Broken chap 11

Chapter 11

Tanya's pov

I can't take this anymore. I thought that maybe I could love him but I can never love someone like him. I hate him. He is a monster. I can't take this anymore. The way he raped me last night even when I had my periods was the worst. I always had a painful period but this time, with all the work and rape, I can't bear this anymore. What will happen if I escape? Surely, he will find me but maybe I can stay away from him for these four days. And this will ensure that he doesn't think about researching Sanvi more. It is a win-win situation for me.

"What are you doing my whore? Serve me the food as soon as possible and then wash the bedsheets because my whore decided to bleed on them. She can't even control her bleeding. She is such a pathetic excuse of a wife," my eyes sting with tears. I really have to get out of here. My stomach is already in pain. I can't take this anymore...

I serve him food and go to the restroom to wash the sheets. I notice a small window above the commode. I stand on the commode and get out of the window with a lot of struggle. I finally succeeded in getting out of there. I start to run but since I don't have any footwear, it is getting difficult for me and this forest surrounding me is not helping either... I don't know what I will do now but I know that running away was my best decision ever.

I come across a small stream. I am very thirsty, so I drink that water. It is very refreshing and fresh. I like how it feels cool on my parched throat. I decide to stay here till my husband manages to find me.

I lay under a tree and close my eyes. All the insects and birds chirping around me is very calming. I don't know what I will do in the next month but I am glad that I could do something to protect myself at least this month...

I don't know for how many more months I should endure this torture. Maybe, for forever? What if I die now? He will find me and will think that Sanvi killed herself. So, he will think that his revenge is fulfilled. That will be the best. I don't have to endure anything anymore. But do I have the courage to take my life myself? No, I don't. Then, should I bear everything? No. I am not a coward. I will not fear anyone, not even that monster of a husband of mine...

He said that he is doing this to me because I rejected and provoke to suicide his younger brother, Ritvik. Why did he think so? It was not like she gave him hope and then broke his heart. She was always clear that she thought of him as a brother...

Yes, a brother. I should have thought about it myself. I was so jealous that I didn't see how she treated him. I just focused on how he treated her. I was the one responsible for all that happened to her. Maybe, this is because of karma... Because I deserve this. And if I can pay my debt to her like this, I will be more than happy to bear anything...

I wake up after a few hours and notice that it is already dark. My stomach growls and I realise that I didn't eat anything from the day I was married. It has been two days. I don't know how I am going to survive for three more days. I remove the thought from my mind and drink the water from the stream to calm my stomach a bit. It helps for five minutes but the pain in the stomach returns.

I have to do something for my bleeding. I don't know what I can do. I look around and come across a banana plant. I fold it's smallest leaf to halve its size and replace it with the cloth I had with me. By now, my underwear is soaking in my blood. I sigh loudly. Is this how my life will be? Will I be treated like a whore, like I have no value?

But one thought stops my train of thoughts. That little girl... She must be in the arms of Sanvi or Akshit Vai. Are they worrying about me? I don't want them to worry. I hope that they are not searching for me. I want them to live happily ever after... And after this thought, I feel content with what I am doing and involuntarily, a small smile settles on my lips. 

Yes, this is my new life. I should endure this. But whatever happens, I can't work in my periods. My stomach already hurts due to cramps. I can't work anymore. So, I think I should enjoy this nature till I have the time...

I feel myself weak from exhaustion. I close my eyes and surrender to the darkness…