Cassandra Salvatore~•~Both of their jaws clenched as soon as the words fell from my lips.I stood to the side, breathing heavily as Matteo took a seat on the barstool while Rowan started pacing.Soon enough, he stopped and faced me. "You want—" he paused, shaking his head. "You want to leave? You want to break up with us?"Now, I regretted my words. "No, I don't want to break up. I love you guys." I reminded them."Is there any other definition of calling it quits?"I sucked on my teeth. "I'm sorry, okay? I don't want to break up. You guys are just suffocating right now."Matteo, who happened to be the only level-headed one in the room, extended his arm to me. I looked at it carefully before taking it. He dragged me so I was standing in between his legs.Seeing the expression on his face, I decided to clarify. "It's not like I want to get away from you guys or take a break or anything. Believe me, I always want to be around you, but I just need to think—"I was suddenly cut off when
Cassandra Salvatore~•~"What?""This woman. Your mother. What's her name? Do you recall what she looks like?""Why?" He shot me a pointed look and I bit my lip. "Just let her be. She's my past. I don't know where she is right now.""She can be traced easily.""Just forget about it, please," I begged Rowan because if I didn't, there was no guarantee he wouldn't go after her.I also hated the things I'd gone through but finding her wasn't going to change the past. What happened already happened. There was no going back."She's in the past," I repeated, making sure he got the message. I wasn't interested in opening up a can of worms. "Clearly not too far into it if you're thinking about her."I breathed sharply at the jab, making Rowan swear."I didn't mean it like that, baby. I didn't." He said, walking up to me. He lifted my chin so I was looking up at him while still in Matteo's arms. "I love you so fucking much that I can't stand seeing you hurt. Knowing that someone who put you th
Cassandra Salvatore~•~Jules was staring at me with her mouth wide open while I fidgeted under her gaze."Can you not look at me like I'm an alien?" I whined.She suddenly hugged me, but it wasn't like I was not expecting it. I was surprised she even lasted this long without wrapping me with her long ass arms."God, Cassie, you have been through so much, haven't you?""I guess." I sighed, not wanting to make a big deal out of it. I didn't want to have the same conversation with her as I did with Matteo and Rowan which was why I didn't wait for her to ask me any questions before I blurted it all out. "Okay, now you're just suffocating me.""I'm sorry, I'm sorry." She chuckled, pulling away. "You told Rowan and Matteo before me?" I shrugged. "Well, it came up.""Those men are stealing you from me slowly.""Don't be so dramatic, Jules." I laughed. I was happy she wasn't bursting into tears or doing something extra like she had done when she first found out that I was being abused by my
Cassandra Salvatore~•~"Let's throw a party.""Get out of my room," I yelled out from my closet as soon as I heard Jules' voice. I was in the middle of getting ready for work.Instead of listening to me, she stuck her head inside my closet, strolling inside when she saw me putting on my pants. "Pleaseeee. A Halloween party.""We've had too many parties for the year.""We've had only one party!" She cried out."Yeah, a week ago and it's enough for the year. We'll have another one next year."Jules scowled at me. "I wasn't asking you. I was telling you." I arched an eyebrow at her. Technically, it was my house, so— "Fine. Please. If you don't want to attend the party, you can just stay at your other house.""What other house?" I frowned, fixing my earrings. She rolled her eyes. "Matteo and Rowan's, of course.""Shut up.""Anyway, real talk. Are we throwing the party or not?""We're not in college anymore, Jules.""Yeah, but we're still young. We are twenty-three, Cassie. Not fifty.""T
Cassandra Salvatore~•~I watched nervously as a big smile came on Justina's face. "Which one? Matteo or Rowan? I like Matteo better even if he's kind of moody."Oh, yeah. Justina was the one person that could tell them apart because of how much time she spent with Matteo."She said them, Tina," Lauretta smirked. "That's why I'm asking who!" She frowned."Wait," Nicholas suddenly interrupted as realization dawned on him. "You're dating two of them? At once?"I nodded hesitantly."How? How does that even work?""Let's just say it's like when men get married to two wives. Polygamy." Lauretta explained. It seemed like she wasn't irritated by the idea. If I didn't know better, I'd say she was intrigued."Well, polyamory in this case.""Do they know?" Nicholas asked again."Know what?""That you're dating both of them?""Of course, they do.""Wow," he leaned back in his seat. He was taking this better than I expected him to. "That's just— wow.""Doesn't it feel weird? Both of them having
Cassandra Salvatore~•~I knew I said I wanted to keep the past in the past but there was something that sparked in me that day; the day I had that conversation with Matteo and Rowan about my mother.It got me wondering. Was she alive? Was she doing well? Was she married?She had been very young when she had me. It probably didn't help that my dad died shortly after. I didn't know if that was what propelled her bad decisions concerning her life.She didn't talk much about my father. All she said was that he was a Korean who came to America for college. His family was supposedly rich but when she reached out to them, they didn't believe she was impregnated by their late son.Thinking about it now, they were probably still grieving and couldn't process the thought of their son having offspring.That being said, I didn't know my father's name or anything else about him, but I did know my mother's name. It wasn't a wonder I still remembered it because she couldn't be bothered to give me a
Cassandra Salvatore~•~I heard my room door open but I didn't turn around to see who it was.Soon enough, my bed dipped and someone put his arm around my waist.I sighed in relief as Matteo pulled me against his body.For a few seconds, we just lay there silently until Matteo broke it. "What happened to your laptop, baby?"Fuck. I had forgotten about that. Now, I had to add that to the list of things I needed to buy. "My hand slipped. Sorry." I didn't know what I was apologizing for but I was still in my head about my mother."It's okay, love. I'll get you a new one."I didn't have the energy to argue with him on that and I had also learned that arguing with Matteo was useless. When he put his mind to something, there was no stopping him. He had put his mind to spoiling me with his money and there was nothing I could do about it. He said it was his love language."Rowan also wanted to come," Matteo spoke again when we had been silent for too long. He probably thought I was thinking a
Cassandra Salvatore~•~I woke up before my alarm could ring, unable to ignore the erection pressing against my ass.Matteo had ended up sleeping over while Rowan had called to make sure I was okay.Rowan and Matteo had brought out a sexual appetite in me I never knew I had because I found myself rubbing my ass against his dick.I could feel it stirring even if he wasn't awake. I wondered how he would feel if he woke up to a blow job. I opened my eyes, looking through the small gap in the curtains to see that it was still dark outside. My eyes drifted to the digital clock. It was only past five.Matteo and I had slept early last night. I wanted him to distract me with more sex but he refused. It was annoying but I couldn't force myself on him. I ended up thinking back to my mother and I found myself crying. Matteo was there to hold me until I finally fell asleep.I felt stupid but I couldn't help my emotions.It was dark inside the room so I turned on the lamp.Matteo was sleeping p