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Melody The car was very quiet inside. It smelled of leather, and cold night air, and him: something dark and clean, like cedar after rain. I'd smelled it on my skin for a day after the bathroom. He started the engine. He didn't look at me. He pulled out of the drive and past the new lock on the side gate, and the camera above the kitchen window, its small red light like a watching eye. For the first two miles neither of us said a word. I looked out of the window at the dark hedges going by and tried to breathe normally, which was difficult with every nerve in my body pointed at the man beside me. His hands on the wheel were steady. His right sleeve had ridden up a fraction, and I could see the edge of his watch strap and, just beneath it, where the cuff ended, a thin pale line along the bone. I looked away fast, as if I'd been caught. "You remember what I told you," he said. It wasn't a question. His eyes stayed on the road. His voice was low and even, the voice for weather rep
MelodyEleanor knocked at half past five."I won't stay," she said from the doorway, already in her gown, a column of silver silk that made her look like something carved. "I only wondered whether anyone needed a hand with hair. I used to do my own for every one of these. Before I could afford people who'd do it better."Selene, who could do a French twist in under two minutes and had done mine for every formal since we were fifteen, looked at Eleanor, then at me, and set down the brush."I'll start on my face," she said brightly, and took her makeup case into my bathroom and closed the door.Selene was my best friend for a reason.Eleanor sat me at my dressing table and stood behind me. She didn't speak for a while. Her hands were cool and sure, gathering my hair, testing its weight, twisting it slowly into a low knot at my nape. Nobody had done my hair since my mother.My mother used to hum.Eleanor didn't hum. But she worked the way my mother had, slowly, as if there were no hurry
MelodySelene arrived at four o'clock on Saturday with three garment bags over her arm, a makeup case the size of a carry-on, and no patience at all."You said you'd wear the grey one." She dropped everything on my bed and turned on me with both hands on her hips. "You said it on the phone. You said, and I'm quoting, 'the grey one is fine.'""The grey one is fine.""The grey one is a cry for help."I let her talk. Selene talking was the most normal thing that had happened to me all week.It had been a strange week. Not loud. Nothing in this house was ever loud. But strange the way the air goes strange before a storm, when the birds stop and everything waits.Luca had left before breakfast every day since Monday and come home after dinner every night. I knew because I'd heard his car, and his footsteps, and his door. Not once had he passed my room slowly. On Tuesday, two men I'd never seen had spent the whole afternoon in the garden, and by evening there was a new lock on the side gate
Luca The guest office smelled of old paper and Richard's cigars. I shut the window, didn't shut the door, and called her back. Ignoring Molly had never once made her go away. It just made her creative. She picked up on the first ring. "There he is." Bright and sweet, the voice she used at dinners when she wanted people to think she was harmless. "You're a hard man to reach these days, Luca." "You called my mother's house." "I called Eleanor. We had a lovely chat. Did she tell you?" A pause, so I could feel it. "No. She wouldn't, would she? Eleanor's very good at not telling people things." The window glass was cold under my palm. I hadn't noticed putting my hand there. "You call my mother's house again," I said, "and you'll find out exactly how little patience I have left." "I miss you." "No. We're done. We've been done for a year." "A year." She laughed softly. "You know what I did with that year? I cleaned out my apartment. Found a box of your things. Old things.
Luca I was awake at four. Awake at five. At six I gave up pretending and stood at the window with the lights off, watching the garden turn grey, then less grey. Three nights. Three nights since that bathroom, and my body still hadn't been told it was over. At 6:40 her water didn't run. I noticed. I noticed the way I noticed a figure on a balance sheet that didn't add up. It meant she was lying awake too. It meant she was listening. So I gave her something to listen to. I showered at seven. Cold, because I didn't trust warm. I shut it off at 7:12, dressed, tied my hair back wet, and walked down the hall past her door at exactly the pace I'd walk past any door in any house that wasn't mine. I didn't slow down. That took more out of me than the board ever had. Richard and my mother had come back last night. Good. Witnesses. Two people at the table meant rules I couldn't break, and I needed rules the way some men needed a drink. I took the head of the table because it was empty
Melody I lasted twenty minutes.I took my cup to the kitchen because the housekeeper was off on Mondays and because I needed something to do with my hands. I rinsed it, then rinsed it again. Through the window over the sink I could see the garden, the bench where I'd stood babbling at him with wine on my dress, the gravel he'd ground his cigarette into.Who was Molly?It wasn't my business. Nothing about him was my business. I said it to myself twice, and then I dried my hands and walked down the back hall toward the guest office anyway, because apparently I had learned nothing.The door was half open. I heard his voice before I saw him, low and very calm, which I was beginning to understand was the most dangerous way he spoke."—you call my mother's house again, and you'll find out exactly how little patience I have left." A pause. "No. We're done. We've been done for a year." Another pause, longer. "Don't threaten me, Molly. You have no idea what you're dealing with.”The line must







