chapter 82

He rushed and wrapped his arms around my waist as he realised what I was talking about. There were too many memories, both good and bad. Our first kiss, our last meeting, the memories were overwhelming me more than I had foreseen. I couldn’t handle them all in that moment.

“Don’t go. Give me 10 minutes and I will book a hotel. Just don’t leave.”

I accepted the offer. He grabbed my bag along with one of his. He grabbed his keys, and we were out of there. I couldn’t believe being back in his apartment brought back that much emotion. I had not thought that was ever going to happen. The whole drive to the hotel he kept one hand on my thigh. We walked in and booked into a room. Logan carried our bags, keeping my hand in one of his at all times.

He swiped the keycard on the door and pushed it open for me to enter first. It was a fancy hotel suite. Nothing like the penthouse but enough to relax me. I walked over to the bed and ran my hand over it. I checked out the bathroom and the door that opened onto a small balcony. I pushed the door open and stepped out taking a deep breath. I was feeling better already.

“I’m sorry,” he said pulling me into his arms.

I turned to face him, “I’m sorry. I had no idea being back in your apartment would feel like that.”

“It’s only natural, there’s a lot of bad memories tied to there.”

I placed a hand on his chest, “Some good ones to.”

He nuzzled my nose, “Sometimes the bad out ways the good.”

“Maybe.”

“To be honest, I have been thinking about moving.”

I looked up at him shocked by the revelation.

“Really?”

“Yeah, I mean I feel the same sometimes.”

“Why?”

“The first time I walked in after you left. The feeling I felt was heartbreak. I knew I had pushed you away and it broke me. Sometimes when I come home to the empty apartment, especially after leaving you for the weekend, I get that feeling again. I get scared of losing you all over again. Not to mention your letter. I know we have never spoken of it but after I read it, the emotion you poured into it. I know a lot of it was your feelings in the moment but being there knowing you wrote that and poured all of those feelings out and into that letter in there after I walked away. Sometimes it hurts knowing how much I hurt you like that and it all happened there. I know there are good memories but like I said sometimes the bad out ways the good.”

“I never knew that I'm so sorry Logan.”

“I love you.”

My heart stopped and my breath caught in my throat. My eyes met his. I could see the feeling in them.

“I love you.” I returned.

He cupped my face and brought my lips to his. It was loving and deep. He rested his forehead on mine holding my gaze.

“You have no idea how long I've waited to tell you that.”

“Probably as long as I've wanted to.” I replied stealing another quick kiss.

“So, this fancy date tonight, do I get to know where we are going?”

“Nope, and don’t even ask for a hint as you won’t get one either.”

He huffed in a playful way. We spent the next few hours talking and catching up and seeing how his case was going. I managed to distract him so well that even though he was talking about the case he was not fixating on it. While he grabbed some drinks and poured them, I got a message from Jack asking how it was going. I replied quickly and told him everything was on track, and I would message him when we were on our way. He told me he had arranged a car to pick us up at 6pm. I sent him our new location for the car.