"It feels like I'm finally free."
—Niall Horan
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"YOU HAVE TO continue your chemotherapy therapy, Jake."
"It's too much pain, Dr. Forbes. I can't and don't want to bear it." Jake dumbly answers back.
"Jake get this inside your head that you are improving. That's a miracle that you are. You should be great full and I'm not hearing anything more. You are young and have a life ahead of you."
He just nods and closes his eyes. I just look at him and then leave.
"Sweetie, you didn't go home yet?" Uncle Smith says as I exit Jake's room. "It's two in the morning."
"I was just leaving Uncle," I tell him and hug him goodbye.
"Hi, Tori." I hear as I pass the reception.
"Hi Sam, you are back," I say to the dirty blonde-haired girl. The only one I call somewhat my friend.
"Yeah and right now I really got to run, but I will see you soon, okay? Night duty. Patients waiting." Sam which is short for Samantha hugs me tight and runs off.
"Yeah," I say to particularly no one.
She was gone on a vacation and is a nurse here. We get along well.
I get in the passenger seat of my black 2019 Ford Mustang the same car in which I took Christian to my house. The car seats had blood on them and now that they are clean, I can use them.
When I took the car for cleaning the cleaners were giving me suspicious and weird glances like I was some serial killer. And I made it clear to them that I am a doctor and took someone to the hospital and their blood dripped on my seat.
They believed it and they had to because we are talking about me. I can't hurt someone like that. My face doesn't give off that vibe rather an innocent one.
I drive through the same highway I drove through when I found Christian, all bloodied and bruised. It's been 8 days since he has been staying with me. Time flies so quickly. We get along well after the whole shopping spree.
I get to the house safely and park the car in the garage. I make my way inside and collapse on the couch from exhaustion.
"You are spending more than 12 hours in the hospital?"
I jump at the voice and fall down from the couch and groan.
"Christian! Do not scare me like that." I huff still laying on the ground, too tired to get up.
"When was the last time you slept, Victoria?" He asks, well another question.
"A full night's sleep?" I Ask. "Well about 11 years ago." I let out still lying on the ground. The old memories coming back to my mind. It's the first time I admitted it to someone.
Christian comes to me and stands beside me giving me his hand for me to stand up. I put my cold hand in his warm ones.
His big hands perfectly fit in my small ones as cheesy as it sounds. I ignore the tingling feeling in me and stand up.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" he offers.
"Not really." It wasn't just the memory of my 12-year-old self but also my life after that.
"How much did you sleep last night?" He questions. Concern clear in his voice.
"About 3 hours," I tell him. "It was the best I have slept in a while."
"Only 3 hours?!" He asks with wide eyes.
"I usually do not sleep so it was more than enough for me." I shrug like it's no big deal.
"It's not healthy, Victoria. You need sleep." He tells me.
I look up to him. "It is not easy Christian, you do not understand. I cannot. No matter how hard I try."
"Have you tried sleeping pills?"
"Yeah they make it even worse, I can not wake up when my--" I cut myself off.
"Your what?"
"All you need to know is that I am fucked up and no one can do anything about it." I say and go past him but he holds onto my wrist stopping me before I can go anywhere else.
"Talk to me, Victoria." He says. "Let me help you."
I look into his eyes directly. They were filled with so much emotion, so much sincerity. Do I trust him? Yes.
Am I going to tell him about my past? At least I can tell him bits, he doesn't need to know everything.
He doesn't need to know that how I die every time in my dreams.
He doesn't need to know much so that he could see how fucked up I am.
"You can trust me." He says and holds onto my hands in his both.
"I know but I can't talk about it now," I tell him and he understands.
"When you are ready."
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I wake up at 6:00 am. A four-hour sleep and I am grateful for it. At least now I am getting a bit of sleep.
I take a 45-minute shower. The whole time standing under the shower with a blank mind.
I finally get out and blow dry my hair and prepare for a nice run under the warm sun.
I take out my puma black sports bra, yoga pants, and trainers. I leave my hair open and take my cellphone with the air pods, debit card, and house keys.
I don't forget to leave a note on the fridge telling Christian that I am out for the run and I am going to have breakfast that Jade.
I take off the house and run. Nothing more, I just run feeling free. And at the same time the song playing was Finally Free by Niall Horan.
Huh, the irony.
I run around the neighborhood aimlessly. Enjoying every minute of it. Remembering how me, mom, and dad used to run like this. Most people mistakingly said that I was my mom's sister.
Yes, my mom looked that young.
I run until I reach the park near Jade and sit on the bench in the empty park. It's a weekday and nobody is here. Not even a single soul.
I sit there alone with closed eyes breathing in the fresh air, and at the same moment, I almost shit my pants.
Yes! Because someone put a hand on my shoulder from behind me and decided it would be funny to do that.
I scream and fell down but I balance myself. I turn around to see the culprit.
"Fuck, Christian!" I curse. "You scared the hell out of me."
He laughs out. "I'm sorry. It was hard not to. Your face was priceless!"
"Ha ha. So fucking funny." I roll my eyes.
"You know it was." He scoffs.
"What are you doing here?" I say ignoring his statement.
"I'm here to join you for breakfast." He says in a duh tone.
"Well, I'm not going for breakfast right now. You can go if you want." I cross my arms and turn away from him.
"Come on Victoria. Don't be mad."
I just stick out my tongue to him and take off running towards the swings.
"Where are you going!?" I hear him yell from behind me.
"Away from you!" I fire back.
I turn to look at him and see that he is coming after me, running. I scream and run faster.
I run to the big swing with slides and climb the stairs up. By now he is standing down the swing.
He suddenly climbs through the slide. I scream again. I go to the slide opposite to it and immediately slide down.
I run again, Christian hot on my heels.
I can feel my breath getting harder and harder as I run and laugh.
I look behind me to see that he just behind me, I turn back around but just then a hand grabs my bare waist and pushes me, and turns me back with so much force that we both fall to the ground.
And again, I scream.
I feel his chest vibrate while he laughs. I huff and look up while he laughs.
"Stop laughing!!"
He still laughs.
I try to get up but he doesn't let me. And quiet downs.
"You know what's funny?" He asks.
"What?"
"That I already made you scream my name." He says with a smirk.
My cheeks get read after his statement but I play along.
"Oh really?" I breathe out. "Then I might as well return the favor."
He raises his eyebrows at my statement. In a quick flash, I straddle his torso.
I lean my head down near his ear and whisper. "Payback is a bitch, baby."
With that, I pinch his nipples. Hard. Yes, I do exactly that. You heard me right.
He lets out a scream and puts his hand on them and I just stand up going towards the Café.
I turn around one last time to see him laying on the ground, groaning. I blow a kiss and I'm off.
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"The world can be a nasty place, you know it, I know it. we don't have to fall from grace." --- Selena Gomez●●●"CHRISTIAN AREyou ready?""Coming!" I hear him yell back from the room."Christian we are late, of you, do not get your ass here now, I am going to pinch your nipples
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