Prologue: A dream
My feet propel me forward and the spiral stairway seems to go on and on. I feel as if I have been running forever. When I get to the bottom of the stairs I dart across the sitting room and charge toward the exit. I push with everything I have in me and beg that the Moon Goddess will grant me the strength I know I don’t have.
Please, please, please.
When the door fails to open I steel myself for the pain I know I’ll earn. I charge the door a second time, but this time I throw my shoulder into it. This time, miraculously, it opens for me. My victory is short lived as I’m blinded. All I can hear is the ringing in my ears. A wolf’s bane grenade had gone off. I squint my eyes, hoping to see through the blinding light. Finally the fog clears and everything is moving in slow motion. My first instinct is to find him, to pick up his scent.
No matter how much I call out to Mavy she doesn’t answer. I can’t hear her and I fear what that might mean. I cry out as I trip and fall over something. I land on my knees and break my fall with my hands. I stare in shock as I find the head of my dearest friend, Gabriel. My throat dries and I choke with emotion, the tears streaming down my face as I force myself to push forward. The need to find him helps me as I rush past the arms, legs, and heads of familiar faces.
I need to find him.
With that thought I continue forward. In the corner of my eye, the ground moves and I come to a stop. I turn and watch as a pile rises and falls. There’s something beneath the bodies and I wait as a shape pushes up and the dead roll off. I gasp as black hair pushes up and out. My heart swells and a sob gets stuck in my throat as I watch him look around wildly. He’s looking for me. When his eyes lock on mine, I cry as relief floods his face. He stands up and my eyes rake down his body. It’s my turn to be relieved and I let out a breath I didn’t know I’d been holding when I only count superficial scratches.
He’s okay.
He’s alive.
The need to touch him grows and almost explodes as he stands to his feet and straightens his back. A small smile pulls at his lips as he takes his first step toward me. I can feel his need and his relief as if it were my own. Our emotions linked as our hearts are. My brows furrow as I feel his shock and then his pain. Frantically my eyes dart over his body as I try to locate what’s wrong. My gaze freezes over his chest, his beautiful chest. The mate bond snaps and my world goes cold.
I’m all alone.
My eyes lock on the hand protruding from his chest, blood drips from the still beating organ. My eyes dart back to my mate’s face as he falls to the ground. I can’t look away from him as the sound of footsteps draw nearer. He drops something near my head and grabs a handful of hair. He starts dragging me and I hit my head on a rock. The last thing I see is the empty eyes of my mate before I lose consciousness. The last coherent thought I have is knowing I’m all alone.
Odis takes a step to the side, and the crowd’s attention turns to me and my mate. As my gaze travels over them, their cheeks stained, their eyes are shocked, and blood splattered at their feet. A lot has happened and everything is moving so quickly now. I don’t know what I was expecting to happen after Shane killed Ethan. I thought everything would go back to the way it always should have been. Becoming Luna and taking over a pack wasn’t what I had in mind. My mate turns to leave, but Odis block him. “Move,” Shane growled. Odis tucked his chin, but held eye contact. “While I am not your chosen Beta, I will hold this position until you choose your own,” Odis growled. “I’ve already got a lineup. Your services are no longer needed,” Shane said coldly. “Until it’s official then,” Odis replied firmly. “Please allow me to have my-to have the remains moved.” My mate went still. He didn’t look back at the body, and I didn’t either. His gaze remained on Odis. “Permission granted,” Shane sa
I love you.I love you.I love you.The words repeat in my mind and I struggle with not linking him. Shane’s eyes widen as he takes in the words that are on repeat in my mind. It’s utter chaos up there, and I don’t want him to hear any of it. His head tilts to the side in question, as if he can’t believe what I just said, and his brows furrow. Shane’s fingers dig into my side as he pulls me flush against his chest. My heart is beating so loud I’d be surprised if he couldn’t hear it. The curse’s broken, the true villain defeated and dead at our feet. It restored the way things always should have been. There’s nothing in our way, and we can finally be together. I have my mate’s full attention as screams of despair ensue behind him.
“Do you know how many times I’ve killed you? You won in the first life, but I made it my mission, to end every one of yours after. I’ve become the villain so many times, I don’t know if I can be the hero. I don’t know if I can be the man she deserves. What I do know is that I’m the man she’s got…,” Shane trailed off. His shoulders shook and I wondered if he was crying, when he started laughing.“I should not atone for sins I know nothing of. This is not the way an alpha should run a pack. There was no trial, and I wasn’t given the opportunity to defend myself,” Ethan grunted.“Defend?” Shane asked incredulously. “Defend?! At what point did you give my mate the opportunity to defend herself? Was there a single moment in the time she spent shackled to you that you gave her a reprieve? On the nights she begged you to stop, did you?&rdq
As the unwanted feeling began welling up inside of me, I wanted to slap myself across the face. I needed to do something to snap out of it, anything to shake this feeling. Ethan’s face started to grow pale and my hands trembled as I stared at the man I’d spent lifetimes with. I wanted him gone, I didn’t want to see his face any longer. The sooner the better, before this disgusting feeling could grow any larger than it already had. I had asked Shane to take his time and make Ethan’s blood run, but now I just wanted him gone, erased from my memory, erased from this life.I wanted him to suffer as I had, but no amount of torturing would make him feel what I had felt. Nothing Shane did could make him feel what I was going through now that I had all of my memories back. Nothing could make the wrongs he’s done right and I hate that I know this. My throat dries as Shane grabs a handful of hair and the largest part of me that loves him a
“Watch as I kill the man that cursed us,” Shane murmured.Everything clicks into place and my mate’s glowing eyes stare back at me. I lean up and press a kiss to his chin. Shane’s breathing shutters and he devours my lips as I cry. His hand slides up my neck and cups my cheek. I nuzzle into it, but he releases me too soon. My knees are weak and I sway on my feet without him. Turning to look down at Ethan, I follow Shane’s gaze and take in the man on his knees. His hair is in his face, blood drips down the side of his face, and oozes down his body. He’s losing a lot of it and fast.“The two of you need help,” Ethan spat.“I don’t think you’ve got much time left,” I said to Shane.I should sick at the sight of what Shane has done to him, but all I can think about is how fate still brought us together. Even as Shane fought for me, it was as if this was all a fairy tale story with a shitty ending. And somewhere out there, an author was getting off on our pain. That, or the Moon Goddess pu
My mate’s shoulders shake and he rolls his head back until he’s looking up at the sky. He closes his eyes and a tear breaks free and rolls down his cheek. He laughs hysterically before his head drops forward. The muscles in his jaw twitched before he lifts his chin and he looks at me with haunted eyes.“Now I know I’m dreaming, but I pray I never wake,” Shane murmured.How is it that even after I tell him I’ve remembered, he still can’t believe me? My soul bled for him as more tears blurred my vision. Would I ever be able to make it up to him? He turns from me as people poured from the halls and into the courtyard. A crowd was forming around us and worry filled me as I feared for my mate. We were on Ethan’s territory, surrounded by his pack, and soon his ranked members would be here. I could only hope the law in place for alpha fights kept them back.“Shane,&