CHAPTER 15—Not Ashamed But it's Not AllowedRaffi's Point of ViewI couldn't choose an outfit to wear because Rock didn't say where we were going. He just told me to change my clothes because we were going somewhere. I want to jump but maybe it's better if I just wear a dress.I chose a pink floral dress. It's more comfortable to use than pants. My long hair and I tied it up high. I put light makeup on my face. Just the right thing so I don't look pale. I also chose my perfume that smells like strawberry mixed with cucumber. Recently, that has been my favorite perfume.I chose a light pink sling bag that can hold my phone and wallet. As I walked down the stairs I was still thinking about where Rock and I could be going. I have no idea.There was no one in the living room, so I sat on the sofa and waited for Rock. It didn't take long and I saw him coming out of the library. I thought he was coming from his room. I stood up when he approached me.I can clearly see how he observed my who
CHAPTER 16—It's Really OkayRaffi's Point of ViewI WAS catching my breath when I got outside the big gate. I couldn't remember where Rock's car was parked but I tried to find it anyway. Lots of cars parked in a row. Almost everything looks expensive."Where is Rock's car?" I asked myself. I tried to remember where Rock stopped but I couldn't really remember.I breathed deeply. I feel like I'm lost even though I know I'm just outside Lucille's mansion. But the feeling like I'm lost in the void and don't know where to go and what to do, that's how I feel now.I don't want to call Rock because I might disturb him in his conversation with Lucille and her family."Raffy?"I suddenly turned around when someone called me. I knew it was Rock so I breathed a sigh of relief anyway. "Rock," I called back to him with a slight smile. I saw Rock step towards me."What do you think are you doing?" he asked when he got close to me."Huh? Nothing. I can't do anything here. I can't see your car." I tr
CHAPTER 17—Need to Ask Permission Raffi's Point of ViewI ENTERED the hospital the next day. And I didn't make a mistake because Naya greeted me with questions. One after the other and without end. Actually, I can hear too much in her voice. Fortunately, I entered early. I can't log in because my friend keeps talking to me."Can we at least talk about that on another day or place?" I asked Naya. My voice is weak because I am shy. My friend's questions, the things related to what happened with Rock and me. I had no intention of telling her the full details. That thing is sacred.She glared at me then brought her face closer to mine. "The truth is, confess to me. You already gave your virginity to him, right?" she asked. She was weak but I immediately covered her mouth because it was difficult and someone might overhear our conversation."Don't be so loud!" I said. I looked around.Naya tried to remove my hand from her mouth. "Leave me alone! Why? My question is weak, isn't it?" She gl
CHAPTER 18—Feeling Strange Raffi's Point of ViewWhen I came home late at night I was very tired. There were patients who came because there was a disease spreading in a town and we brought the majority who were struck by fever to the hospital.I could hardly move my body when I lay on my bed. My hands are also hurting. I have no idea if Rock has arrived because I didn't ask the maids I met earlier on my way up here. I thought that maybe he was not there and was busy with his business so he couldn't come home.When I closed my eyes, I didn't notice that I fell asleep because I was so tired.I just woke up when I felt someone caressing my cheek. I slowly opened my eyes. When I saw Rock, I must admit I was surprised but I didn't act. I just stared at his face."Hi," he greeted me"Hi," I said then stretched my body. "What are you doing here?" I sat down and looked at him. "What time is it?""It's eleven o'clock.""Is it too late?""Hmm. Matilde said you haven't eaten yet.""Ah, yes. I
CHAPTER 19—Not Feelin' WellRaffi's Point of ViewWHEN I entered the hospital the next day, the number of patients increased. Most of them were children so I was more busy as well as the rest of my companions. I wasn't able to eat lunch because I was really busy."I'll take care of this first, Raffi. Eat first," said Naya. Even though she still wasn't eating.I shook my head. “No. Even if you eat first. I'll be there later. There are many who are not given IV fluids so I can't even eat anymore.” Even though our faces are tired and hungry, we still think about our priorities. It is more important to take care of them before we eat.Naya and I continued what we were doing. Even Doctor Lyndon was busy. It also took us some time to process. Apart from that, there are also complaints, so my work is very different."Nurse Raffi, maybe you can take care of my baby first. It's hard for him to breathe." I approached the woman who was crying carrying the child who I think was three years old.I
CHAPTER 20—Highly AppreciatedRaffi's Point of ViewI didn't expect my fever to continue that night. I thought I would feel better when I slept but it just got worse. I was even more dizzy that my vision was almost spinning when I tried to get up from lying on top of my bed.I felt someone enter my room but I couldn't see. The lights were off and I couldn't open my eyes. "Who is that?" I asked the newcomer.I stopped suddenly when I smelled something. It was familiar but my mind couldn't believe it. It's impossible for Rock to come to my room at this hour. I took a deep breath then tried to open my eyes then what was there was reflected.It was blurry when I first saw the bulk of Rock's body but it became clear after a while. “R-Rock?” I called with a hoarse voice.“Hmm?” was his only answer. Next I felt his hand caressing my forehead and neck. "Does something hurt you?"I nodded. "My whole body hurts, especially my head and throat.”"The doctor came here earlier to check your body. Y
CHAPTER 21—He's Concerned Raffi's Point of ViewI WOKE up early in the morning and somehow I felt okay. I noticed that Rock was on the sofa and he was sleeping. It was like someone caressed my heart when I saw that he was like a naive child in the world while sleeping soundly.I carefully moved to get up. Rock didn't have a blanket on his body and it seemed like he was struggling to get a seat on the sofa. I felt guilty. I slowly approached him. Now I can stare at Rock's face more. His natural eyelashes are long. The nose is pointed and the lips are normally red and thin.I swallowed when I remembered how Rock kissed me. I was taken back when he opened his eyes and the strength of my heart beat."You're awake." Rock got up and rubbed his eyes. He looked at me then smiled slightly.'Am I blind or did he really smile?' I asked myself."Raffy?" he called me.It was as if I came to my senses and looked at him. "Y-yes.""Are you still awake? Do you want to eat?” Rock looked at the watch h
CHAPTER 22— Gaslighting Raffi's Point of ViewWHEN I woke up the sun was high. I can feel my sweat now and I know, I don't have a fever anymore. When I looked at the sofa, Rock wasn't there. He was not in the room and I was the only one there. I spent a few moments before standing up and going to the closet. I'm sticky and want to take a shower. There is a heater so my body will not be shocked by the cold.From the time I started to the end, Rock still didn't come back to my room. It's not that he needs to come back here, but I just want to thank him because he's kind. He took care of me when my fever was high. It's just a simple thank you, I know he'll appreciate it, but I can think of something nice to do.When I left my room, Matilde was about to climb the stairs. We looked at each other. I don't know if I should pay attention to her or not. The way she looks at me is always so cold. I don't know if it's just me or others too."Are you feeling okay, Raffi?" she asked me.I was a l