JAYCE BECKETT It was my first day back in the office after being away for a few months, and it felt so good to be back to my desk.I brought out my key, and unlocked my drawer, the first thing that caught my attention was my work phone, the same one that I used to communicate with Curtis."I don't have to do that anymore, he's in good hands now." I smiled, picking up the phone and dropped it among the less important stuff at the last drawer.I was determined to reorganized my table since we now had a new focus. I was still on it when my phone buzzed a minute later.I peered down at my phone screen, and I felt my lips curved upward in a small smile.There was a picture of Curtis, sitting in the doctor's office with Renato holding his hand, and another one when they were back in his car, there was there words message underneath the picture. Lab tests done.Renato had insisted on taking Curtis to the hospital for a follow up check up after I told him I had to be at the office today.I q
JAYCE BECKETT "I'll do it for you?" I scoffed, walking out of the kitchen with my heart beating so crazily against my ribcage.He will do it for my sake?"He'll do it for me, he said?" I shook my head, trying as much as I could to pretend I didn't have a faint knowledge of where that bastard was getting at with that bullshit."What does he even mean he'll do it for me when he's the one who'll go to jail?" I gritted out, turning the ring on my finger as my anxiety crept in like an unwanted visitor that it was.I was somehow grateful for the ring, because my wrist hadn't completely healed yet, and it would be bad to scratch it now with the bandaid on.I was still lost in thought, thinking of what I was doing. Wondering if I was doing the right thing at all that I didn't realized I had started pacing. Old habit that I still found it difficult to stop.How did that bastard even managed to seduce me? Messing with my brain? "Hey!" Someone called out from the other side, and when I looked
RENATO MARINO As I held him in my arms, nothing had ever felt this right before. But just because it felt so fucking good to held him, and have Jayce cling tightly to me like this, it didn't make me oblivious to the fact sometimes was wrong with him.Just the little time I had spent with him, I had gotten to know him and I wasn't sure how that was possible, but I could feel his emotions.I could feel this warm sensation in my chest when he was happy, and when he was scared, it made my heart ache and it would feel like something was squeezing my heart and it was about to burst and it wasn't a good feeling.Slowly, I ripped myself from the embrace, staring at Jayce's face. His eyes were on me, but I could tell he wasn't seeing me. Like he was avoiding me.Why?We were cool before he left barely three hours ago. When I kissed him, I could feel the heat in his body, and his heartbeat mirroring mine, like he was just being with me.So, if I wasn't the problem, then what is?Who made him m
JAYCE BECKETT I had never been so utterly, soul-crushingly conflicted in my entire life. As I slowly stood up from the seat after Chief Strand had dismissed me, I felt like I was making a catastrophic choice, one that would irreparably shatter Renato's very existence. The weight of the decision I was forced to make crushed me, suffocating my lungs, making it hard to breathe. Even though I knew this was supposed to be for the best, my conscience screamed in protest. How would I face Renato now, knowing I had just orchestrated his downfall? How would I possibly go home to him now, sleep next to him at night, and pretend like I hadn't just sealed his fate? The thought alone made my stomach churn with revulsion. My heart was beating at a glacial pace, and I felt like I was on the verge of collapse, my legs trembling beneath me like fragile twigs. I pushed the door open, walking out of the office, but my legs halted abruptly as I saw Cole standing there, a smug, self-satisfied grin
JAYCE BECKETT I could feel a pair of piercing eyes burning a hole into my back, like a thousand suns scorching my skin. My back stiffened, my hands trembling violently as I frantically worked my buttons, tucking my shirt in with a sense of urgency before grabbing my jacket. I was totally ignoring the man who had been grumbling behind me since the crack of dawn, when I'd told him I had to make a quick visit to the office. "Seriously? Can't you just skip it?" Renato finally deigned to speak, his voice laced with disapproval, making me let out a deep, exasperated breath. "I already told you, I need to go." I said, my voice firm, without even bothering to turn around and face him. I could practically feel his eyes rolling so hard they'd get stuck that way."But you look like you're about to collapse from exhaustion," he growled, his voice dripping with concern. I bit down hard on my lower lip to suppress a grin, as if I had already knew that bastard was going to use that as an excu
RENATO MARINO Sometimes, I couldn't shake the feeling that I'd committed some unforgivable sin, and that's why the universe was conspiring against me with such relentless cruelty. How was I supposed to process the fact that my entire life had been a lie? Everything I thought I knew were all lies, and the people I'd looked up to my whole life turned out to be the very embodiment of everything I'd always hated. It made me feel like a despicable hypocrite, a fucking pretender. I was consumed by self-doubt, questioning the authenticity of every experience, every relationship. Was anything in my life even real?"Where are you taking me?" I demanded, my voice cracking as I struggled to hold back tears, Renato's firm grip on my wrist like a vice as he dragged me out of his office. "I think you need some fresh air," he said softly, his tone infuriatingly calm. "No, I don't!" I snarled, trying to wrench my hand free, but he was too strong. "Fuck that!" I spat, my anger boiling over."Yo