LOGINAs I pass the training grounds, I see a few men from the Red Moon. They don’t sit. They don’t talk. They stand and watch, as if they’re counting. Their posture is loose, yet it looks like they could spring at any moment. Kian’s favorite men pretend it doesn’t rattle them, but tension sits in their shoulders.
We stop in the antechamber of the council hall. “Wait here,” Mara says, then slips through the great door. Beyond it: low voices, wood creaking, the clink of glasses. Then someone laughs. Kian. Tiny beads of sweat prickle my back. My feet tense inside my shoes. There’s nowhere to run. The door opens. Kian stands there, eyes gleaming. “Come on,” he beckons. Something folds up inside my chest, but I move anyway. “We’ve got guests so important you wouldn’t believe it.” His voice is light. His eyes aren’t. In the great hall a long table stretches across the middle, people on both sides. Blackrock’s council sits to the left, Red Moon’s envoys to the right. At the head, the Alpha—Kian’s father—looks tired, his skin pale. At the far right end stands the man I saw at the gate. He’s closer now. His gaze is cold and focused. His eyes are green. A sharp, cutting green, as if he can see through everything. The air suddenly thickens. Strength drains from my knees. “Elariana.” Kian says my name and sets a hand on my shoulder, as if presenting an object. “She handles half the household. Fast, obedient, clean. Look at her hair. Such a rare shade. Like fresh snow, isn’t it?” I don’t look up. I don’t dare. But I feel it. The stranger’s stare slices into me like a knife. He doesn’t touch me, yet it pierces. My chest rises and falls, but barely. Don’t do anything. Don’t speak. Don’t feel. “Pretty,” someone on the Red Moon side says—not him, someone beside him. The voice is light, as if it doesn’t matter. “Do you bring gifts, too?” Kian’s grip tightens on my shoulder. His voice stays casual. “I’m only showing how orderly we live. Red Moon surely appreciates discipline.” “We do.” The man at the end speaks for the first time. His voice is deep, calm, with nothing extra in it. Not raised, yet perfectly clear. “Discipline is worth more than any banner.” The voice seeps under my skin. It’s not a good feeling. It’s foreign, and my wolf lifts its head inside me. That’s what I hate most—when the thing sleeping in me stirs for a reason I can’t control. No, I tell it silently. Quiet. It gives a low grunt, as if answering. “We welcome our guests,” the Alpha says with a strained smile. “You came to trade, to negotiate. We offer meat, weapons, protection. People, if needed.” The words hit the table like bone. People. My stomach churns. Kian’s fingers slide along the nape of my neck, as if warning me: smile, but don’t smile; breathe, but don’t show it. “We’re not looking for people.” The green-eyed man’s gaze doesn’t dart. It isn’t flirtatious or threatening. It’s just fact. “We’re looking for an alliance. Ratios of exchange. And… the truth.” That last word weighs more than the others. Kian laughs. “The truth? Everything here is true. Whatever I say.” The man doesn’t laugh. “Excellent. Then this will be simple.” “Serve,” Mara whispers behind me. I move, carrying the wine jug. I start on Red Moon’s side. The man’s glass is empty. My hand shakes; the wine ripples. I step closer. My head down, shoulders tight. In the air: metal and some pine-like scent. The lip of the jug reaches the rim of his glass when my wrist locks. Not because someone grabbed it—just my body. Old reflex. If I spill now, there will be trouble. If it drips, trouble. If I tremble, trouble. “Easy.” The man says it so softly it’s barely sound. Not a command, more like a statement. I don’t dare look up. The wine flows into the glass; not a single drop spills. I set the jug down, step back. My heart sits in my throat. “Thank you,” he adds. Not mocking, not as a game. Just said. The word hits like someone lifting my head above water only to push me back under. I can’t remember the last time anyone thanked me for breathing. Kian watches from the other side. His eyes narrow. I know what comes next: he makes a game of me. He’ll prove who owns this house. I go to my place by the wall. I don’t move while the negotiations drag on. Words fly across the table: prices, territories, passage rights. Now and then a delicate threat, probably for form’s sake. Kian enjoys it. The other man doesn’t. He’s like stone. Hit him and your hand hurts. At the end, the Alpha rises. “Let’s rest,” he says, signaling to the guests: the smaller rooms are ready, servants will show them the way. Kian flicks a hand at me. “You. With me.” His voice is sharp now. I freeze. In the corridor he catches my arm. Not roughly, just firmly enough that I can’t slip free. His strides are long, the pace quick. We’re heading for the “playroom.” My throat tightens, my vision narrows. My skin sweats. “You overdid it again,” he murmurs. “Your hand shook. He looked at me… and you shook. You like being looked at?” “No.” The word barely leaves my mouth. “No, sir.” “Then learn.” He opens the door. The room is empty, cold. Hooks line the wall, straps hang from them. A bowl of water sits on the table. This is worse than yelling. In the silence, every sound grows too loud: my breath, my foot scraping the stone, the leather’s creak when it’s moved. “Kneel,” he says. My knees give. I don’t argue. I stare at the wall. The cracks in the stone draw a map. If we survive this, the day goes on. The strap snaps shut around my wrist. The leather drinks my sweat. Kian leans close. “You will learn discipline. We don’t shake in front of guests. Understand?” “Yes.” The air shifts. He waits. This is the worst part—the waiting. Nerves, muscle, memory knot together in my chest. I close my eyes. My wolf rattles inside me like an animal kept behind a locked door. It doesn’t help—only reminds me there’s something left that might wake up one day. Not today. The first stroke isn’t hard. Just a mark. Skin shivers across my shoulder. The second is louder. I don’t cry out. Kian sighs. “Smart girl. You can keep quiet.” The words cut again. Girl. From him, it’s not an endearment. It’s a tool. I don’t know how long it lasts. Time loses meaning here. Eventually my body goes numb, my head empties. Kian unbuckles the strap. “Make yourself presentable,” he says, and leaves. The door shuts. I don’t move right away. My knees throb, my shoulder burns. I crawl to the water, splash my face, push my hair back as best I can. In a room without a mirror, looking at yourself just means guessing what you might look like without the unnecessary details. You need the kind of face no one can pity. The day isn’t over. There are tasks. Dinner has to be served. I go back to the kitchen. No one asks anything. Here everyone knows everything and still we don’t speak of it. The afternoon slowly herds my body back into routine: chopping, stirring, carrying. If I move, it hurts less. At evening the horn sounds again. Dinner. The great hall fills. The Red Moon men are looser now. Some lean on their weapons, speaking quietly. The green-eyed man sits at the end of the table, back to the wall, where he can see everything. He doesn’t smile. He doesn’t play. He just watches. I serve. The wine reaches his glass again. My hand wants to tremble, but something strange happens. My body remembers Kian’s words, the pain—and somehow the motion hardens to stone. The wine doesn’t slosh. I set the jug down. The man says nothing. He only nods. A tiny nod. Barely there. A pointless gesture—and yet… it doesn’t hurt. Throughout the evening Kian flicks glances at me. There’s calculation in his eyes. Not a good sign. The talks end without agreement. They’ll continue tomorrow. The guests are given rooms in the lower guest wing. Later, in the corridor, as I carry the dishes back, two Red Moon warriors pass me. They don’t look at me. Their scent is colder than ours. Their steps are measured, their breathing disciplined. They give the impression of men you cannot surprise. That night I lie on my cot in the storeroom, blue-green bruises pulsing along my spine narrating every move. I stare at the ceiling—which here is just the underside of the bunk above. The girl beside me cries softly. On the other side, a boy snores under his breath. The air is heavy. Flashes spark under my eyelids: Kian’s fingers in my hair. The green gaze that didn’t look like the others. My wolf growls very softly behind my ribs, oddly. I don’t understand the words—only the mood. Watchful. Something is watching. “Sleep,” I whisper to myself. “Tomorrow will be another day.” And as the silence settles around me, I hear from outside, from the stone courtyard, that deep, even footfall unlike any I’ve heard in my life. As if someone walks without fearing where they step. The rhythm is slow, certain. My heartbeat falls in line with it. I don’t want it to. But it does. My eyes close. And in the dark, for the first time—very softly, but clearly—I hear my wolf’s voice: “Something is coming.” I don’t answer. There’s nothing to say. I only promise myself I’ll pay closer attention tomorrow. Because here, in the depths of Blackrock, where fear and order walk hand in hand, only one thing is certain: if something is coming, it will either be war—or finally something that changes my life. And the two are almost the same.Elariana The morning still felt like it was stepping around me carefully, as if it was not sure it was allowed to pour full light over me. But when Zane stood and said he would have breakfast brought, something tiny yet enormous shifted inside me. The thought that my hunger was not a scandal, not shame, not the doorway to punishment. It was simply a sign that my body was alive, and someone did not want to silence it. It did not take long before he returned. The tent flap moved, and the next moment he was there with a bowl of warm food, a mug, and a piece of fresh bread. Steam rose from the bowl. The smell of spices and meat mixed together, simple and natural, as if this had always been part of my morning. Zane did not come too close. He set the bowl down on a flat board inside the tent, then sat across from me, leaving space between us. His presence was still strong, his alpha aura like a heavy blanket that can feel too warm, yet still makes you fee
Elariana He was still holding my hand. Not tightly, not possessively, just as if we were connected by a thin, warm thread, and if he let go, I would start falling again. My breathing slowly, very slowly began to calm. My chest no longer jerked as wildly as before, but that fine after tremor remained in my body, the one I always felt after a panic attack. As if my bones remembered that just moments ago, they thought they were going to die. Zane watched quietly. He did not rush me. He did not tell me to calm down. He did not hush me. He did not breathe for me. He was simply there, kneeling in front of me, my hand in his palm, looking at me as if he too were learning in that moment how to handle something far more fragile than anything he had ever held before. I do not know how much time passed like that. Minutes. Maybe longer. The tears slowly stopped. Only salty tracks remained on my face, and that strange emptiness relief leaves be
Elariana Morning crept into the tent so softly, as if dawn itself were afraid to disturb the fragile, almost dreamlike peace I had finally sunk into during the night. The light glowed faintly through the canvas, and as my eyes slowly opened, for a brief moment I thought I was still in that stifled, dark world where every waking meant a new command, a new punishment, or a new task. Then I realized there were no orders here. No cold, harsh voices demanding instant obedience. The tent was quiet and calm. A faint scent of lavender lingered in the air. And yet… something was wrong. The silence. That was it. Too wide. Too deep. Too empty. I sat up carefully, pulling the blanket to my chest, and as I looked around, my stomach clenched. Zane was not there. He was not standing at the entrance. Not sitting on the chair. His cloak was not where it usually was. The tent was painfully empty. And I… in a single heartbeat, I fell back into
Zane The fire was only glowing embers when the girl finally let her head sink into sleep. The air inside the tent was quiet, and the gray light of the outside sky seeped through the gaps in the canvas like a muted, breathing glow. From outside came the slow, deep sounds of the camp. Men murmuring, horses shifting, the dull rush of the river nearby. Yet it all felt distant. As if the whole world were holding its breath, watching someone finally sleep who had not dared to close her eyes in peace for months. I stayed. I did not lie down. I did not sleep. I just sat in the half light and watched her. My body still carried the weight of the day. My nerves, woven together for years by war and loss, were under a different kind of tension now. Not blood. Not anger. But the kind of patience a person feels when trying to hold something fragile without breaking it. Elariana breathed slowly, unevenly. Under the fresh bandage on her shoul
Zane Inside the tent, the candle flames swayed slowly as embers carried from the fire played with brief, teasing drafts of air. When I stepped in, the air changed. This time it did not smell of blood, but of something soft, clean, and strangely calming. Lavender. The sensation hit me in the stomach, as if I had opened the door to an old, dusty room and the scent of freshly washed fabric had filled the space, pushing sharp memories aside for a moment. She was sitting on the wooden bench, holding the towel close to herself so that it covered exactly as much as it should. In her movements there was everything I had seen during the day. Uncertainty. Fear. And yet something else she was slowly learning. The small but stubborn beginning of owning her own body. I stopped at the entrance for a moment and made myself not stare. Not because it would have been forbidden. I had given her the freedom of choice myself. But because I knew that even a look can carr
Zane The campfire was slowly burning down, but the embers were still glowing, casting a reddish light on the faces around us. Dinner was simple. Roasted meat, fresh bread, some vegetables. Nothing special for my warriors. But for Elariana, I could see that every bite was another battle she had to fight with herself. She sat across from me, at a distance she had chosen, and I respected it. She held her back stiffly, her shoulders tense, as if an attack could come at any moment. Her hand shook slightly as she held the spoon, but still… she ate. Not quickly. Not confidently. But she ate. And that was more than I had ever hoped for in these first days. From time to time my gaze drifted to her, watching every small movement. I knew she could feel it when I looked at her, so I was careful not to stare too long. I did not want her to think I was judging her appetite or the pace of her eating. I just wanted to make sure nothing was hurting her. My soldiers were quieter than us







