Chapter 34

Sofia Adams - April 2012

We walk through the streets of Las Vegas.

"Is the fourth step still keeping you up at night?" Ethan brings up our conversation again.

"I just don't understand what there is to evaluate. I did bad things, got it, next step," I say exasperatedly.

Ethan laughs.

"I don't think it's that simple, Sofia..." We stop at a familiar park since we've come here a few times to talk.

"Tell me the complete step," Ethan requests, sitting on one of the plastic benches. I sit beside him.

"The fourth step: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. We were given instincts for a reason," I repeat.

Ethan gazes into the horizon.

"Since these meetings started, I've been researching about it. The fourth step seems to be one of the hardest, and seeing you, I understand the difficulty. I think your main obstacle is not understanding why it's so important," Ethan says. I don't know how to feel when I hear that Ethan researched the twelve steps for me. It's confusing.

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