Chapter 12

Xavier POV

Call me crazy, unhinged, or whatever names you like, but I wanted her to suffer, and sleeping naked under the cold was a great punishment…a punishment for making me enjoy fucking her. 

Yes, I hated that I was enjoying her, that I was slowly losing control and doing things I was not supposed to do. She was supposed to be a mere breeder, a thing to just carry my heir. There shouldn't be any pleasure for her, yet not only did I want to pleasure her, I enjoyed everything I did. I needed to see that expression on her face when I am inside her, every time. 

I hated sex, I hated women, I just hated their whole essence. After the last betrayal, I was broken to the point of no return. So why on earth did I enjoy her, a mere breeder? 

Everything I was trying to do to make her suffer seemed to be backfiring on me. I didn't know someone without experience would enjoy being chained to the bed and fucked like that, but she did and I liked that she did. I wanted to destroy her, but she ended up enjoying everything I did to her. And damn, that expression on her face, I wasn't sure I would get over it anytime soon. 

I wanted to get the reins back, to show her that I wasn't there for pleasure so I told her not to orgasm even though I knew it was impossible, so that I could give her this punishment. Then maybe, after this, she wouldn't dare enjoy the things I was doing to her. Maybe I will get back to business after that. 

“Waste another minute and I'll add to the punishment,” I warned and her face turned much paler. Good, she should be scared, she should be very scared of me. 

Slowly, she started to walk towards me, her body shivering from maybe fear or simply the cold that was slipping into her pores. Not going to lie, she had a beautiful body, but I've seen better. Plus, she needed more than a pretty body to get me turned on. 

She came close to me and started crawling into the bed. I noticed she was about to touch me so I said, “Oh, and don't you dare touch me until I say you can.”

“W-what? How is that possible…”

“Did I ask you to speak?!” I warned, instantly shutting her up. 

Her eyes started to water with tears and for some reason, it made my heart sting a bit. But I ignored it. She should feel my terror. She should remember that this isn't something she should be looking forward to. She should know that she's nothing but a breeder who would get trashed after she was done with her assignment. 

Knowing I would be mad if she wasted another second, she started to do something. 

At first, I found what she was doing very strange, the way she ached her back, timidly showing me her behind and how she was moving her waist and looking at me all seemed strange until I finally figured that she was trying to slow dance. 

I almost chuckled for the first time in a long while at that moment, finding her actions very funny but I maintained a straight face. She should try to turn me on, not act like a clown. 

She groaned, frustration kicking in as she realized that what she was doing wasn't working. That she was probably a bad slow dancer. It even looked like she wanted to give up but she knew better than to do that. 

All of a sudden, she paused, staring at me with those big eyes that screamed ‘please don't do this to me’ but I wasn't moved. 

And just when I thought she would willingly choose to sleep outside after failing miserably, her eyes popped, as though she'd suddenly gotten an idea and she rushed to her closet. 

I was shocked when she brought out the dildo and the vibrator I had left in her room the other time. 

I raised a brow, watching her with keen interest as I wanted to know what she was about to do. I watched as she slowly walked towards the couch in front of me, and then sat on it, spreading her legs apart and giving me a clear view of her pink pussy. That simple action made me dick twitch but I still managed to keep a straight face. 

She bit the bottom of her lip, eyes fixed on me as she slowly pushed the dildo into her beauty hole, earning me a low moan from her. Then she turned on the vibrator, to a slow level and started rubbing it around her clit. 

My heart started to race as I watched her use the dildo to thrust in and out, pleasuring herself with the toys, the whole time, her eyes were fixed on me, moaning loudly as she was enjoying playing with herself. 

Fuck, she wasn't supposed to be enjoying herself, and neither was I supposed to be enjoying what she was doing. I watched her with wide eyes, my heart pounding really fast until she reached her first orgasm. 

Seeing that I was hard but still not moved, she tossed the toys aside and started to rub herself. First, it was how she played with her boobs, then spread herself wider and started finger fucking herself. 

I thought she was a fucking novice! 

I watched her, every move, noticed every moan as she pleasured herself and damn, it felt like I was burning inside. Unable to stop myself, I grabbed my dick and started to rub, following her rhythm, eyes fixed on hers and never faltering for even a second. She increased her pace, and so did I, and soon, we both released. 

Fuck, I couldn't hold it anymore, I couldn't pretend like I didn't want to bury myself inside her. She looked too inviting, too dangerously inviting, and in a raspy voice, I ordered. “Come to me now”

Wait. 

Did I just fail in my own game?