Rowan’s POV
News travels fast. I’m not even out of the infirmary before the stares begin. I know what they mean. I know what they say. Liar. Deceiver. Whore. I don’t acknowledge them. I’m just as shocked as they are, but no one will believe that. Not after what they think they know. Alpha Kael had stormed out the moment Dr. Bradley dropped that bombshell. Minutes later, the shackles were removed from my wrists, and I was told,ever so kindly—to return to my room and keep quiet about my “predicament.” Well, I suppose I don’t have to keep it a secret anymore. Not with the entire pack whispering behind their hands. Still, the thought of facing Zelma and Perrie makes my stomach twist. Zelma’s probably already convinced I’ve committed some forbidden act. Perrie… she’ll have a million questions and not enough answers. My stomach growls,sharp and insistent. I haven’t eaten since I woke up. So, I head toward the kitchen, the familiar scent of spices and baked bread guiding me. But as I approach the pack house, the chorus of voices inside warns me it’s full. I take a breath and push the door open. Silence falls like a guillotine. Every head turns. Every gaze pins me like a knife. I walk to the counter, pick up an apple with trembling fingers, and turn to leave. No one speaks. Not a single word. But as soon as the door swings shut behind me, the buzz starts again,louder, sharper, spreading like wildfire. If they didn’t know before, they do now. I sigh and retreat to my room, grateful for the quiet that greets me. My limbs feel heavy, my skin sticky with sweat and nerves. I head straight for the bath, avoiding my reflection in the mirror. I don’t need to see myself to know I look a mess. The water is warm. Calming. It soothes the pounding in my head and dulls the ache in my bones. I don’t bother washing my hair—too much effort. I dry off quickly, slipping into something soft, and settle down on my bed, apple in hand. There’s a knock. My entire body tenses. I already know who it is. “Come in,” I say, voice firm despite the hollowness I feel. Zelma enters first, her mouth set in a thin line. Perrie trails behind, eyes wide with concern. “Oh, sweetheart, you look exhausted,” Perrie says gently. I manage a tired smile. “That’s what happens when you’re unconscious for two days,” I reply, flatly. The joke doesn’t land, but I’m too drained to care. Zelma stays silent, studying me like I’m something under a microscope. “Do you feel better now? Did the doc find out what was wrong?” Perrie asks, her eyes bright with curiosity. I sigh and set the apple aside. “You’ve heard the rumors, Perrie. Let’s not pretend you haven’t.” Zelma doesn’t wait. “Who’s the father?” Her voice is sharp. Cold. And I know that glint in her eye—it’s not curiosity. It’s hope. Hope that I’ll say something that gets me killed. “I haven’t been with anyone but the Alpha since I arrived,” I say carefully. It’s not a claim, just a defense. I don’t say I carry his child. I don’t say I believe it. Because I still don’t. Not really. And yet, I heard the heartbeat too. Zelma steps closer, her tone accusatory. “And yet you’re pregnant. That’s impossible.” “Zee, calm down. For all we know, it’s just a rumor,” Perrie interjects. Zelma turns on me. “Is it a rumor, Rowan?” I meet her gaze and smile. Wide. Cold. Unapologetic. “Thanks for checking in,” I say. “But I’d like to rest now.” “Slut,” she spits, venom lacing every syllable. I don’t flinch. I just smile wider. “Aren’t we all?” “Don’t drag me down to your level,” she snarls. “I’d never sleep with someone who wasn’t my Alpha.” Her words don’t shake me. Not because they’re untrue, but because I understand her fear. She knows I haven’t been with anyone else. But if I really am carrying the Alpha’s child—what does that mean for her? For Perrie? For the Luna? For me? “We’re all owned by a man, Zelma,” I say softly. “A man with two wives. Everyone here knows what we are. There’s no going lower.” Perrie whimpers. The truth stings. Zelma’s fists clench. Her fury boils over. “I should rip that thing out of you and do the Alpha a favor.” Something stirs in me. Hot. Ancient. Wild. My wolf rouses, prowling just beneath the surface. My eyes burn—and from the way Zelma stumbles back, I know they’ve changed. “I dare you,” I whisper. The words are ice and fire all at once. She falters, then turns on her heel. “Come on, Perrie. Let’s not get lumped in with the whore.” The door slams behind her. Perrie lingers, offering me an apologetic look before following her out. The fury leaves as quickly as it came, replaced by a familiar weariness. I look at the apple beside me. I no longer have the stomach for it. Maybe I’ll go back for something later, after I rest. I close my eyes, barely a moment passing before another knock sounds. Two guards step in. “The Alpha has summoned you to the meeting room,” one says. Of course. The Elders. I knew this moment was coming. Still, my blood turns cold. I draw a deep breath. My plan? Try not to get killed.Rowan's POVI wait.For three days, I wait for the Alpha’s wrath.It’s the strangest kind of torment,this silence. I had expected fury, punishment, maybe even exile. Instead, nothing. Just the relentless ticking of time and the whisper of footsteps outside my door that always stop short.I can hardly believe what I did. I'm not weak,never have been,but I’ve always been level-headed, measured. Now, something inside me has shifted, uncoiled. Ever since that day at the infirmary, I haven’t felt like myself. There’s a storm building under my skin.Every creak of the hallway makes my stomach twist. I expect Alpha Kael to burst through the door and order my execution.But he never comes.And I don’t know what’s worse,his absence or the fear that it means something far more calculated.I doubt he’ll show up at my infirmary appointment today. The thought offers a sliver of peace. Thessaly insisted on accompanying me, claiming she wouldn’t be anywhere else. Her presence is one of the few thing
Rowan's povThe moment Beta Carlos parks in front of the Alpha’s estate, I’m out of the car before he even shifts to neutral. My heart drums violently in my chest, but it's not from fear,it's fury. Betrayal.I ignore the guards stationed outside Kael’s door. One of them steps forward, murmuring something about clearance, but one look at my face and he freezes in place. Good. Let them try to stop me. Let them all watch.I storm through the entry hall, boots echoing off marble floors, the silence of the estate shattering beneath the weight of my wrath. I don’t bother knocking on the office door. I push it open with both hands, hard enough that it hits the wall behind it with a crack.Kael is seated behind his massive desk, a map of the outer borderlands spread before him. Two beta warriors flank him on either side, standing at attention.He looks up, unbothered by my sudden arrival. “Out,” he says simply, without looking at the warriors. They hesitate for half a second before nodding an
Rowan's POVFive days have passed since the Moonlight Dance Festival,I’m officially assigned a shadow just after my little sparring session with Thoran.Though I told the Alpha I didn’t care who it was, I can’t deny I’m relieved by his choice.Beta Carlos.Second-in-command to the Alpha, husband to Andrea—who happens to be close friends with Luna Chelsea. Even before everything happened, Beta Carlos was one of the few who didn’t treat me like dirt beneath his boots. We never spoke, but silence, I’ve learned, is far kinder than the venom others spit.Since the announcement, he’s followed me like a silent sentinel. Every time I leave my room,rare as it is,he’s there. Quiet. Unassuming. Stoic, with the same unreadable expression his Alpha wears like armor. I’ve only left for the kitchen or to wander the gardens, but he’s always a few steps behind.Today, though, I need more than air.I need answers.For three days, I’ve tried to recreate that strange surge of power I felt during the fes
Rowan's POV I hadn’t stepped outside in two days.I told myself I was recovering. Resting. Healing.But really, I was hiding.It felt safe here. No Lunas. No Alpha Kael. No whispers behind my back. No sharp-eyed elders wondering why I was still breathing.Just me, my thoughts, and my books.So when Thessaly burst in that morning, all heat and impatience, I was less than pleased.She didn’t knock. Just opened my door and scowled at me like I’d offended her personally. “You look like a ghost.”I blinked up at her from beneath the blanket. “Nice to see you too.”She dropped a bundle of clothes on the bed. “Get up. You’re coming with me.”“No,” I said immediately, pulling the blanket tighter. “I’m not.”She crossed her arms. “You’ve been in here for two full days. Staring at walls. Breathing like an old woman. It’s pathetic.”“Thanks for the pep talk.”“I’m serious.” She sat on the edge of the cot, her voice dropping. “Rowan, you were poisoned. Someone tried to kill your baby. You don’t
Kael’s POVThe scent of howler’s bane still clings to my coat. Subtle. Bitter. Laced with cowardice.I should’ve torn the damn festival apart the moment I saw Rowan’s pale face. Should’ve forced every wolf to shift and sniff out the traitor,the one who dared to challenge me.But panic is weakness, and I can’t afford that. Not now. Not with her safety hanging by a thread.I walk into the council chamber like a storm. The Elders are already gathered, cloaked in their smug calmness, seated at the crescent table like they own the bones of this pack. Some frown, clearly hungover and irritated I dragged them out of bed so early after the festival.Elder Thera sits stiffly upright, her eyes flicking briefly to the space beside me,as if expecting Rowan.Elder Marros leans back, fingers steepled beneath his chin. Ever the patient serpent.“Alpha,” Thera begins, her voice smooth, rehearsed. “We received word you called for an emergency—”“Someone tried to poison Rowan,” I cut in, voice cold as
Rowan's povMy heart hammers in my chest as Thessaly disappears into the crowd to find the Alpha.How fast does the poison work?Did I drink enough to hurt myself?Did I drink enough to hurt... my baby?The thought slams into me, sharp and breath-stealing.My baby.Whatever the reason for this child’s existence,whatever fate or accident brought it into me,it doesn’t matter. I already love it with my whole heart.It’s mine.And I’d die to protect it.A fierce, aching love bursts through my chest. I press a trembling hand to my stomach.Please, Moon Goddess, I beg silently, don’t take this away from me. Don’t let anything happen to my baby.Tears sting my eyes. My wolf paces restlessly inside me, snarling for answers.Then I see them;Thessaly, weaving urgently through the crowd, and behind her… Alpha Kael, face carved from stone.“Are you alright?” Thessaly reaches me first, her hand cool against my forehead. “No fever.”The Alpha steps forward, expression unreadable.“We need to get yo
Rowan's povThe Moonlight dance Festival. A night meant to honor the Goddess and celebrate the full bloom of spring. A night of music, lanterns, laughter,and masks. Fitting, I think, considering how many people in this pack wear one every day.Including me.Thessaly clasps the final hook at the back of my gown, and I barely recognize the woman staring back at me in the mirror.The dress is a shade of deep charteuse, but under the lantern light it will shimmer with hints of gold and emerald. The fabric clings to me like silk and spills into a gentle flare just past my hips. Bare shoulders, a low back, and slits on both sides that flirt with every step. I haven’t worn anything this daring in my life.My hair, usually tied in a tight ponytail or braided out of convenience, flows around my shoulders in soft waves. Thessaly had insisted on weaving tiny threads of silver into the strands, catching the light with every movement. A crescent-moon clip holds one side in place, revealing a sharp
Rowan’s POVIt’s 2:30 p.m., and I’m standing outside the Alpha’s office like a nervous teenager waiting for the principal.Unfortunately for me, the Elders slapped a strict restriction on my movements. I’m not allowed anywhere near the borders without explicit permission,and, of course, the mall and shopping complexes sit just shy of that invisible line.My fist hovers near the door, reluctant to knock.Maybe I should just go back and tell Thessaly I can’t make it. But knowing her, she won’t take no for an answer.I take a breath, preparing to turn away, when the door swings open abruptly.Alpha Kael steps out. His dark eyes immediately lock onto mine.“I’ve felt you standing there for thirty minutes,” he says flatly, his voice a low rumble edged with boredom.My face heats with embarrassment. “I wanted to speak with you,” I manage to say.Where’s all that fire I used to throw at the Elders? I can’t even look him in the eye.“Come in,” he says, stepping aside. It's not a suggestion.I
Rowan's POVThe market is unusually crowded for a midday hour. Wolves bustle from stall to stall, arms full of cloth, fresh bread, and jars of honeyed roots. None of them look at me.They part like water around a rock as I pass,stepping aside, pretending not to see me. The silence that follows me is louder than any insult.I came out today because I needed to feel air, to remember what it's like to stand under the sun. To feel like a person, not a rumor.But I regret it already.I clutch the small list in my hand,nothing special, just herbs, bread, and soap. The stall-keeper avoids eye contact as he hands me the items. I leave my change without a word.And then—“Rowan, right?”The voice is like a song, light and unexpected. I turn, startled, and find a girl smiling at me like I’m not the pack’s outcast. Like I’m just… someone.She’s all sunshine,golden curls pulled into a loose braid, freckles dusted across her cheeks, wearing a ridiculous yellow coat far too bright for spring. She g