Recap of book 1

Rose's Pov

“Do not worry about it Rose…I am sure Jason gave you a much better compliment than her , right?...Come on , tell us what the big beast said about the way you look ” one of the twins try to lighten up the mood. I slowly lift my head , the fakest smile is upon my face. My eyes are rapidly closing and opening , my attempt to keep the tears at bay.

“He said…I should not have bought you that dress…” instantly I hear someone yelp in pain as on the  twins mourn about being kicked in the shin. Jared takes a hold of my hand and gives me a small smile. I just want this night to end. While looking around , my eyes stops at someone. Olivia sits at a table far away , laughing with the rest of the table. My mind clicks – if she is here , why did Jason and Nicole go upstairs. I get up from the table and instantly Jared gets up to.

“I am going to the bathroom…” and which that he lets me go. I exit the hall , with my heart in my hand. I hear the clicking sound of my heels hitting against the tiles , and after a while I bend down to take them off. It is really hard to walk with them without someones support. My mind is racing with different thoughts – where is Jason , and is Nicole with him?

I finally get up to our level and I slowly walk in the abandoned hall way. Its so silent , except the light chattering I could hear from the hall. I continue to walk until I hear two voices. I can not hear what they say , but all I know is that the voices belong to Jason and Nicole  - and that is coming from his office which is at the end of the passage. I slowly walk towards the office , trying to make out what they are saying. As I come near the office , I noticed that they are not speaking any more. I am one step away from the open door , and when I peep inside…

…My entire world comes crashing down…

Hurriedly , I push my clothes into my duffle bag – the same  duffle bag that I used when I was asked to stay at this mansion. Thoughts of that day , makes my tears flow even harder. My hair drops over my shoulders , getting in the way of my movement – while wiping my tears , strands of them are getting stuck to my face which just amps my frustration and anger. I run my hand through my hair , and it gets stuck on the hair piece which was given to me. Angrily , I tear the hair piece away from my hair which hurts – however , the physical pain I feel is not as bad as how emotionally hurt I am. When the hair piece is away , I tie my hair with a hair tie .

“Why would he want you…” I whisper to myself , while packing all of my own things. I do not take away the things Jason had bought for me – I came to this house with my things and I will leave with it. After packing my duffle bag , I quickly throw over my black hoody over the dress. I have no time to be change , I have to leave this place – now!! I put my hoody hat on and I make my way to door , before leaving I look back one last time – the tears never stop falling. I remember how he had made me feel in this room, how much care and affection he showed me. I look away and walk out the door.

I walk past his office , slowly creeping. I realized then that there is no one on this floor – this means they are downstairs. I start rushing , I start running downstairs. Instead of walking going through the front door which is near the hall , I rush to the back door which is deserted because of the ball. As soon as I feel the nights air hit my skin , I start running. The pain and the anger fuels me , and my legs start running which leaves the mansion in a distance. However , when I reach the the mansions gate I see the gate keeper. He looks at me with strange calculating eyes . I see him take his hand to his mouth , and speaks into his sleeve – there I knew he was alerting Jason.

“Excuse me , ma’m…” before he had a chance to place his hand on my shoulder , I push him after mustering all the anger and hurt I feel inside. I watch him stumble back and fall – and with that he trips on a rock and falls to the ground. I did not wait for him to get up , as I sprinted towards the gate. It began to close but just in time , I slipped through. When I looked back , I see a bunch of security running outside the mansions door. I took this a head start and began sprinting home.

However , my plan to run home had a huge flaw in it. It was dark and I did not foresee what would happen next. After making good distance from the mansion , I began walking. I felt as if I was  a zombie – I was limping due to the pain I felt for running barefoot. The nights cold air bite at my legs as it made its way through the splint in the dress. What made me so zombie like is the fact that I felt I had no heart , I felt nothing. I felt dead inside. I tried making excuses for Jason – I kept making excuses that what I saw was not what it seemed but my heart would not believe them.

I was them..I was them as clear as day. The way he held the side of her face , the way he looked her in the eyes with such love and admiration – the same way he looked at me. I kept watching as he drew her face closer to his , I watched as she sat on his lap the way I had did. I saw her bright red lips get closer to his , and he did not fight her. Those crimson lips locked with his own , and I saw the passion that they both shared. I heard her moan in his mouth , I watched as he closed his eye tight from the pleasure. Thinking about makes my dead heart hurt , if that’s possible. That’s why I decided to run away and leave that letter for him. I hope he finds it , and I hope he leaves me alone. I can no longer hold it in any more , I lift my head to the sky and scream until my lungs collapse due to the lack of oxygen.  The pain I feel is immense , and this is the only way I can express it. He made me feel at home with him – I was fine being alone at home , even then I never felt alone but he made me feel at home and then he betrays me. I continue dragging my feet , until I feel grass underneath me – when I look around , I realize I unconsciously walked off the road. While looking at my surroundings , my leg lands on a grass patch which breaks underneath me. I fall through the ground , feeling my body scrap against the tunnel like slide which I continue to slide down.

When I finally reach the bottom , I feel my body covered in gravel. I groan when i try to get up – I feel my body ache all over. When I finally get up and dust myself off , I feel a liquid drip down my leg – I do not have to look at it to know it is blood. However , I look to see the damage , and cry out in pain as see a deep gash in my thigh. I look up , trying to see if it is possible to climb out – it is not. I am faced towards a wall made of white bricks – there are creepers growing along it. I take a moment to think of ways that I could climb out the hole , however something catches my eye. I see a something shine from behind me which illuminates the white brick wall that I face. I slowly turn back . This small tunnel continues until  , I see an opening – in the distance I see something that peaks my interest and curiosity.  I walk along the tunnel , and when I go through the creepers that fall from the end of the tunnel – my breath is taken away.  I see before me an underground town – its abandoned however the few houses are still intact , some are even broken down. I step out the the tunnel  and limp along the path , looking at the houses to the left and to the right of me. 

I keep limping , until my eyes meet something ahead of me. The hill that was blocking is now gone as I walked up the hill. I find myself looking a a huge castle , however the castles roof has collapsed – making it look smaller than it supposed to be.

“Wow!” I exclaim , feeling myself get lost in its majesty. My heart skips a beat , and I slight jump causing me to hurt my leg. I hiss in pain and afterwards turn my head to see a soldier – he looks young , he stands quite close to me and he blows a trumpet. He continues to blow and my ears ring from it’s loudness.

“Excuse me!” I scream at him while blocking my ears , however he does not hear me. He turns still blowing into the instrument and I think he is going to hit into me but instead , as soon as his trumpet comes into contact with my skin he disappears into dust.

“Fucking hell!” I curse for like the second time. I limp backwards , my heart in my hand – I am beyond scared right now. I hear in a distance , someone loudly announcing something. I turn around slowly , holding my breath.

The once abandoned and destroyed castle , the once dark gloomy underground town is buzzing with life. I am no longer in a cave – I am in this town and this town is up out under the sun. The castle is built up and is free from creepers – there are people walking around , soldiers on guard. I look at the castle and something about it looks so familiar, like I have seen it before. While scanning the castle I see it’s flag flying in the wind – and just like that I feel myself falling to my knees , ignoring all the pain as I feel it all coming back to me.

Jason’s Pov

I feel the cold water splash against my face , wishing it could wash away the guilt I feel. I am currently in the bathroom , feeling to guilt to return to the party and be by Rose’s side I hide away here. How can I face her? How can I be hers after what I had did? I look at my reflection and feel disgusted.

There could have been another way… I hear Xavier’s criticizing voice echo in my head.

No there was not , I had to – for her safety… I reply to his statement.

There really was no other way. Nicole , my ex , had called me upstairs making me think my sister needed help – however , she had other plans in her mind. Long story short , she wanted a kiss – obviously , I told her to fuck off but… she was never one to take no as an answer. She told me she had information , information about Alex – the man I have been hunting for every since what had happened to Rose. Right then , I wanted to tell my men to torture the truth out of her but I could not , not so quickly. I needed to know for sure that she knew him , and had valid information on him. So I kissed her – I kissed her while thinking of Rose. I swear , her kiss was the most fowl thing – she can not compare to my Rose who tastes so sweet and innocent.

I walk out of the bathroom , I know I have to face the music some time – the guilt eats me from the inside out. As I adjust my tux sleeves , someone bumps into me.

“What the – “ I am about to swear this guy , until I realize it is Jared. I calm down down and nod my head at him.

“Jason , have you seen Rose? She said she wanted to go to the bathroom , but she hasn’t returned since and –“ before he could finish , I slap him and pull him closer by his collar.

“You let her go alone?!” I yell in his face. He looks at me with an angry expression.

“Of course! She looked like she wanted to bawl her eyes out because someone was being a jackass!!!” he screams back at me. I am taken back at first.

“What do you mean?” I ask him.

“Jason , seriously dude…You have been ignoring her all fucking night! You fucking complimented that slut of an ex , but you could not even compliment the beauty beside you! Have you not seen the way the men looked at her tonight!? Did you see how she faked a smile whenever you ignored her and left her alone?! You have been nothing but an assh-“ he stops mid sentence , hearing something over hi head set. I am zoned out , thinking of what he said. He was right… I was so tired and exhausted trying to find this guy that I forgot to treat her right. She was looking beautiful , when I first saw her – I hated the fact that other men will be staring at her tonight therefore I said I wish I never bought her that dress. Fuck!!!

“JASON!!!” Jared screams , shaking me awake from my day dream. I look at him , with questioning eyes.

“She’s gone…” he says to me sorrowfully. I feel my heart fall from my chest – she’s gone? Why would she run away?

Take a wild guess…Xavier’s voices in my head

“Jared…Find her..please…” I say letting go of him , I watch him nod at me and runs down the passage screaming commands in his arm. I run with my super speed to her room , I look around noticing what a big difference the room is when she is not her. I walk around looking for her duffle bag , if it is gone – so is she. Unfortunately ,  the duffle bag is gone. I look at her open closet – the clothes I bought her still remain , however the clothes she had brought is gone. My shoes trample on something delicate , I look down and see her hair piece. I bend over and pick it up , It looks as if she tore it of her head – some clumped strands of her hair remain on it. I turn towards her cosmetic table to leave it on it , and I discover a folded piece of paper. With shakey hands , I pick it up and begin to read.

Dear Jason

Thank you for letting me stay in your mansion , and for taking such good care of me. However…

I really hate the fact that you made me feel so loved , so accepted and so adored because at the end – you will always choose her. No matter what I do , no matter how much you try to make yourself believe that I am like Nicole…I am simply not. I would of really appreciated it if you did not treat me this way , if you never showed me what having someone who cares for you feel like – because…when you kissed her tonight , it hurt me in more ways that you realized.

Am I convinced that I love you – and this is not the way I wanted to tell you – but right now , I wish I didn’t. You told me after 3 weeks I should tell you an answer – an answer of whether I wanted you to be my real daddy….Here is my answer.

No!

Rose 

A wet tear drop stain still shows on the “no” of her letter – no doubt that she had been crying. I curse under my breath , she had seen Nicole and I kiss – fucking hell! I feel my heart clench in pain , how could I cause her so much pain! She should not have run away , it is so so dangerous out there for her , but I guess anywhere is better than staying here with me. The guilt in me grows – it suffocates me. Just then , I hear a silent scream in the distance.

“Xavier!!!” I hear with my super hearing , I hear Rose scream Xavier’s name. He answers her call – I find myself at the back seat of my conscious. He takes full control , he uses my legs – sprinting in super speed towards her. The mansion is long gone from our view , the gravel beneath my feet disappears. The soft prickly grass is so much softer to run on – we are off road now. He zooms into a hole in the ground , and finds his way in an underground tunnel.

Home… He thinks , and I hear him…This is what it feels like to me him when I am in control.

We run past broken down houses , it’s a buried town. From a distance , I spot Rose’s curled up body on the floor – Xavier races towards her. How did she get down here? When he is at her side , he knees down by her side lifting up her head and upper body. While she still sits on the floor , he rests her upper body against us. He caresses her hair gently.

“ My Rosemary…” he says out loud.

“She knows Jason…” He says out loud to me.

She knows what?.... I say to him while sitting at the back of my brain , watching everything.

“Everything….”