“Can’t I?” his deep voice echoed through her bones as his face inched closer to hers, making her knees want to cave in.
“Brendan,” Suki swallowed thickly, “H-How? There are guards everywhere along the pack’s borders.”
With a soft and almost gentle expression—something Suki and anyone who crossed paths with him were not accustomed to—Brendan stared at her lips as he held the silence like a great power to possess. He licked his lips slowly, “I have my ways, love. Besides, I’m pretty good at migrating between packs.”
Suki’s breathing became unstable. “If my father catches you here, he’ll go ballistic.”
Arching a brow, “That’s why I came when he wasn’t here. He is such a workaholic,” a soft smirk peeked from the corner of his mouth. “Look at you, the poor little daughter of the Beta being left all alone once again, and this time in a dangerous, cursed pack,” he brought his nose to her neck and exhaled a pleased groan after ingesting her scent.
“I can take care of myself,” she snarled, shoving the heels of her hand into his chest but not hard enough to push him away.
“Oh, I’m sure you can,” Brendan grabbed her wrist before she could retreat it and pinned it beside her head, dragging his other hand down her body and gripping her waist, “but surely taking care of yourself in certain ways isn’t fun alone.” He mused as his hand moved lower and lower, grazing over the silk of her short nightgown before meeting the smooth skin of her thigh. “Surely… you’d prefer to have some company?”
Her eyes widened, “N-No…”
Brendan hummed, “That doesn’t sound very convincing.” He traced his finger softly on her inner thigh, lifting her nightgown slowly as he inched towards her centre.
“Brendan,” she tried to squirm, but he had her locked in place, “we can’t… I’m set to marry the future Alpha of—”
“The hell you are,” he interrupted in a growl. “You are mine.”
Suki shook her head slowly, “Please, we can’t.”
“I can’t get you out of my head,” he purred in her ear, “you take over every thought I have. All I want is you. The Moon Goddess wants it, so why fight it, love? Why push me away?”
Her voice stuttered as her breathing became heavier, “We just… can’t. Trust me.” She looked down at his lips as she gripped his shirt, fighting all the urges bubbling within her.
“I know the feeling is mutual, I know you think about me, too; you crave me just as much as I crave you. The pull we have is too strong for you not to.” Brendan brushed his lips across Suki’s neck and then planted a soft kiss on her most sensitive part. She felt like she was melting as she whimpered softly. “See,” he met his eyes with hers once more, gazing deep into her soul, “you lean into my touch, embrace my scent, you want me.”
“Please…”
Tell me to leave, he said through the faintness of their mental bond, only accessible when they’re close enough to each other and will only become more powerful and fully accessible once the mate bond is sealed. Brendan brought his fingers even higher up her leg. “Tell me to stop, that you don’t want me to touch you where I can smell you craving me most. Tell me and I’ll leave you alone forever.”
No, that was not what she wanted, but she had to resist and push him away. It went against all that felt natural to her, so much so that the words would not come out, no matter how hard she tried.
Leaning her head back against the wall, her body relaxed in defeat of her urges, “I… I can’t,” she whispered so faintly that even with their wolf hearing, it would be difficult for someone to hear.
“Thank fuck for that,” he groaned in relief, releasing her wrist to cup her face in his hand and then leaned in to kiss her.
A brute force pushed Brendan away from Suki before their lips could meet, almost taking her down with him. A rapid breath escaped her mouth as her head felt clouded.
The man who had tackled him to the ground had also pinned him in place. “Don’t you touch her, you filthy Rogue!” he yelled before throwing a hard punch at him.
Blinking repeatedly, Suki felt all the air had escaped her lungs as she cooed, “Rey?” but once she realised she wasn’t hallucinating the person in front of her, she yelped, “Reynard, get off of him!” She gripped his shoulder and pulled him away from Brendan and towards her.
The anger on his face softened immediately as their eyes met, like Suki was giving her warmth to Reynard and soothing him before he did something he’d regret.
“What are you doing here? How did you get here?” Suki asked, confused, stepping closer to him.
“I had to see you. When my father told me you were being offered as a potential bride and would have a forced bond with the future Alpha of Silver Moon, I lost it. I didn’t care what rules I’ve broken to get here. A trainee guard here owed me a favour, and here I am.” He stepped closer and stroked her cheek, “Why haven’t you told your father about—?”
“You son of a bitch,” Brendan groaned, wiping a dribble of blood from the corner of his mouth; the presence of the wound inflicted by Reynard had already healed. He stood speedily and stepped forward.
“Don’t you dare take another step towards her,” Reynard fumed, blocking his path to Suki. A wave of wrath was begging to escape him to protect Suki, but he pushed it aside as he looked at her once more. “Did he hurt you?” he asked, worried.
“No,” she said softly, immediately leaning into him, resting her palms on his chest as he held her close. His ocean-blue eyes almost glowed in the faintly moonlit night. “I’m fine, Rey.”
Promise me. He cupped his hands on her face.
“I promise.”
“I would never hurt her,” Brendan hissed.
Rey snarled, “I’m not asking you, Rogue. As if I would believe a word you say.” He gripped Suki’s shoulders, ignoring Brendan, and scanned her entirely with a face full of concern. He stilled the moment he realised what she was wearing, swallowing a lump in his throat as his eyes widened but also darkened with hunger. Clearing his throat, he tried to compose himself before asking in a partial growl, “Are you sure you’re all right? Did he… Did he touch you?”
She swallowed, unable to truthfully answer that question. He almost touched her, and she almost let him.
He looked over to Brendan and clenched his fists, “I should kill you for laying a finger on her.”
Brendan faked a chuckle, “I can touch her all I want. She’s mine.”
Reynard’s nostrils flared as he stepped towards him, “Say that again, I dare you.”
A lethal smirk grew on Brendan’s face as he also stepped towards Reynard, “I said: she is m—”
“Stop!” Suki shrieked, speeding herself between the two men who were ready to rip each other’s throats out. “You both need to stop misbehaving like this. Everett said that he was sending guards to check on me. If they catch you both, you’ll be in big trouble.”
“Let them come, then they can take away the trash,” Reynard shot a daggering glare at Brendan.
“Oh, that’s rich coming from you,” Brendan scoffed. “Mr Perfect, son of the Gamma wolf, star warrior-in-training of the pack who’s better than most fully trained warriors, worst of all, you pretend you’re humble about it all when it just feeds your ego, I see it in your eyes. Except I know you aren’t perfect, are you? How can you be when Mr Perfect doesn’t get his perfect girl?”
Suki’s vision felt blurred at the sight before her as she pressed a palm against each of the men’s chests in an attempt to keep them apart, “Stop it, please.”
Reynard chuckled, “You sit on your high horse because the Alpha of the Moonstone pack took you in? You think you’re untouchable, but you’re not; we’ve all heard the stories about you, and we all see you for who you truly are: a traitor. You are a Rogue before anything else, and you will never be one of us.”
Brendan pushed himself forward toward Reynard, but Suki used all her strength to keep him at bay. “You don’t know shit about me.”
“Enough, please, both of you, stop right now!” Suki pleaded.
Rage consumed Brendan. He wanted to cause pain, and he knew exactly how to go about it. “Tell me, how much does it hurt knowing your childhood best friend, who you’ve cared for your entire life, has bonded with a Rogue?”
Suki’s heart sank as her body stilled at his statement.
“You’re truly pathetic to come up with such a lie,” Reynard sneered, “Suki is my mate.”
Taken aback, Brendan took a step back, “Either you’re more hopeless and delusional than I initially thought, or you’re just plain stupid. Suki is my mate.”
“Enough of the lies!”
Brendan rolled his eyes, “I don’t lie, especially with something so sacred as this.”
“That’s not possible…” Rey stepped back. “I don’t believe you!”
“Then ask someone you do believe,” he jerked his chin towards Suki.
The dark cloud that fogged Suki’s mind consumed her entirely, and a horrid chill prickled her skin at the realisation that everything was falling apart in front of her. All the suffering she was putting herself through was to protect not just one of them, but both of them—they all didn’t deserve to be shunned for something out of their control.
“Ki?” Reynard cooed the nickname he gave her as children growing up. She had never liked having nicknames, but for him, she always allowed any nickname he wanted to give her. It was because he meant everything to her; he was the only thing in her life that wasn’t forced upon her, their friendship was genuine, just as much as their new feelings for each other.
Suki hugged herself, gripping her arms tightly, but that couldn’t shield her trembling.
Rey’s eyebrows drew together as he kept strong eye contact with her, “Ki, it’s okay. You can tell me anything, you know that, right?”
A tear rolled down her cheek as she nodded, smiling weakly.
“Then, please, tell me… who is your mate?”
Her heart thudded hard in her chest as she stuttered over her words before even beginning to speak. She tried to settle herself, but all she could hear was the thunderous booms of her heartbeat in her ears.
“Which one of us is your mate, Suki?” Brendan added.
She looked at Brendan, then back to Reynard before looking down at the ground. She squeezed her eyes shut and stuttered a sigh, “You both are.”
She could smell Reynard and Brendan making their way towards her. Their scents were stronger in their wolf-states. She knew she wouldn’t have long before they would be with her, but she wasn’t ready to interact with them, so she kept running. Alas, even as a wolf, she couldn’t run forever. Eventually, she came to a slow stop and waited as the two wolves approached her. Suki knew what Rey looked like in his wolf form already—chocolate brown fur that contrasted his piercing ocean blue eyes so beautifully. She had the privilege to see his wolf not long after his birthday, when he had his shifting under control. He was indeed a handsome wolf, one that many female werewolves desired. A sense of pride washed over her, knowing that he was mated to her. Rapidly, her attention switched to Brendan. It was the first time seeing his wolf, and she couldn’t help but admire his beauty as a wolf too—his fur was a deeper shade a brown, almost black, and his night sky eyes glistened, reflecting the
The silence was deafening. Erin’s mouth had fallen wide open from all that Suki had dropped on her. Her gaze shifted between Suki’s eyes, which were streaming with tears. “Please,” Suki palmed her face, wiping away the tears as more continued to dampen her face, “say something.” Blinking the shocked expression off her face, Erin sucked in a deep breath, “Two mates…” She cleared her throat, trying to piece together how on Earth this was even possible. “You feel the pull with them both, at the same time?”Suki nodded. Erin rubbed her temple, “And… you have feelings for both of them?” She sighed. That was a question Suki didn’t want to answer, mainly because she couldn’t—she didn’t know the answer herself. “I have no idea what to suggest. This has never been discussed in any of my studies.” Pushing herself to stand, Erin paced back and forth in the little pocket of the forest the two had confined themselves in. She crossed her arms, freeing her hand to pat her chin as she processed
~ SUKI ~About a week had passed, I’d finished my school day and was trying to kill time until Rey and I could meet up. We’d barely seen each other since my birthday; he was busy with his warrior training, and I was busy finishing sixth form. When I wasn’t at school, I was doing my duties bestowed on me by my father.In my free time, I would read a lot, but I also liked to conduct my own research on things. I was reading a lot of books about plants used in certain remedies. Not elixirs like what witches create, but genuine remedies that packs used to make back in the days of the first werewolves.I think it stemmed from the stories my great-grandmother would tell my mum. It made me grow a fascination with alternatives to how to heal others, even if it wasn’t through the flashiness of ma
~ SUKI ~It was like any other birthday I’d had growing up. My father would happily make my birthday as extravagant as possible. It was his way of making it up to me for never being around, so he would allow me to throw huge parties with my friends.Was he present? Of course not. Little did he know that I would’ve accepted a cosy dinner with him on my birthday over whatever dramatics he put on for me.I never blamed him, though. We both always missed my mother more on our birthdays. Plus, my birthdays were the only time he would really allow me to embrace and enjoy being my age with parties and whatever else my age bracket enjoyed doing.The party was booming through the night. There was dancing and drinking,
Frozen in place, it took Suki a few seconds to come back to reality and realise her friend had run away from the scene she’d just witnessed. “Erin, wait!” she yelled, trying to sit up.Brendan moved back up her body, groaning with annoyance and lustful hunger intertwined together, being so close to touching his precious mate. He kissed her chest again and growled, “Leave her.” He kissed her neck and dragged his lips to hers, “Let me make you feel good, love.”Suki whimpered at his touch, “I…” She wanted to give in to him and allow her scratch to be itched, but she sighed, “I can’t. I have to stop her.” Pushing Brendan off, she pulled herself together, straightening up her clothes and ran after Erin. Locking into just a small amount of wolf speed to tackle the space between them, but her panicked state made it that much more difficult for her to find her way out of the maze. “Erin!”Within good time, she managed to spot Erin rushing out of the exit, but before she could get to her,
Those last few seconds were the longest she’d ever experienced.“Well, well,” Brendan said, appearing behind her suddenly, emerging from the shadows, “still lost, are we, love?”She pouted, “No.” A twinge of excitement pulsed in her stomach, one she tried to push aside. She shouldn’t be here; she should have just left and not let the bond pull her back in.Brendan turned her around and pushed her against the wall. “You’re not lying to me, are you?”“How did you find me so fast?” she asked, completely ignoring his question as she looked deep into his eyes.He chuckled, “I was following you.” He moved her hair out of her face, “You were doing really well,” he hummed, pressing his palms against the wall, trapping her in place, “but then you suddenly went righ