away until there’s no one left.” She stops. Blinks hard. “He’s my son. He’s all I have and I’m losing him.” Her eyes are wet. She blinks again and it’s gone. Just like that. Back to composed. “I know this isn’t easy work,” she says. “I know he’s going to make your life hell and he will. But if you can last three months—just three months—you’ll save your mother’s life. And maybe…” She trails off and looks down at the contract. “Maybe you’ll save his too.” I look down at the contract. At the numbers. At the clauses written in language I barely understand. Three months and my mom lives. Six months and maybe I can freely breathe again. But every day I’m there, I’ll be lying to him. Every day, I’ll know what my brother did. I look up to see Katrina watching me. Waiting. “Where do I sign?”CassieThe words die in my throat, but she didn’t push.“You’re stronger than you think, Cassie. I see it even if you don’t. Whatever you’re facing, you’ll find a way through it.”The door closes softly behind her and I’m left sitting in my chair staring at the space where she was, her words echoing in the sudden quiet.I should sleep.I know I should sleep.But every time I close my eyes I see Mara’s face, hear her voice demanding to know if Kai knows what Miles did, and sleep feels impossible.*****It’s past two in the morning when I finally make myself leave my room.The hallway is still dark except for the small lights along the baseboards, just enough to see by without illuminating much of anything. I’m heading toward Kai’s bedroom when I hear movement from his studio, the faint sound of wheels on hardwood. He’s still awake. My footsteps slow and then redirect, carrying me to his studio door instead.I stop outside his studio door and stand there with my hand raised to knock,
CassieI’m pacing my room and the floor feels too small, the walls pressing in from all sides, my brain spinning so fast I can’t make it slow down long enough to land on a single coherent thought.Mara’s face won’t leave me alone. The way she looked at me on that sidewalk, the fury burning in her eyes when she saw the Petrova name on that car, the way her voice shook when she said does he know what Miles did to his sister.And Kai’s window.It was cracked open, just slightly but could sound carry forty feet through city noise or was he too far away, was he distracted, was he even paying attention to two people arguing on a sidewalk?I walk from the bed to the window and back again, my feet wearing a path in the carpet. What did he hear? The question circles through my head on an endless loop and I can’t make it stop, can’t find an answer no matter how many times I replay every second of that scene.He didn’t say anything on the drive back. Didn’t ask a single question. Just sat in th
KaiWhen we get back to the mansion John comes around to help me out of the car. Cassie moves like she’s going to help too but I stop her before she can get close.“I’ve got it.”She steps back immediately, her hands dropping to her sides like I slapped them away.“Thank you,” she says quietly, first to John and then to me. “For coming with me today. You didn’t have to do that.”I don’t respond, just transfer into my chair and head for the entrance. Behind me I hear her footsteps follow for a few seconds before they veer off toward the staff wing where her room is, and then I’m alone heading for the lift that’ll take me up to my floor.My wing is quiet when I get there, the hallway empty and still in that way it always is. I wheel myself to my bedroom and once I’m inside with the door closed I pull out my phone and stare at it.I didn’t hear the full conversation on that sidewalk. Just those fragments. “For the Petrovas” and “Does he know what—” and then something that got swallowed
KaiI’m in the front seat staring at the apartment building and thinking this is the first time I’ve been outside in five years, the first time I’ve left the mansion grounds for anything, and it wasn’t even for myself.It was for a girl I don’t know who got suspended for fighting.It was for Cassie.The realization doesn’t sit well but I don’t have time to examine it because Cassie and her sister are standing on the sidewalk about forty feet from the car and whatever’s happening between them looks like it’s about to combust. I sit here and watch through the window as Cassie tries to calm down a girl who looks like she’s about ready to explode.Mara—Cassie talked about her that night in my studio doorway, talked about her sharp edges and her anger—is standing there with her whole body pulled tight like a wire about to snap. Her arms are gesticulating and even from this distance I can see the fury radiating off her in waves.She reminds me of Lily. Not her face or anything physical, j
CassieWe pull up outside our building and Mara has the door open before we’ve fully stopped, her feet hitting the sidewalk and carrying her toward the entrance.I call thank you to the driver over my shoulder and scramble out after her. “Mara, wait—”She stops walking and turns around. We’re maybe forty feet from the car. Close enough that if Kai’s window is open, even a crack, he might be able to hear us.I don’t know if it is and I don’t dare to turn back.Mara’s looking at me and there’s something in her face I’ve never seen before, something that’s past anger and into territory I don’t know how to navigate.“You’re working for him, Cassie. For the Petrovas. After what Miles did—” She stops, her voice breaking. “How could you?”The way she says the name makes it sound like a curse. “Mara, keep your voice—”“Oh you don’t get to do that.” She shakes her head and her hands ball into fists at her sides. “You don’t get to tell me to keep my voice down, not with what you’re risking. Are
Mara is staring at me, waiting for me to deny it, to tell her she’s wrong, to say something that makes this make sense. But I can’t. The words are stuck somewhere in my throat and all I can do is stand here on the sidewalk outside her school while the silence between us grows heavier with every second that passes.Her eyes narrow. “Cassie.”It’s not a question. It’s a demand. I grab her arm before she can say anything else, my fingers closing around her elbow harder than I mean to.“Get in the car,” I say quietly. “We’ll talk about this at home.”She yanks away from me but she moves toward the car anyway because what choice does she have. I’m her ride home. I’m the one who showed up when the school called. I’m the only person she’s got right now even if she hates me for it.The back door opens and Mara climbs in, her boots scraping against the doorframe on the way. She glances once at Kai through the gap between the seats, just long enough for me to see her taking him in, filing aw
Cassie The first thing I think when Mrs Rosalind opens the door and steps aside to let me in, is the room is beautiful.It’s bigger than the living room in my apartment. There’s a queen-sized bed with a thick comforter that looks like it’s never been slept in, a dresser, a desk and chair by the w
CassieKatrina goes still. Like she wasn’t expecting me to say yes so fast.Then she reaches into her bag. Pulls out a pen and slides it across the table.It’s heavy when I pick it up. The kind of pen that feels important just holding it.I flip to the last page.There’s a line at the bottom with t
CassieI don’t know how long I sit there. Could be twenty minutes. Could be an hour. Time feels strange right now, like it’s moving too fast and too slow at the same time.Eventually I get up. My legs are stiff and my back aches from sitting on the hard floor, but I make it to the break room and po
CassieThe break room smells like burnt coffee and something else I can’t quite place. Maybe it’s the trash nobody’s taken out in three days, or maybe it’s just the weight of too many double shifts soaking into the walls. I don’t know anymore.It’s three in the morning. The fluorescent lights overh







