Chapter 47

Brax stepped closer. His hand moving up to cup my cheek. “I just hope that the guy is going to be me at the end of this.”

He dropped his lips to mine in a slow, soft kiss. I sighed when he broke away.

“As much as I wish to continue this, I think we should get you home in time to rest before our date tomorrow.”

I smiled and agreed. He headed inside to collect his keys. The drive home was silent but somehow comforting. My mind was racing, I was still in shock that Logan had turned up here. Brax pulled the car to a stop and turned the engine off. He walked me to my door and planted a kiss on the opposite cheek to where Logan kissed me.

“Until our date tomorrow. Goodnight Leah.”

“Goodnight Brax.”

I went straight to bed. My mind racing with emotions. I heard nothing from either of them that night. I reached for my phone several times, but each time I didn't know who I was reaching it for. I was shocked and proud of how Brax contained himself, but at the same time, hearing Logan be so plain and concise confused me.

If he knew how he felt, then why did it take me being with someone else for him to come to me. After over 2 months building a new life, how could he whisk in like nothing bad happened and break it all apart. I then chastised myself for thinking that, it was only broken if I let Logan break it. I was spending so much time on me and making myself better as well as my life, it was my choice. My choice whether I let him break it all, my choice who I chose.

I played out multiple scenarios in my head. I retraced my steps with Logan in the past. I had spent the last few months convincing myself it was all in my head between us. This now broke the walls down that I built convincing myself of that matter. The more I thought of Logan, the more guilt I felt for Brax. He was a wonderful man and had treated me so kindly and with so much respect. He was perfect in every way. If I looked into my future who could I see myself with, that was the question I needed to find an answer to.

I tossed and turned most of the night. I knew I needed to sleep and be date ready for the next day. That didn't matter as my mind swirled round and round. From Brax to Logan, and back to Brax again. Then round and round I went. The kiss on each cheek. They both claimed a part of me. They both held a part of my heart. I couldn't say I loved Brax, but I also couldn't say I loved Logan the way I once did. We had spent enough time apart to make a difference. I wasn't the girl he fell in love with, I couldn't speak to if he was the same man. But from what I had seen of him, in such a short space of time, he was the same.

For the first time in months my dreams did not turn into nightmares, instead they were filled with emotional conflict between Brax and Logan.