CHAPTER 4
My eyes widen in pure shock hearing those words coming out from him. I watch him walk on the other side of his table, now grabbing back his book. I am about to complain but chose not to. Who am I to complain? In fact, my block mates are now groaning from behind after what the Professor announced a minute ago. I can clearly say that I am giving trouble to everybody today—which is new.
I walk up the stairs through the center aisle to take the vacant seat while both of my shoulders are down as if I am carrying a heavy baggage behind my back. I gave my friends a meaningful look but the guys just wink and laugh at me while pointing the Professor in front. I then annoyingly sway my bag that I am holding then what happened next shock everyone out again.
“Oh, damn it!”
I let out a very loud gasp as I look at the man who has spilled coffee on his white shirt and varsity short. His attention is already on his stained clothes and I could not help but to look around once again with an expression I could not really tell. I lick the upper part of my lips before I grab my hanky as I move left to where he is sitting.
“Oh my gosh, I am so sorry.” I whispered while helping him wipe the hem of his shirt.
I blink my eyes while wiping the brownish stain on his clothes , feeling a hundred percent embarrassment about my life today. “I did not really mean to—“
“Uhm, I think I am fine, don’t worry.” The man uttered almost in a whisper.
I raise my gaze to his face and saw him with a black-rimmed glassed and his slightly parted lips. He seems uncomfortable with getting closer to him so I slowly move away while clearing the lump inside my throat before putting some strands of my hair behind my ear.
“Dionne, dude, you are dangling his thing while wiping the stain.”
I look at Nathan, one of my friends who is sitting next to him, when he whispered those words and he eyed me knowingly, making me arch my brows in pure shock and shame. My eyes found the man’s face but he is now fixing his things who also got spilled with coffee.
“I am really sorry!” I exclaimed before putting my hanky on top of his lap. “Use this, don’t worry it hasn’t been use.” I assured him.
He look up at me while I am biting my lips. He then clears his throat and nod his head, not speaking so it is my cue to walk behind him where there is a vacant seat. I look in front and notice that the Professor is eyeing my actions thoroughly with his left brow still up.
“Why does he keep on staring at me?” I murmured before opening my bag to get my pen.
I look on my right. “Mind if I ask for a paper?”
I am not familiar with whoever this person is but I do not care anymore. The Professor asked us to get a paper but I didn’t bring anything aside from my pen, powder and tint since I was thinking that today would only be pure orientation about the subject but this man is quite perilous and strict young Professor.
“I am sorry but I only ask a sheet from Alaric.”
I turn my attention back at him when the person I was asking for paper spoke. My left brow raise a little with confusion. “Alaric?”
He blink his eyes twice before pointing the man who owns a coffee that I got spilled just minutes ago. My eyes blink twice as I try looking around to check my friends but they just shake their heads as a sign that they also got no extra paper with them.
“One, discuss in five to ten sentences about the most important modernist and English writer Victoria Woolf and her work entitled To The Lighthouse.”
My attention shifted back in front when the Professor spoke. My lips parted in confusion hearing his first activity. I look around and saw some students in the class are already down on their papers yet I am here, still processing everything inside me. I know who is Virginia Woolf since most of the Modernist Writer were always discussed way back in our lower years but how can I even answer it when my mind is still in haywire because of the break up and two, I still haven’t read To The Lighthouse for damn sake; three, I don’t have a freaking paper.
“I will collect your papers after fifteen minutes.” The Professor added up right away before taking his seat.
The internal fiascos I have been dealing inside doubled up and it makes me want to shout out of frustration but I hold myself and took a deep breath before poking the man I got troubled with. I bend towards his place a little and I notice that he stop writing to turn his head to the right a little.
“I know I troubled you a lot already but can I have a sheet of paper?”
Nathan, Mansrael, and Levi, who are sitting the same row with the guy named Alaric, laugh. I just eyed them thoroughly since they teased me too much already. I have to remind myself that I should spank their ehads out later fater class. I thought to myself.
“Dude, I swear Everleigh needs to know what happened today.” Rael whispered to Nathan but I know that he really meant to say those aloud for them to tease me more.
I widen my eyes. “Stop it.” I whispered with so much annoyance but these three pig of a friends just laugh before going back to their own paper.
Alaric hand me the paper so I uttered my thanks at him but he just nod his head once before writing back his answers. When I finally got the chance to take a deep breath to calm my enrves inside, I look around the place and notice that everyone is already busy writing down their answers.
Did the Professor discussed that long already? For how many minutes am I late and why does it seems like I missed too much in the discussion?
I look around once more but what caught my attention is the Professor who is still sitting on his chair, reading a thick book. I watch how his pupils move as he flip the page then move the rim of his glasses up with an obvious crease on his forehead as if he is very indulge to his book.
“Nerd.” I whispered before writing my name on top of the paper.
Since I do not know much about the said Author, I do not have choice but to just write the basic information about her and tell so much about those years of Modernization to catch the unanswered question. When the Professor announced that there are only three minutes left, some of my blockmates started to stand up to pass their papers. Alaric stands up right after, followed by Rael, Nathan and Levi.
Levi look down at me and notice the desperation on my face and since the Professor got covered by some students who are passing their papers, he bent forward to whisper few words I can write about the book.
“It has a mixture of Philosophy, Pyschology and fiction—being told in a narrative and personal reflection by Victoria Woolf herself.” He immediately muttered before walking back in the aisle since students are coming back to their own seats already.
Upon hearing his words, I hurriedly write it down without thinking anything. “I do not care anymore.” I whispered.
“Thirty seconds.”
“Twelve seconds.”
“Dude, hurry.” Rael whispered so I have no choice but to stand up with my paper on my right hand.
“Six seconds.”
The Professor and I are staring at each other as I walk down the center aisle with my paper. He watch the sheet of paper I lend to him then grab it without saying something to me. I saw how my paper goes on top of the piled papers before he look in the class, ignoring me right after so I started to walk back on my seat.
“I will dismissed you early but I want you to read an excerpts from the same book I discussed earlier. Turn in your assignments in our Edmodo. I will be checking it there, and classroom link will be followed.”
“Uhm, Mister Dawson!”
We all look at the woman from the other side who is wearing a Chest Ruched Lace up dress with extravagant earrings and necklace. I tilt my head to check her more and notice her bag from Jacquemos.
I smiled inside. Rich and stylish. I thought, approving her looks. I mean, I am so fond of fashion and if you let my friends discussed about fashion sense, they will let me lead.
“Yes, Miss…”
“Nicollete, Sir. Miss Nicollete Speaks.” The woman stated which made me raise a brow.
“How is she related to Nikolai?” I whispered, referring to Elric’s friend in the varsity.
I heard Rael chuckled. “Of course, they are twins.”
My eyes widen a little before nodding. I notice how she stands up shyly to talk with the Professor in front of the class.
“Would you mind if I’ll be the block representative?”
Everyone started to murmur, mostly the women in the class which made me think more. Other men are shaking their heads with a smirk but others seem not to care as well.
The Professor look around the class and he seems surprised as well yet he nod his head nonetheless before looking back at her.
“Alright. You can come to my office later, three in the afternoon.”
After he said that, he immediately left the class, leaving everyone inside without proper goodbye. Women squeal while going to where Nicollete’s seat while the latter is just biting her lower lip, hiding her smiles as she put some strands of her hair behind her ears.
“Gosh, Nicollete! You would be with the hottest Professor inside his office… alone!” another woman exclaimed.
I parted my lips after hearing those words coming out from their mouth while I remained sitting down on my chair. Men started to grab their own bags for the vacant time while Levi and the rest of my friends sat in front of me—taking Alaric’s chair earlier since he is out already.
“B*tch be out of her mind earlier.” Nathan teased me.
I throw him my pen and he immediately caught it while chuckling. “Tell us, what happened and why are you late? You weren’t the Dionne Fay we knew.”
Levi laughed. “Uh-huh. She was completely staring on the space the moment she opened the door! How disgusting!”
Nathan lean on the seat this time as he yawn with both of his arms up on the air. “Plus the fact that the Professor who witnessed it is the hottest in town. Dude, you miss half of your chance for that man!”
I make a face before tousling my hair when frustration started to flow down inside me—not because of what happened inside this classroom but because of Elric. I stare at nowhere, ignoring my friends in front, thinking how will I going to explain at my family that the man I introduced to them is an as$.
“By the way, Levi, dude. Let me borrow your big bike later.”
“What now? You know that my big brother is as nosy as f*ck when he knows someone is using the bike he gave.”
Rael groaned before standing up to fix his clothes. “Come on, stop overreacting. I’ll just use it for the sake of publicity.”
Nathan laugh. “This social climber-“
“Elric and I broke up.” I confessed in the middle of their conversation and I can certainly feel the stares and heavy silence in between these three men even though Nicollete’s place is still noisy.
Rael who is standing slowly walk toward my place, eyeing me carefully but I did not return the gaze they are giving me. I am sure they will freak out and the worse part here is Levi. He will definitely get mad.
“You’ve got to be kidding me.” Rael murmured so I bit my lips.
I slowly look at them, at Levi in specific and saw him staring thoroughly at me—maybe weighing if I am kidding or not.
“Piss off.” He murmured before walking away from us which made the other two male follow to stop where he is going.
“Damn it,” Rael whispered as he ran out.
Hello! I am Lily. This would be my first time writing a note for my book but I want to grab this opportunity to say; Thank you for reading my Carry My Child, Miss Laurier! I promise to do my best for you and for my book since this is written from my heart. Looking forward to be with you at the later part! You wont surely regret adding my story to your library. Take good care and love yourself! <3 --Lily
I hurriedly grab my things to follow the three guys going outside the room. Some of our block mates notice how my friends went out fiercely and I can feel how their glares are going deep into our backs. The moment I went out, I only saw Rael's back who is consecutively tapping the elevator's button when it closes already, leaving the two of us behind.My breathing is so heavy the moment I came near him who is now looking down at my face. I am certain how worried flashes over my face, making the latter groan once again before gripping my wrist to get down with him using the stairs. "I seriously can't handle that man when he's mad, you know that. No one can." He whispered as we went down with a sign of hurry.We even almost bump some students but we just apologized and walk back down again. Knowing Levi, amongst these three men, he is closer to me. Aside from Everleigh, I also grew up with him until we finished our grade school. His fami
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While Mister Dawson is discussing in front, someone opened the door oc e again and it shows Alaric who is all sweaty over his face. He is obviously panting and maybe running towards here until he look at our Professor before he apologize.“I am so sorry for being late again, Mister.”I am waiting for Mister Dawson to throw words at him like what he did to me on my first day but he did the opposite. He just motioned Alaric to sit down and the later automatically ran up the stairs going to his seat. Our eyes met but I could not show a smile, knowing that he didn’t got complex by the Professor like what I experienced.I give Mister Dawson a sharp look, not even worried that he will see me. How unfair! I was late before and he automatically judge me in front of the class—saying about his so-called frist impression, and now, he let that Alaric enter the place without even trying.Is he gay? And that’s the reason why he don’t