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When I finally was able to pull myself together I stood up. It wasn't an easy thing for a woman to do. Leaving a marriage is one of the toughest thing for a woman to do. Even if he was abusive it takes a lot of strength for us to actually get out of the relationship. Some will return and finally after a multitude of forgiveness and resentment we will be finally be ready to shed that part of our life and then slowly we will move on. I was finally able to break this circle of disappointment and crushed hopes.

When I opened the door I couldn't see him. I was glad that he had given upon trying to stop me. I didn't want to fight with him on my way out. I want to leave with a good memory. I should have known that our relationship will be doomed. I tried to save it. I have to admit I did a pretty good job of helping him. Only if he was a little more interested in living with me like I was. But I have already forgiven him and myself for desperation. That is what we had not love but the need