MasukVanessa sat alone in front of the computer. As usual, she was in their department’s computer lab. This had become her usual spot ever since her life turned into a mess.
It’s been a week since her nosy cousin Mae left for Isla Verde. Apparently, she’s living there now with her grandma on her mother’s side. Vanessa had never set foot on that island, but based on Mae’s stories, it was really beautiful—breathtaking even.
But after one accident, she’s wasn’t sure she ever wanted to go there. An accident she never wanted to remember.
Now, she had no choice but to finish their research paper alone. They had started it together, but now Mae was gone. Such a waste. They were already graduating, and now this had to happen. Life’s really unfair sometimes, you never know what’s coming. Life is so unfair. She let out a sigh.
And seriously, Mae? She had to spread her legs and not even use protection? Not even withdrawal?! Dios mio. And that’s why this country’s population keeps going up, too many unwanted pregnancies.
All she could say was, knowledge is power!
Vanessa shook her head hard. Why was she even stressing about Mae’s problem? She had more than enough of her own! She closed her eyes tight and let out a long sigh.
She opened her F******k account.
Hay naku, Vanessa! That’s why you’re not finishing your thesis because you’re busy flirting with F******k! And then what? What will you get out of it? More issues. More problems. And now you’re stuck with your thesis because you keep scrolling. Think, girl, THINK! her brain scolded her.
Sometimes her brain actually made sense.
She was about to log out and close F******k when she saw a picture. It was from her sister Sharon’s wedding with Sir Lloyd.
It was Sharon flashing a peace sign beside… wait a second… him. The guy with the stinky armpits!
Don’t tell me Sharon is close with this guy? Vanessa blinked a few times, hoping maybe her eyes were just playing tricks. Nope. Still him. It was him.
“Is this a sign that an Alvarez actually likes me?”
Vanessa almost jumped out of her chair when she heard that voice. Her heart skipped and started beating like crazy.
Oh no. No, no, no. It was him. The guy from the picture. Standing right behind her.
She closed her eyes and praying that it just a dream. Sharon, when will luck ever kiss me instead?
The guy cleared his throat. “Well, silence means yes,” he teased. She heard him laugh behind her. She raised her eyebrows.
“I look handsome there, right? Don’t worry, I used Rexona today. My armpits smell good now.” He even smells his own armpit.
She rolled her eyes in disgust. Oh, wow. The confidence of this guy! She turned to him and raised an eyebrow.
“Are you a mushroom?” she asked.
“Why?” His lips curled into a grin.
She laughed. “It’s not a pick-up line, stupid.”
The guy burst out laughing at her comeback. “You’re really something,” he said, pouting, then sat beside her. “Wait. I just need to update something. I can’t open my account here in the lab,” he explained before walking over to the lab staff.
Did I ask? Vanessa wanted to snap back but held her tongue. Weirdly enough, her sass didn’t work on this guy.
She looked back at the monitor and checked who posted the photo. “Alex David Fuentes,” she read aloud.
So that was his name. And apparently, they were already F******k friends! Since when did I accept a friend request from Mister Stinky Armpits?
“You’re staring at my picture, huh?” Alex’s voice came again. “Admit it, you think I’m handsome. Don’t deny it. I won’t get mad.”
She frowned. This guy really was like a mushroom—popping up everywhere. She turned to him and glared.
“So, your name is Alex David Fuentes?” she asked slowly.
Alex grinned and nodded.
“It’s pronounced Day-vid, not Da-vid. My God!” he complained dramatically, even smacking her shoulder. “You tortured my beautiful name!”
Her jaw dropped. “Do you want me to call you Ey-lex instead of Alex? Now tell me who’s the dramatic one between us?” she shot back.
Alex chuckled and took the computer beside her—even though there were a lot of other empty seats. She wanted to complain, but she didn’t want to give him another reason to call her “dramatic.”
He placed his dark blue bag under the desk, fixed his chair, and even dusted off his slacks like there was dirt on them. She made a face. Wow, this guy might actually be more dramatic than me. She shook her head.
He looked about 5’6” tall.
Seriously, Vanessa? You’re measuring his height now? Do you have a tape measure in your bag? her brain teased.
But to be fair… he was tall. About the same height as her husband Gian. She shook her head quickly. Nope. No comparisons allowed. Gian was her husband. Case closed.
“Anyway,” she said to Alex, trying to change the topic. “Are you friends with Ate Sharon?”
“Maybe yes, maybe no. What do you think?” he teased. “Why do you ask? Curious about me? Yieee.” He laughed, which only irritated her more.
“I’m serious! What’s so funny about that?” she snapped.
“Oh, well.” He cleared his throat. “Sharon and I—”
“Oh gosh, don’t tell me you’re her ex-boyfriend?” she cut in, making him laugh again.
“You’re unbelievable. Why ask if you already have your own conclusion?”
She rolled her eyes again. Ugh, men. “So, what then?” she pushed.
“Sharon is my co-writer. We collaborated on the Hacienda Series—”
“What the—You’re Davina?!” she blurted out, her jaw dropping. She looked him up and down. “You don’t even look like a writer. And why Davina? I thought Davina was a girl!”
Alex laughed even harder. “Well, well, well. Looks like you’re one of my readers.” He winked at her.
“Excuse me? The only reason I read your works was because of Sharon,” she lied. Truth was, she was a fan.
“Then thank you, Sharon!” he said, grinning.
People’s eyes sparkled and their lips carried smiles as she walked past them. Vanessa held the flowers tightly, the ones Mae had designed for her. The word happiness was too small for what she was feeling. Even William Shakespeare would fail to capture the weight of her joy. She once thought this day would never come. She thought it would remain only a dream, only in her imagination. She thought her memory of her first wedding—one that felt more like a funeral—would never be replaced. But now, her dream of a beach wedding came true. Her dream of walking down the aisle also came true. Finally, all of it came true. Who would have guessed that in the end, it would be Gian she would marry? Who would have thought the dramatic, playful Gian would turn into a real man? Who would have thought she would get married again? They went through so many struggles, so many trials, yet here they were—still standing strong. Yes, she forced Gian in the wrong way before, but it was her apology t
Vanessa let out a long sigh. She had tried every sleeping position she could think of that night, but sleep just wouldn’t come. It kept running away from her.Maybe she should be thankful that her cousin Sharon got stuck in Cagayan. Because of that, she had the chance to stay for a while in Gian’s small place.But isn’t that selfish? Like I’m just taking advantage…She got up from bed and opened the door leading to the terrace. Right away, the cold wind from the storm wrapped around her. It wasn’t too strong in their area, but strong enough to chill the air. She looked up at the moon, now almost hidden from sight.She felt guilty. She had run away from home again. She didn’t even understand herself sometimes. She always wanted to go against her father. Like now—her dad hated the idea of her joining the messy world of showbiz, but she disobeyed anyway. Maybe because that was what her mom did before she passed away.Vanessa wanted so badly to be an actress, to be famous. It felt like th
Vanessa glared at her husband the second he stepped out of the bathroom, smelling fresh and looking neat. She hated that he still looked good—it only made her blood boil more.She had no choice but to let him inside earlier. Her dad told her to, and when it came to her dad, his word was always law. No arguing with that.As soon as they arrived, Manang Celia welcomed them and handed Gian a set of clothes. Vanessa rolled her eyes so hard she thought they might stay that way.She sat on the bed, laptop on her lap, while Gian dried his hair with a towel. Ugh. Even she couldn’t deny it. The man was handsome.Too handsome… handsome enough to cheat.She clicked her tongue. You really can’t trust him.Her story on screen blurred in front of her. She gave up, opened another tab, and logged in to Facebook. It had been days since she last checked her account—not that she missed it.And then Gian sat beside her. She felt his weight dip the mattress and, without even thinking, she shot him a death
After closing the pink curtain in her room, she heard three knocks followed by the door opening.“Won’t you let Gian in?”It was Manang Celia’s voice. Vanessa didn’t look at her to answer. She didn’t want to face Gian because just hearing his name made her blood boil. His name alone was enough to raise her anger.“It’s raining hard outside, your husband might get sick,” Manang added.“Should I care? When I was in the hospital, where was he?” Vanessa answered coldly, still staring at the curtain.“Vanessa, don’t be too stubborn.”“I’m not. I’m just giving him back what he gave me—”She stopped talking when she heard the door close again.What’s my fault? Why are they all angry at me? They should be angry at Gian, not me.Even if she didn’t want to, she opened the curtain again. Outside, she saw Gian hugging himself against the strong wind and rain. He looked cold. She forced herself not to feel pity. She didn’t want to feel anything for him anymore.She didn’t want to go back to the ol
Two days passed, and she was finally home. She heard that her brother, Jason, had gone back to America. He promised he would look for Ellena, but maybe he wasn’t brave enough to keep that promise. She felt sorry for him, but she knew he needed to learn his own lessons. Her thoughts were cut off when someone placed a cup on the table beside her laptop. “Won’t Gian come looking for you?” asked Manang Celia. Before answering, Vanessa reached for the cup. “Thank you, Manang,” she said with a small smile. She still didn’t understand why Gian had not visited her, or maybe he was just too busy with someone else. Was that woman really new? Or had she been in his life before Vanessa? Was I just something to pass the time, Gian? she thought. Maybe we shouldn’t have come back here. Since the day she left the hospital, her husband never came to see her again. “Vanessa, what really happened? Did you and Gian fight? Is that why you don’t want to go home to him?” She took a deep breat
Vanessa looked out the open window. Her eyes talked to the leaves that the soft wind was hitting. The heavy raindrops matched her sorrow. The rain felt like a sign of her bad luck.She heard on the news that a storm was coming. It felt like the sky would cry with her. Like the clouds wanted to match every drop of her tears.She thought someone would be with her. She thought she would never be alone again. She thought she would finally be a real mother. But why did this happen? Why like this?Why did God allow her baby to be lost? Why?When will this nightmare end?Since she woke up after the operation, she didn’t say a word. She did not want to talk. She did not want to. She just wanted to stare into nothing.The nothing that matched her sadness.She knew she had not been good before. She wanted to change. But is this her payback? Is this what she gets? Does she really have to go through all this?She thought nothing could hurt more than her husband’s betrayal. But there was more. Los







