Chapter 48

On Saturday, I woke to messages on my phone from both Brax and Logan that had come through late into the night. I phoned Abigail asking if I could go round to see her. My date with Brax was not until 2pm, so there was plenty of time to work things through with a bit of sisterly assistance.

By mid-morning I was sitting on the sofa at Abigail’s house. Her husband took the children to the local park to give us some time to talk. I started with Brax as I had not told anyone about him yet apart from people at work who started to ask questions. She was super happy for me.

“I’m just glad you are finally getting over Logan and the whole ordeal that happened to you.”

“It’s funny you should say that.”

She tilted her head intrigued by my response. I explained that Logan had showed up the night before, along with the events that fell afterwards.

“You basically have the choice of two guys. One who sounds like he is perfect for you and the other who you met under shocking circumstances, who left you when you needed him the most and now shows up the minute you are happy again.”

“Well, when you put it like that, I can’t really argue. Can I?”

“Leah, let me be blunt with you. I know you fell hard for Logan, and I know you also wanted him to be your forever guy.”

“But?”

“But he let you down. He walked away right at the end. He misunderstood you in one of the simplest ways and ran away. You have a guy here who sounds perfect for you. A guy who is willing to put up with the fact you have another guy chasing after you. A guy who is willing to fight for you after just a few dates. That is the type of guy you should be with, not Logan.”

“I don’t know.”

I knew deep inside she was right but as perfect as Brax was for me there was always a niggling feeling at the back of my mind that something was missing. I couldn’t help but wonder if it was because this was a normal meeting, a normal relationship (even though we had not labelled it yet), a normal day-to-day life.

Unlike the extraordinary circumstances that encapsulated mine and Logans meeting.

“Alright, look at it this way. Logan, he’s not your normal type of guy, correct?”

“No, not normally.”

“Take out of the equation what happened to you, would you have ever met him?”

“How am I supposed to know that?”

“Do you run in the same circles or have any mutual contacts or friends?”

“Of course not!”

I could feel myself becoming defensive. I knew exactly where she was going with her train of thought, but I did not want to hear it. Even though I went there looking for guidance, in a way I quickly realised I was searching for her support on Logan.

“So, it stands to reason that you may never have met him if it was not for the break-in. It also stands to reason that if it was not for the attack that you would never have grown close to him in the way you did, even if you had have met somehow.”

“Urgh.” I stood and walked across the room.

“I know it’s not what you want to hear, but you have to take that into account.”

“But I did meet him, I did grow close to him, and I did fall for him.”

“And he walked away when he misunderstood you. He walked away almost without a second thought and with no contact for 3 months. And here you are moving on with your life, and he is here because he is ready not because it’s what you want.”

I knew she was right. Everything she was saying was the truth. I knew it deep inside, but it was a tough pill to swallow. We talked for about another hour before I had a message pop up on my phone from Brax. I smiled at the phone and Abigail used it to prove her point about what she was saying. As much as I hated it, she was right. I needed to find out if I could connect with Logan without the incident playing a part in my life.